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OrangeFairy

Debt busting going well!!

Glad you had a fantastic time even though the planning wasn't great!

Woohoo to flying next week! I bet you are really excited!!!!!!!

Good luck with the job hunting x

HamsterWheel_3

flying visit as im supposed to be packing...3 cases 3 people so why am i filling all three??? lol

Anyway staying over at gatwick tomorrow night to fly first thing wed morning, i have been padding and spending (sulks) but hopefulyl next two weeks i wont spend a penny lol.. plus bf debt to me is now about £400 so hopefully get that in the bank asap!!

Anyway hope you all behave while im away and speak soon xxxx

Herewego

Have a fantastic holiday you can come back fighting fit and ready to get that new job. Please bring the sun back with you

OrangeFairy

Have a great holiday hun. I bet you will have a fantastic time x

OrangeFairy

Hello Hamster ??

I would imagine you are back from your holiday? Unless you were doing 3 weeks! I hope you have had a great time x

HamsterWheel_3

Hi all

How naughty am i staying away for so long sorry about that loads going on and ill have to be quick as......... im at work in my new job:j:j

Holiday was great we all enjoyed it and would love to go back, spent alittle too much as usual but nothing to cause us any problems

Got back on the thursday had an interview on the friday got told on monday i hadthe job and started on the 28th june. Its within transport which i have done before and im loving it still 3 weeks on but majorly busy!

Bf is semi behaving he is still trying to beat the drink but failing alittle here and there im trying to be supportive but its so hard when you hear and see the same things over and over again

I havent been majorly padding as i am on salary and got to wait what seems likeages to be paid, plus its weird as its every 4 weeks is the pay day so got to budget as all on diff days of months.

Money is ok at mo and managing to meet all my monthly payments with a bit on top and ive got money in the bank.

Sat dow with BF the other day who has since moved in properly due to so much work and told him how much i want a month which if his work is regular and i nag enough this will make a nice difference to my bank..

Tax credits all sorted which was anice relief just waiting for paperwork to be updated so i know exactly where i am each week.

Still working my night time job so im burning the candle at both ends so to speak but i really wanna make a diff in debts this year so onwards i will continue.

Kids break up next week and thankfully my folks will se to my dd meaning i dont have to take time off for work, New uniform and school bits to be bought tho so not looking forward to that shopping trip

Right hope all is well gonna try and catch up on everyones diaries tonight and get back on track hope your all smiling and beating those debts


love to all xxx

HamsterWheel_3

""sneaks in""

God i have been awol and im sorry people, i will try and catch up with everything but its all been up and down in my life these past couple of months really

Bf did a bad drinking time caused a lot of pain but is now back on tablets so hopefully we back on track, we now officially live together and he has lots of work on so thats a bonus too.

Dd is fine but when he went off the rails she was scared and i think she felt a bit unloved so im trying to mend all of that.

I got my job when i got back from holliday and still working in evenings so managing about 70 hours a week every week 7 days a week and totally shattered but to b last and blitz these debts while still living an ok life then it has to be done.

New job going well but busy is an understatement its constant from the minute i walk in to the minute i come back.

Had a few days out lately which have been nice and have a week in torquay, thanks " sun holidays" in october to look forward to, By then i will really need this break!
Ive put on an obscene amount of weight and not happy, my chin touches my boobs.. well ok not completely but im sure a few of you know what i mean.

Money is more or less the same really, i have been making all my payments but as im so busy i havent been adding them to pad so ive kept a running total i will pop over and add it in now, I took out a provi loan last year between jobs... stupid decision but its done now but luckily i have been paying over the odds so only a lil bit left, be pleased when thats gone!
Also started throwing money at other bills to try and get ahead, im not skint im not flush but im not worrying and everything is getting paid so thats the main thing

Had my smear test today, peed me off at work as they said i would have to " make the time up" and thats from a woman boss! really grilled me that did, we have to do these things and yet companies cant be compassionate about it!:mad:


Anyway back to work, roll on 11pm tonight to add another 17 hour working day to my week lol

Love to all and hope all is wel x

OrangeFairy

My god - your post made me feel knackered!

You do have to be careful with children dont you. My DD1 is quite sensitive and i have to be very careful with the words i use or she gets down and thinks i don't love her or that she is an awful child etc! I try and have girly time with her regularly to have proper chats and enjoy her company.

I know the money will be great for this new job but please take care of yourself and don't run yourself too much into the ground

A couple of months longer to clear the debt is better than having to drive yourself insane with tiredness and stress

Glad to 'see' you back. And relieved things are better with your OH. :j

HamsterWheel_3

thanks sweetie thats nice of you to pop in i thought i would have to wear a sandwich board to get recognised again lol


I know what you mean about having some time for me, but its what ive always known, only thing is i am not sleeping well, well i am when i finally get to sleep but my mind is so full of crap i cant clear it to drop off, Its mad and i discussed it with the nurse this evening, i lay down shattered but then i try and clear my mind it dont work, so i try and think of nice things but then something terrible happens to my nice things, I imagine someone painting a massive wall completely white so thats all i can see,... and the man falls off the ladder and dies! Surely this is not normal? I try and put any thoughts into my little man in his rowing boat and sail them away one by one but then he sinks!!! Nurse offered me no help at all just told me to work less! Thats ok for her to say when she can afford to work part time, all she said is work less and have a bath before bed!! Urm we dont have a bath only a shower lol!!


Re my daughter, we have just decorated her bedroom, whilst clearing out stuff i found a little note pad, i wasnt snooping merely seeing what i could clear out but she had written some stuff about me when things were bad and it really hit home, things like.
" i hate my mum"
" she loves *** more than me"
" she is always working and never makes any time for me"
and the list went on,,,, until at the end she put " i dont want to live anymore"

This, as you can imagine sent me into a right state and i didnt eat or sleep for about 3 days, we have been together since and i must stress things are absolutely fine between me and her my partner and her and all 3. As if nothing has happened... but i havent discussed what i found,,., do you think i should? x

Herewego

Well hello stranger what happened to the sun that I asked you to bring back ?

Wow thats a difficult one with your daughter I think you should talk to her about it and make sure she know she can come to you with anything as she is the most important thing in the world. I try to talk to my DS about anything and everything as I want him to know we are always here no matter what i think it may be because i found it so difficult to talk to my parents i dont want him to feel that way.
As for the not sleeping why not try a relaxation cd it worked for me