Learn to control money but do not allow it to control you

Firewalker

I love him but one day, or shall I say early morning, I am going to do something seriously silly. Have been awake since 5 am which is not good; well, I have already done quite a bit but I need sleep. Sleep runs away when you dearest starts making funny noises and banging doors early in the morning. Then comes back to bed a promptly goes back to sleep.

A very early raising
Firewalker

MrsMoo2U

Oh dear, was he sleep walking? I hope you went back to bed to try to catch up with a few hours. I often wake at 5am for absolutely no reason so it is usually me making noise around the house but I try to creep around like a mouse so as not to wake Mr C

Karmacat

Ouch to early mornings .... makes for lots of tiredness later on in the day. I hope thoughts of Carlos Acosta are still with you, that sounds wonderful!

Firewalker

Cheri, no he wasn't; just inconsiderate.
KC, I am already feeling very tired - may go and have some rest later. As to the wonderful Carlos - the image of the dance and show is wonderful. Remembering how much this cost me, and completely unexpectedly at that, is an entirely different matter. Let's just say that it may be the deep, Freudian cause of my early waking up.

FW

MrsMoo2U

Stop fretting on the cost FW. It isnt like you do it all of the time, he isnt on all of the time and you SO deserve it.

Firewalker

This morning I will tell you about my dreams – and if anyone is expecting anything naughty and/or exciting they may stop reading now.

Many of you may have noticed that I have been somewhat disturbed lately. I would not like to get into too much detail here but some of it is because of the change that is happening in my life (or even more scary – the one that is about to happen but I may be missing a trick there) and some because part of my family – the one back in my country of origin – have been worrying me. My sister has no security at all – financial or other – and this has been of great concern. Yes, this is other people’s monkeys again but I grew up believing that you don’t leave your own; that you always look after your kin. (My ‘yeah-but’ for today; should start watching these more closely or re-instate the ‘millionaire maker’).

I believe that some of my dreams, the ones where I see my ill mum and can do nothing about it, for example, are to do with feeling impotent to help my sister. On the positive, this is probably what makes me so focused on paying the negative wealth and starting to build some real wealth – this time slowly and starting with laying the foundations.

Some of my dreams are really bizarre, though. The other night I dreamt that the door bell went off. I opened the door and there was one of the bloggers I have been talking to – one who could be my son and I regret he isn’t (I am proud of my sons as they are but this guy...).

‘What are you doing here?’ – I said.
‘I am here because you are 48, you weight ... and you certainly need help. I am here to help.’ – he replied.

Then OH woke me up extraordinarily early, as you heard. Now this is an interesting dream. On the one hand it is a sublimation of my desire to make a success of my blog (for me making a success of it will be to make sure that it is useful for many and it entertains even more). On the other hand, though, there are elements of uncertainty coming through and the main thing: when I am awake I don’t ask for, want or accept help. Help doesn’t help; what helps is support. This is what I found on this forum; this is what I expect – no more and no less.

What are your dreams and what do these tell you?

Firewalker

Lara44

Lately I have been dreaming that my wedding dress doesn't fit... Nothing terribly Freudian though, the dressmaker just took it in too tight and now I am having to shed a few pounds to be able to breathe!! :rotfl:

Your dream sound really interesting FW. Are you sure help doesn't help? I know what you mean about support, I also find it very important as I am a starter not a finisher and struggle to 'keep the faith' through a project / period of my life. It took aaages to be able to ask for help on my fieldwork, and it made me feel really bad. But then I took on MG's 'pay it forward' philosophy and I do everything I can to help people I meet in return for the help that has been given to me.

As for your weight, you've mentioned it loads of time lately on the thread, it seems to be getting you down a bit. I find it hard to change from a negative place, I need to come to terms with what I do, or the way I am before I am able to make change stick. And I find that trying to change more than 2 things simultaneously collapses the whole house of cards!! So at the minute I am trying not to eat sweets and to go swimming twice a week. As for all the rest of my ambitions, they are on the back burner. Although finally the wedding is sorted and I am on Atlas Ti with my data. Therefore facing another terrifying hinterland opening up - but I will just breathe, smile and keep on going. I feel that I have achieved so little in this last year, and then I think about how fieldwork was the hardest scariest thing I did in my whole life and I don't feel so bad anymore. Hold your own achievements close too FW.

tellmeitsfriday

Ah, dreams... I would love to be a psychologist sometimes

I have a regular dreams - it's set in a variety of situations and scenarios, but I always break my right leg! Very specific!

Marru

My regular dream is that I am packing in a panic as I am about to miss a plane. And I am not just packing a suitcase for a week trip, I am packing the whole household and dragging this stuff with me. There are always other people in the dream but none of them help me. Once it was all my family and relatives and I was having DD there and I was packing my crockery to catch a plane with no help for even looking after her never mind helping me packing.

For me there are three things, one: I have too much stuff (mental and physical), two: I feel that I need to do it all by myself and three: I feel stuck in place and can't/won't move forward (drop the stuff and go and catch that plane)

Triciaxx

Marru : The doing it all yourself thingy has just cropped up on Cheery Daff's diary. She says she gets into the frame of mind "FINE, if I've got to do it all myself, I will and not ask for any help." (that's a paraphrase). This led her to be too proud to ask her OH if he had a trowel for her wall building.

There were a lot of replies say "me, too" including one from me.

tellmeitsfriday : Just don't admit that to a psychiatrist! S/he would have a field day :rotfl: Maybe you really want to go on the stage? They say "Break a leg" for luck - or so I am told.

Lara said "I find that trying to change more than 2 things simultaneously collapses the whole house of cards!!" I just wish I could remember that more often. You are so right.

FW : You really need to relax a little. You sound like a tightly wound spring and it concerns me. I know it is difficult to switch off when you have so many balls in the air but . . . don't do as I do, do as I say. :rotfl::rotfl: