Debt Dropping the Elfen way!

elfen

Am home now....Food diary time...

B - cornflakes
S - -
L - -
S - -
D - god knows.


I'm meant to be going out for dinner tonight, but I'm not going to go. I don't feel up to it and I want to relax and just chill out....hard to do around everyone else
I'm sick of me now.

elfen

OK, food diary
B- cornflakes
L - 1/2 omelette
S -
D -

(Last two can't be filled - yet!)

Not been too bad a day, went to Gap and got a gorgeous pair of jeans that fit me - and they were money neutral as I used Paypal proceeds to fund them - so yay for me!

Time to set next week's pledges:
Do not buy tobacco/ciggies unless needed
Some the baccy before buying ciggies
One small chocolate bar this week
Go to the gym 3 times a week and go to both spinning classes
Look at doing a different class in the day - maybe in the pool?
DO NOT BUY CLOTHES
Post all ebay sales
Check bank and only keep £50 in the bank and max £20 on me
Do not buy useless crap
Go through clothes and sort out too big coats
Put shoes in shoe box
Use new hangers and get rid/move old ones
Keep the place tidy
Go to the library
Finish revision (have done 2 and a half topics)
NSD every weekday - unless emergency or necessary
Leave bank and Velma at home unless putting money into account
Move all extraneous money into savings

I think I met most of last week's tasks, now I hope to do this week's

elfen

These are my debt free pledges...In addition to my weekly tasks, I shall try and uphold my pledges throughout my debt-free journey. So, my pledges are:
Only buy books I need for uni - unless vouchers as presents are given
Only buy DVDs I need for uni - or have already promised to buy (Iron Man 2 and probably Robin Hood)
Save my spare change in my savings
Make my money last
Exercise at least 4 times a week
Stick to the healthy eating
Only have one small bar of chocolate once a week
Don't buy extra bits unless needed (milk and bread mainly)

I've also got a list of the gym classes over the week, so I just need to pick the ones I want to do. I already do spinning twice a week, but want some other physical ones to keep me going...The only one that really interests me is the Body Combat on a Tuesday morning. As I've got a parcel being delivered this Tuesday, I won't be able to start it until a week Tuesday, but that's OK. It means I do 5 gym sessions, 2 spinning classes and a combat class....that's not too OTT because if I'm feeling bad I drop a gym session and catch up on my classes, but I REALLY want to do this!

elfen

Food diary continued
S - apricots, small amount of peanuts and sultanas
D - chicken breast with sweetcorn, cabbage and spinach - we'll see how much stays down shall we?

redsquirrel80

Hiya, you've got a lot going on in your head, hope it's helping a bit to write it all down on here. That seems like a lot of tasks - don't push yourself too hard! Hope you have a good week.

elfen

red, it feels a lot but I need to keep myself busy or all the bad stuff comes back into my head. I wish I could stop it all together but I don't think it ever will.

OK, my daily rundown:
Sent off ebay parcels - thats £15 and I'm waiting for one more to pay so I can send
Sent off musicmagpie parcels - another £15
Went to the gym and did an hour - feel better for it
Had a NSD - not planning to spend anything today
Put money into bank - £100 in and into savings - now over 1K!
Checked online banking - debt payment has gone out (first one of the month)
Went to the library and got four books
Emptied the dishwasher and put washing away....nice and tidy house.

It is helping to talk things through here, as it's my thread, I can't be judged on what I say, as half the time I don't know what's going on in my head. It helps as it gives me a safe outlet to vent what I need to vent.....so today, I don't feel too bad, just empty and hollow which I'm kind agetting used to. Had to fill out a questionnaire thing for psychiatric treatment referral, so I did it and sent it off. It just reminds me how the bad things in my life have outweighed the good things....but hopefully, things will start to change soon and I can get help with becoming a better, if not completely well, person.

Also, food diary (this really helps tbh, it lets me see where things are going wrong )
B - rice krispies
S - banana
L - -
S - 40g peanuts and raisins
D - 1/2 portion chicken in tomato sauce, spinach and sweetcorn
S - dried apricots (40g)

I've also got a spinning class tonight, so I'll come home and have a shower (Pint'll be at darts) then sit and relax...Really need to start soviet montage revision...then I'm halfway there....*oooh oooh livin on a prayer*

redsquirrel80

If being busy helps then go for it - was just worried you'd wear yourself out!

elfen

I'll be OK red, I need to be busy...I need to not think about stuff I can't deal with and if I stop I will.....

Need to change the food diary...so will do that

elfen

Not going near the food diary....have eaten....and its all come back up. Am so ashamed of myself, i can't help it but I needed so....




Had enough of being me

elfen

Feel a litle better today, don't feel I need to purge...so that's good.

Have been doing houseworky stuff and waiting for the last ebayer to pay so I can send the item, or itll go to a payment not made claim....Never had to do one before. Going to check Paypal and eBay just in case