Debt Dropping the Elfen way!

Bunnyinthelights

Hi Elfen,
Just found this.
As for BMI-30.2 is JUST obese by .2 percentile. 30 BMI is overweight. Please do not stress about this as BMI is not a truly accurate.

Glad you are dealing with your eating issues, knowing you have a problem goes a long way to dealing with them.

x

elfen

Bun, it's les now hopefully. I'll weigh-in later

Food diary for today:
B - 1/2 egg, 1/2 sausage patty, hash brown
L - 1 bacon, 1 sausage, 1 egg
S - apple, caramel Alpro soya yogurt
D - meatballs and salad

elfen

Sorry for double posting....

Haven't had the best of weekends. Pint rolled home drunk an hour and a half later than he said, and he'd also been taking drugs - both things he knows I hate. He ignored me on Saturday until I phoned him and asked him to come home - we talked. He admitted he is borderline alcoholic but wants to change - even though he's had 22 months to change. He said he has realised what it is doing to us both.

Came home from a private job last night, and started talking again to me. I have my reservations, as I don't feel like I can trust him or that I even have a presence in his house, our room has loads of other people's stuff in and nowhere feels like it's my space. I went and stayed in a hotel last night, to get some space and some perspective. I was planning on living in a different place to him to see if that helped.

We kept in contact, texting and phoning each other - and I had probably one of the worst night's sleep I have EVER had - tossing and turning and texting him - telling me to take me home. I got up this morning and thought things might be able to work - texted him and told him how I felt - that all everyone else's stuff was to be removed from our room, that the pictures are to be taken down and posters and things WE want are in our room.

Today, we met up for breakfast, did the shopping, and came home and started on our room. We cleared out the wardrobes, sorted out the clothes, binned lots of rubbish and clutter - we also talked. A LOT. He knows he has a problem and is willing to change. He didn't drink at all yesterday, and has gone down the pub this afternoon - to see his friends - on the proviso he drinks very little this evening (2 cans max)

I feel weird. In limbo I guess. I am willing to stay with him if he can change and we can be a proper couple, we've agree to date nights once or twice a month, that he won't drink 2 days in the week, and at the weekend he can drink one evening and one afternoon, not on the same day, and the rest of the day is to be spent not drinking. I am scared but am hopeful that he can do this. I am going to try and pull my weight. I am going to see if going back to work will help me at all, but it'll make me feel as if I am contributing.....so my targets for this week are:

Write up CV
Print out copies of CV and take to agencies to try and find temp summer work
See if any shops have vacancies for staff (if I print 10-15 CV's it should be enough)
Go to gym 3 times this week
Stick to healthy eating plan
TALK TO PINT
Have no more than 2 binge/purge sessions
Revise three topics for the exam
Have as many NSDs as possible

elfen

OK, another NSD today.

And I joined a second spinning class at the gym, now I'll find a class I want to do during the week and join that - so I'll go to the gym twice on some days, once on others. Always good.

Checked the £2 pot, nearly 40 so I'll bank that soon.

Not muxh for me to say today, must bore you all.

elfen

Not a good day.....

B- cornflakes and raisins
S - banana
L - none
S - none
D -

elfen

Did my weigh in properly this time...have lost 1lb! That's 18lb lost now, I'm hoping to have lost a stone and a half by the end of the month. Need to up the weight loss gear now.

Am planning on holiday to go to the gym 5 days a week (6 since I now have a Saturday spinning class) I want to find a class to do on Tuesday and Thursday so I do 4 classes a week and 5 sessions at the gym. I'm also going to change the portion sizes again as at the mo they are too big and I don't finish them all the time...so time to shrink them a little more

scrooge2008

Hi elfen,

I just spotted your diary and have had a wee nosey. You are really brave facing up to issues and communicating so effectively with Pint.

It is very hard to change patterns of behaviour, but you can do it. You come across as disciplined and organised, these qualities will really help you achieve your goals x. It's good that you are willing to seek help too.

I have to keep believing that change is possible, even when I am getting nowhere i.e. in the weight loss challenge. One day i'll crack it!

Love your avie!!

P.S - I also recently succumbed to the lure of a Blackberry - it's amazing!

elfen

scrooge, I am wondering how I lived my life without it! BMI ia now 29.1 - so that is a BIG bonus!

Waist is down to a 34, hips are down to 40....now to keep on plodding.

elfen

Adding to the food diary...

D - none

I am very ashamed of myself...I haven't kept any food down except for breakfast and a banana today....that's not good at all....I've also been binging an unbelievable amount and I am very very ashamed of my self for this....

Tomorrow's plan is to try and eat as much fruit as I can (no cereal for breakfast, will be fruit - apple and grapes, lunch will be a banana and raisins, snack will be apricots, afternoon snack will be a jelly, before dinner of steak and green beans) I can't believe how bad I'm getting, I fell absolutely wretched and Pint is VERY worried about me - but he knows there's not a lot I can do, I am so sorry people....I wish I was better

elfen

OK, I had a little spend today. I needed hangers and a plate so went ot Ikea and came out with them and a 39p orange moose, who will become my DF mascot....I'll take a pic later and put it in....

So far:
Have walked 15000 steps - 780 cals burnt
Put money in bank and then to savings - £49.73 into savings
Been a good girl on the food front...
B - cornflakes and raisins
S - 1/2 banana, apricots
L - I apple, 1 orange, dried apricots
S -