The giving up/cutting down alcohol thread part VI

Lurkio

Lurkio wrote: »

I meant STAR...... it WAS early

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ask and ye shall receive :j :j

I have a silver star!!! :j :j

how DO you do that, WBF? :cool: :rotfl:

mookiepook

Hi everyone. Ooh the latest challenge has now started, thanks Sparkles. I will definitely complete this one cos feel a bit hungover today and it's back to work after 2 weeks off. Will report in again tomorrow xx

69chick

Please could you add me to the list fedupandskint..

Thanks and love the 'crackpot' story Jo...great news on the new job by the way, as I havn't been about, is it in another school? well done anyway I know you had been looking around for a while x

Gotta go, the kids are making sticker pictures with all my best craft stash :eek:

maman

:hello: I love this thread: 24/7 and international! We may be crackpots but our influence together is amazing!

Hope everyone is having a good day.

Miss_Piggy_2

Afternoon all

Just a quickie to say 10 for me please WBF.

Still feeling bit low so won't stay and bore everyone :rotfl:. Catch you all later.

Miss P
xx

gien

love the story Jo, I think there's a lot of flowers growing beautifully around here and the world is better for it.

I'm feeling great too, quite busy cos I joined the flylady thread. Catch you later for the bells...

Pippilongstocking

maman wrote: »

:hello: I love this thread: 24/7 and international! We may be crackpots but our influence together is amazing!

Hope everyone is having a good day.

:j:jnever a truer word said :j:j

Leigh73

graemecarter wrote: »

No-one knows how AA works in their early days. So all you need to do is accept that it works for the people in the meeting, and keep going back and then you'll figure it out. If you go to AA meetings, the people there can help you and then you'll be like them soon enough if you're open, honest, and willing.
If you don't go to a meeting, they won't be able to help.

EVERYONE at their first meetings feels like you do - I felt they had a secret they were not telling me, and thus I was resentful at them for having their lives so sorted.
They felt like you did too remember.

Good luck

Hiya Graeme,

Thanks for this. Hope you, and everyone on here is having a good day.

It's beautiful out there. Sunny. Yet I have no desire at all to go out. The feeling of actually going out sober, makes me feel nervy as hell, and I have a f*cking 'Pathways to Work' thing I have to attend tomorrow morning, which I'm dreading.

At the AA meeting on Saturday, I just found myself feeling, as you say, 'resentful' of them.

It also annoys me, how some of them seem to just recount AA'ism's parrot fashion!

Today, I just feel so overwhelmed, and can't focus on f*ck all.

I'm sat here in my dressing gown, with bills unopened again (have an appointment with the CAB Wednesday to discuss about £9k of unsecured debt..huge nPower bill / O2 bills / Council Tax arrears / Housing Benefit Overpayment debt..Capital One, Vanquis CC, Catalogues etc - Due to my drinking, my stupidity, I'm probably going to have to go for a Debt Relief Order, and yet again f*ck up my credit rating).

My Girlfriend has just nipped out, to give us both some space, and she'll be back over this evening for Chinese and a film :A

I can't stand feeling indebted to her though, as aside from being lovely and supportive, she's helped me out financially too..

In January, I was looking at losing my flat. I was in debt to my Housing Association to the tune or £827.00.. I was looking at a Possession Order, and it would've been last chance saloon, due to how the Council would've then seen me as having made myself 'intentionally homeless'.

Anyway, my Girlfriend lent me the money to pay this off, aswell as £155 to clear BT phone bills which had mounted up..was about to be cut off *Cringes*

She's also helped hugely buying food in from Tescos.

She's paid for some DIY stuff from B&Q, and helped me with painting, and doing up the bathroom and entrance hall.

...and still I've drank :mad:

I'm desperately trying to get my head clear today, and just keep crying.

Was working last year - first job in a while due to the drinking - working for TeleTech thanks to the info on MSE boards.

Was made redundant along with a few others last May, but was then rehired by them, for a different department, again working from home. Loved it, although I'd started drinking again, and to be honest, it wasn't helping being at home on my tod all day.

My boss was an absolute star. I eventually told her about my battle with the booze, and after speaking to HR, she told me they'd have to let me go, although my file would only be noted as 'voluntary termination of contract, by mutual agreement - stress / personal reasons'.

Also, I'd be allowed to re - apply, and would be welcome back once I'd sorted myself out. Usually, you can't re - apply ever it you breach absence policy, so I've been very lucky, due to my ex - boss' kindness.

I still don't feel ready to go back / work from home again just yet, so instead, I applied to a local homeless drop in centre, for some voluntary work.

Originally, I got in touch with the Manager there last November. He didn't get back in touch until 3 weeks ago!

We had a good chat in the phone. He knows I've had issues with drink, housing, depression..and asked me to take the forms down.

I already had the forms filled in, so popped them in, and we had another chat, this time face - to - face coming up two weeks ago on Thursday.

Embarssingly, I called a week last (Good) Friday, offering to work on the (Bank Holiday) Monday, forgetting it was a Holiday!

He hasn't called back, and I'm now stressed that I've even f*cked this up, before even starting

Sorry to witter on.

Just feel overwhelmed.

Sim x

(Leigh)

Leigh73

Jo,

Thanks for writing that.

What a lovely, heartwarming tale :-)

You made a 36 year old bloke well up..in a good way!

Hope you're whittling down your list (Lists / setting goals help me no end..just need to kick myself up the proverbial today), and enjoying your day.

Sim x (Leigh)

(Must change username, to avoid confusion!)

liuhut

Hi everyone
Graeme - thanks for the post, I know you are right...off to bed now but lets just say we failed tonight. I had two small sips of the glass OH pored me and then he finished the rest
Gien - yeah I think thats what happened to us, although we did drink at home too. Most of the Aussies I've met dont drink much...its the expats we mix with that do!!
going to try to get an early..ish night. Night all