Cracking up

Mely

Be strong... your GP will be able to give you the help that you need. Good luck xxxx

pocketrocket_2

Thank you, the last line of my original post said 'I know no one can help me here' but I was wrong everyone who replied to my post has help me in a big way. Im going to ring doctor in the morning and let you know how I get on.

I hope I have helped others who are in a similar position.

SailorSam

Getting your feelings out on paper should help so this thread should help release your feeling. but i agree with others that you need to speak to your Gp.
For tonight though, or if you need to wait for an appointment, could you ring the Samaritans, they'll know the best place for you to go for help, perhaps there is a group in your area of others who have felt the same and would understand what you're going through.

Fuzzy_Duck

Hi, didn't want to read and run. I agree with all of those who suggest you see your GP asap, so I'm glad you'll be giving them a ring tomorrow. It sounds like you've spent all your life crying out for help and so many people have failed you. For your sake it's important to take control and get the help you need.

In my opinion you really do need to tell your partner what happened to you in the past- he will be shocked but it won't change his opinion of you. I'm sure he will want to help you get through this and offer his support. You might want to discuss this with a counsellor first to find the best way of doing it as it won't be an easy thing for him to hear.

Anyway, I know I'm lacking in advice but just wanted to say lots of love and hugs and good luck. You are worthy of every happiness and if you need to talk we'll be here to listen

Firefly

The easiest way to approach your GP will be to print out this thread.

Please do go.

Good luck.

belfastgirl23

On your boyfriend, I think if you get to a point where you can talk to him about what happened, he'll quite possibly be relieved. If you're struggling with all of this on your own and at times taking some of those feelings out on him then he already knows there's something wrong. And it's usually worse to know there's something wrong and not know what than it is to deal with whatever the issue is.

Good luck tomorrow.

Lilith1980

Hi hun, good luck for today. As a previous poster said I too hope you get offered more than a few sessions of CBT. I think you need counselling as opposed to CBT because you need to talk about your problems.

Maybe you could ask your doctor if there are any counselling agencies in the area which deal specifically with abuse, or if not, then maybe there is a local MIND office where they do counselling?

Also, have you tried looking on the internet as to whether there are any counselling agencies near you? Some are free and don't need a referral from your GP, although your GP may have more information on what is out there.

Good luck hun ((hugs))

Primrose

You are not a failure but seem to be obsessed at having to please everybody else.
Take a step or two back and try and concentrate on being good and kind to yourself. You are obviously beating yourself up for things which have happened to you in the past which you cannot change. That past abuse is over now. The future is yours to grab. Stop telling yourself you don't matter. YOU are the most important person in your own life.

Get down to your local library and borrow some books on how to boost your self confidence and self-esteem. The people around you are no better than you are. They just manage themselves better. When you start loving yourself a little more, you will find that life feels a little kinder.