Cracking up

worriedsik

pocketrocket wrote: »

Brain fog is a good way to describe it, I know I need a counsillor, I did see a bereavement counsillor when my dad passed away and it didnt go well I could not speak about my grief so I only saw her twice.

I just find it hard to talk about my problems

well you can tell the doc or counselor this and iam sure they will have a way off making you talk
Maybee its not a bereavement counselor you need , what do you think is the root cause ? the very first thing that comes into your head ? what do you think it is ?

aliasojo

pocketrocket wrote: »

I just find it hard to talk about my problems

Which is why you need to try, try and try again. Hard things only get easier the more you try to do them.

Sublime_2

I'm glad that you have posted this. Have you spoken to your GP at all. Worrying about people laughing at you, is just how you're feeling at the moment. I am sure they were not, but that isn't going to convince you.

You need help so that you can get over your past life experiences. Thats the only way you'll get better. I have no idea what you're going through, but I didn't want not to reply.

Big hugs, and hope you get sorted soon.

pocketrocket_2

I cant talk, I had this anger that built up inside me on new years eve my partner was half hour late in picking me up, we went to his place as planned to see new year in and I just froze I was angry he didnt leave enough time to pick me up, yet again I felt worthless and second class, I just sat there on his couch he did try to coax it out of me and said sorry again for being late but all I could say is I need to go home, and spent new yrs eve by myself crying at home.

One day he will go I know, in a way I hope so that way no one can hurt me, I feel im better on my own that way I know where I am.

Frenchgirl

Hi you were brave to post on here. Please go to see your doctor. Show him/her your thread. You have made the first step keep taking small steps. Make that call 2010 is going to be your year. Take care. You dont have to be happy 100%.

lynzpower

I think printing out this thread is a great way of starting a dialogue in a counselling session.

pocketrocket_2

I think printing this out is a great idea, thank you

lynzpower

If you think its a good idea, I think that you are some way into accepting that getting help and opening up is what you need.

I really do wish you all the very best with this interesting and exciting journey I hope you are able to embark on-x

worriedsik

pocketrocket wrote: »

I cant talk, I had this anger that built up inside me on new years eve my partner was half hour late in picking me up, we went to his place as planned to see new year in and I just froze I was angry he didnt leave enough time to pick me up, yet again I felt worthless and second class, I just sat there on his couch he did try to coax it out of me and said sorry again for being late but all I could say is I need to go home, and spent new yrs eve by myself crying at home.

One day he will go I know, in a way I hope so that way no one can hurt me, I feel im better on my own that way I know where I am.

Is that what you want ? please dont do that to people & too yourself i dated someone similiar to yourself except he was male and he had abandonment issues ( google that ) he treated me the way you are treating your boyfriend & it hurt me so badly i loved him very much but he put me through the wringer and eventually i had to finish with him because he was destroying me.
I know you are hurting and you dont want to hurt him but you really need to get some help to get you over this
This guy iam telling you about ! he just goes from one relationship to another hurting people as he goes , he pushes people away to see if they will take it , its a way for him to see just how much somebody loves him , i used to think he was attention seeking untill i read up on it
does this make sense to you ?

MrsAnnie

Sending you my besh wishes. Hope life gets better for you in 2010.

Please go and talk to your doctor. If you feel that your doctor is not helpful or caring, just ask for a second opinion and see another one, please don't just give up.

Hugs,
MrsAnnie