Debt Free by 40 Debt Diary

Ruby_Pudding

oakdale_minx wrote:

I just want somebody somewhere to do something for ME.

It's not much but I could give you a hug :grouphug:

Hold on in there OM

oakdale_minx

ZTD wrote:

I'm ready - are you?

giggles wickedly to herself.......try me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thankyou for the hug Ruby - even a virtual one was nice!


My lie down lasted exactly 11 minutes. I was timing it!!! The phone range "Hi, my name is John and I am calling from the Institute of Financial Directors"

YOU HAVE DISTURBED ME I WAS ASLEEP I shouted and hung up. He didn't call back.

I stomped off to do my mystery shop, which was weirdly calming as the shop was very very quiet all the staff were A1 lovely.

The CAG mods have been fab and are sorting stuff out behind the scenes for me.

i've done a little bit of revision and absolutely no AQA today.

I've got a bath run and then i'm going to do dinner.

OH won't be in until about 10.30. There is every chance I might be asleep as I feel like somebody is dragging my skin downwards like a cartoon character when they are tired!!

moose53

Take care O_M, I will pm you tomorrow.

Good days often follow bad days.

jimcon

Just keep in mind that this period is but a small part of your life – and it will pass. You will look back in years to come and see that perhaps the bad things were not so bad as they looked at the time but even though they were dark days indeed they taught you things about yourself and those supposedly close to you. Treat this time as a period of education in the broadest sense of the word – try to look at things in a different light and turn the negatives you are feeling now into positives. I know that’s easier said than done but it is possible – your boss is scared of you….. how’s that for an ego boost?! Your OH is scared of losing you – trust me he is (hence the kiss when you stopped instigating one) but that doesn’t mean that you should be scared of losing/ditching/dumping/escaping from him (and you should really think about doing that……… how much more time could you give to yourself if you were without that leech?). So perhaps things are not as dark as you think, rather you’ve just got your eyes closed a bit. It’s time to open them kiddo and take a good healthy look at those other areas in your life that require a bit of reorganisation!!

Hold a thought for me will you? Try thinking about this….. you wake up in the morning (a weekend because you can lie in then) and he’s not there…. Nothing of his is in your home (your home remember?) and you have nothing pushing you to think of him before YOU. Now like I said think about that, think about getting up in your pj’s (wimmin always wear PJ’s ) and either pottering about, making your yummy breakfast, watching a bit of tv, catching up on paperwork, going out for a walk, calling a friend and having them over for lunch or going to theirs for lunch (wowee eh? Imagine that??) – basically the world is your oyster! So you have a great weekend doing whatever the hell you wanted…….. next it’s your working week. Imagine coming home at night and making what you want to eat, watching what you want to watch, doing what you want to do in your little bolt hole away from the world outside. Now…… does that scary thought “feel” positive? Is it something the voice inside is telling you is what you should be doing? Is it an attractive option? Do you look around and say with a sigh “if only”? I think that if you are honest then you are nodding away at the idea of it .

Now I’m not telling you what to – that your call – but what I am saying is that your life at present does not have to be the way it is. You can make changes for you you know….. it is allowed ). Obviously the first step is the hardest because the fear of the reaction from others, the fear of “Am I really doing the right thing?” and just the downright fear of stepping out there on your own is a scary monster that you think is hard to overcome. But guess what? It’s not! Honest!! As long as you do what is right for you in your life you will be fine –and when I mean right I mean listening that voice which has already told the OH to sod off, told your boss to shut up and do it herself and has already told you that your financial plans are in the best shape that they have been in in quite some time and that you are doing a bloody good job!

I know I’m prattling on here and that you don’t know me from Adam but trust the words as they are given in good faith. We all walk through life like we are mothballed – it happens because modern life is so hectic that in order to get through it a dulling of the senses is automatic. Sometimes we need a bit of clarity and a bit of time on our own to see that there is indeed another way…..


Time for you to take that time.

moose53

Really hope you're ok O_M?

mocolo

Hi O_M,

this is the only diary I read and I just want to thank you for doing it and wish you well. I feel that I have missed my fix because you may be away. Come back soon and give us the latest update. I have done OU exams so maybe you are trying to avoid distractions, good luck for Friday I am sure that you will be fine.....

mocolo

tiff

I second that , come back soon, would love to know how you're getting on

moose53

How did the exam go O_M?

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How are you doing oakdale_minx?

Hope you're OK and the ogre and bf are being nice!

moose53

I think I'll send a text to AQA asking where Oakdale_Minx is.

Come back.