depression

feelinggood_2

Miroslav wrote:

I just hope when I do these things, people appreciate them

For me, the little things don't go un-noticed.
How are you feeling today?

Bunnie1982

Morning everyone

Feeling so groggy today where the sleeping tablets have taken effect, almost slept right through last night apart from waking up at 5:55am

Feeling quite low today, just sitting here still in my pajamas and under the quilt. I am worrying myself stupid about finding a new job by 18th October, I have 2 job interviews on Friday afternoon and I feel really anxious and panicked about them and feeling like I'm not good enough to be able to do the jobs.

Husband has been supportive up until now but was really short and snappy last night, feel like he might be getting fed up of my up and down moments

feelinggood_2

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Morning everyone

Feeling so groggy today where the sleeping tablets have taken effect, almost slept right through last night apart from waking up at 5:55am

Feeling quite low today, just sitting here still in my pajamas and under the quilt. I am worrying myself stupid about finding a new job by 18th October, I have 2 job interviews on Friday afternoon and I feel really anxious and panicked about them and feeling like I'm not good enough to be able to do the jobs.

Husband has been supportive up until now but was really short and snappy last night, feel like he might be getting fed up of my up and down moments

Morning Bunnie, don't think we've met? Nice to meet you!
I'm still in my pajamas, I don't think I'm gonna get dressed today.
Its a shame the husbands struggle to help, I know its tough for them, but sometimes they just won't talk about it at all.
I can understand the feeling like you're not good enough for the jobs - my OH is trying to persuade me to go to work, and doesn't seem to understand that I probably would quit after a couple of weeks becuase I just wouldn't be able to make myself do the work. Sometimes my body just won't let me work. Add to that the insecurities and the low self-esteem, working terrifies me! Oh yeah, and the panic attacks from being with other people - somehow I think I'm not ready to go back.

Hope you manage to relax a little bit today - have some 'me' time to prepare for your interveiws.
Feel better soon
x

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

For me, the little things don't go un-noticed.
How are you feeling today?

I hope it's the same for people I have tried to help or will try to help in the future

I'm still feeling very low and very anxious. I didn't sleep much last night. I know this girl will either a) decide not to meet, b) we'll meet and she won't like me/won't want to see me again c) Will want to meet, but it will be another week or so before she can 'fit me in' despite she doesn't do much.

I think she doesn't want to meet and made a mistake saying she would. I know when she makes arrangements with my flatmate, she more often than not calls to cancel these days How would I feel after waiting a week, for her to contact my flatmate the night before or that morning, and ask her to pass a message on saying she can't make it and will have to re-arrange? Pretty gutted i'd expect.

I'm already writing out my "thanks but it clearly wasn't meant to be" messages which I would text if it went wrong. I'd have to nick the number off my flatmate, but i think I know which one it is marked as on the telephone bill. I'd have to think of one that was grateful for the thought, but not sounding too disappointed, but at the same time expressing the fact I like her

Anyway, i'm expecting rejection, so anything else will surprise me. My flatmate will kill me for contacting her direct if it came to that, but we always argue anyway. She's done far worse than me before, and it's not like this girl isn't in her mid 20's.

Miroslav

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Morning everyone

Feeling so groggy today where the sleeping tablets have taken effect, almost slept right through last night apart from waking up at 5:55am

Feeling quite low today, just sitting here still in my pajamas and under the quilt. I am worrying myself stupid about finding a new job by 18th October, I have 2 job interviews on Friday afternoon and I feel really anxious and panicked about them and feeling like I'm not good enough to be able to do the jobs.

Husband has been supportive up until now but was really short and snappy last night, feel like he might be getting fed up of my up and down moments

Hello Bunnie

What jobs are you going for?

Hopefully your Husband is just getting frustrated at seeing someone he loves suffering? Maybe he will realise what he done last night and make it up to you today?

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Morning Bunnie, don't think we've met? Nice to meet you!
I'm still in my pajamas, I don't think I'm gonna get dressed today.
Its a shame the husbands struggle to help, I know its tough for them, but sometimes they just won't talk about it at all.
I can understand the feeling like you're not good enough for the jobs - my OH is trying to persuade me to go to work, and doesn't seem to understand that I probably would quit after a couple of weeks becuase I just wouldn't be able to make myself do the work. Sometimes my body just won't let me work. Add to that the insecurities and the low self-esteem, working terrifies me! Oh yeah, and the panic attacks from being with other people - somehow I think I'm not ready to go back.

Hope you manage to relax a little bit today - have some 'me' time to prepare for your interveiws.
Feel better soon
x

If you aren't going anywhere, no harm in staying in your pj's! As long as you don't see that as a negative.

It's annoying when people try and get you to work when you are not ready. It can do more harm than good.

muffin502

Miroslav wrote:

If you aren't going anywhere, no harm in staying in your pj's! As long as you don't see that as a negative.

It's annoying when people try and get you to work when you are not ready. It can do more harm than good.

Hi to all posters

Hope you are not feeling too bad today. I just thought I would say that I AM IN MY PJ'S STILL! There is nothing to feel guilty about being in our pjs if we want to be!

I went back to work yesterday, after being off for over a month. GP didn't advise it but , if you have read my earlier posts, I don;t get paid if I am off and cannot afford any more time. However I went in from 10 to 4.00 and I intend to keep these hours until I feel A1 again. Which at themoment I do not. I managed to work til 4.00 but I was very tired at the end of the day. And today I have not gone in at all - didn't sleep very well last night and quite frankly don;t feel up to it today. So I am going in on alternate days this week - and if my boss doesn;t like it it's tough .......! I am putting MY HEALTH FIRST - the only thing that matters. I would say to all others who don;t feel ready for work - take it one day at a time - baby steps only. Depression takes time to be treated so be patient and put yourself first! :T :T

Horasio

Bunnie1982 wrote:

Morning everyone

Feeling so groggy today where the sleeping tablets have taken effect, almost slept right through last night apart from waking up at 5:55am

Feeling quite low today, just sitting here still in my pajamas and under the quilt. I am worrying myself stupid about finding a new job by 18th October, I have 2 job interviews on Friday afternoon and I feel really anxious and panicked about them and feeling like I'm not good enough to be able to do the jobs.

Husband has been supportive up until now but was really short and snappy last night, feel like he might be getting fed up of my up and down moments

Hi

I am new to this thread too and finding the people here very helpful and supportive.

I understand fully about worrying about interviews, they can be tough.

You don't need a husband being snappy either, it is gruelling enough job hunting and interviews. He needs to be more aware and more supportive.

Miroslav

muffin502 wrote:

Hi to all posters

Hope you are not feeling too bad today. I just thought I would say that I AM IN MY PJ'S STILL! There is nothing to feel guilty about being in our pjs if we want to be!

I went back to work yesterday, after being off for over a month. GP didn't advise it but , if you have read my earlier posts, I don;t get paid if I am off and cannot afford any more time. However I went in from 10 to 4.00 and I intend to keep these hours until I feel A1 again. Which at themoment I do not. I managed to work til 4.00 but I was very tired at the end of the day. And today I have not gone in at all - didn't sleep very well last night and quite frankly don;t feel up to it today. So I am going in on alternate days this week - and if my boss doesn;t like it it's tough .......! I am putting MY HEALTH FIRST - the only thing that matters. I would say to all others who don;t feel ready for work - take it one day at a time - baby steps only. Depression takes time to be treated so be patient and put yourself first! :T :T

Can understand the financial and health issues. Difficult to know the right balance at times.

You are making the right choices though, all in your own time.

feelinggood_2

I'm still in my jammies but I've done some housework! Just need to vacuum, do a load of washing and wash up.
Mood is alright today, but I'm feeling a little bit agrophobic.
Went to shop last night, didn't have a panic attack as I was a bit drunk hehe.
Right now the thought of going out fills me with dread, but hoping I'll be able to go to the gym on Friday. When I was major depressed last time, I'd leave the house to go to the doctors once a fortnight - other than that I stayed in hehe. Don't want to get like that again!

Miroslav, I'm not all that good at reading posts, and can't rememeber what is wrong with this girl? If it is depression, it might be the similar thing that I get, that I just can't meet people. A lot of the time I can't even call, text or email, so she may need a lot of time.
You sound like a great guy, and if she isn't ready for friendship with you, it is not a reflection on you AT ALL. I don't know you very well, but you seem lovely. Remember that!!