depression

feelinggood_2

Just a quick hello from me
Was hoping I'd be a more regular participant in this thread, but with my depression, the first thing to go is staying touch with things - just can't do it sometimes.
Anyways, I'm pretty low, didn't get out of bed till 6pm yesterday - it just hurt too much to be awake. Been entertaining more self-harming/suicidal thoughts than usual which is pretty bad. Wouldn't ever do it I don't think, but I don't like the way my mind forces me to think about it.
Hope you are all good, will try and get to know you all soon!

jellycat40

I have put a post out asking Miroslav to post back but no luck.

I have been where I think he was the other night and I am worried about him.

Is there anything else we can do?

Louise

feelinggood_2

You could send a message to the administator, as they can email people.
Other than that, I don't know if there is - does anyone know any more details about him?
Does anyone have msn/yahoo/aim details?

Hopefully he is just having some time away and nothing to worry about
I really hope so anyway.
But theres a chance he's reading this, so just wanted to say that I'm hear if he wants to talk.

rose07

Tiff wrote:

Hi Guys - Rosie - where are you? Don't you go AWOL on us!;) Hope you're okay my angel. Huge hugs to you and everyone.
Much love
Tiff xxx

heya hun
well i am still here just. lol.
but not feeling great at the mo, also had a bit of a realisation about something last night and its shook me all up something rotten , so bit low at the mo,seems there is no one around at the tonight.

Miroslav, if you are out there or even if theres a possibility that you can see our posts pleease post hun, we are all clearly wozed.
it sounds like you have been hurt by someone hun, i know this pain i am very close myself too at the mo and if you just post then we can try and help you and advise anyway we can, you know where to find us when you are ready. much love and take care x

heylo sazbo, nice to see ya, seen ya before here and there.
this board is great for just talking and being with other people that share your pain. x

hello to everyone feeling good, jellycat, tiff, Mrs A, betty, slayerx, dora, flis and anyone else i have missed out, sozz.
hope your all ok and much love
x

tiff
i would never leave ya either, your my bouncing bud, my mate.
and tiff the wellies are truly gone now, no more squeaking.
even though im feeling at my worse and havent been on here in a while i have been thinking about you all constantly. its kept me going. x

jees what is it with this :mad: , one minute i am ok then im low, and now im rock bottom got a sinking feeling in meself.
cant believe im posting this going to go now, just wanted to pop me head in and say im here. much love to you all, your all wonderful xxx

Tiff_2

Hi Rose, Feeling good, flis, slayerx, bettyboop, Mrs.A, Dora the Explorer, miroslav, mags, saz, and the rest of the gang.

Rosie...Hey angel - tried to PM you last night but it came back saying your box was too full - forget about tidying your room and edit your box!;) Truly good to hear from you - thanks for posting. I can tell you are very low at the moment hun for different reasons - I know part of October is very hard for you too but I'm here if you need me okay. You are not alone angel. xxx

Flissy! You're free angel!!! :j Just wanted to wish you good luck in your new job and I'm sure you'll be fine - you just have a touch of stage fright that's all. Alternatively, you could always go back to the job you just left...:eek:
Seriously,try to look at it as being a new path in your life - they obviously wanted you hun. And I think we all expect a report tomorrow night on your
1st day!:dance:
Here's something for you when you set off tomorrow :grouphug: :A

Who's next? I guess I should explain my late night posts -DS has attached himself to MSN and I have to surgically remove him from the computer - that's why all my answers come in pages!:rolleyes:

How's Saz today? Bettyboop, how are you hun? What does next week hold for everyone?

I've tried to skirt the issue but I think it needs to be said. I know we're all very worried about Miroslav. We've all posted and/or PMd him.

The worst thing is not knowing what's going on. We will have no way of knowing unless he posts again. It may be the case that everything is too much for him at the moment and he needed to step away. It may be that he can't cope with posting at the moment. We just don't know.

Now Tiff says this with much love and respect okay? We're all (yep, me too), getting worked up and that's not a good place to be. He wishes us good things and wouldn't want us to be fretting like this. We're all afraid of the worst and as I'm sure we all know, sometimes our own thoughts can be our worst enemy. You all seem to be genuine, caring souls and we musn't let ourselves suffer with the awful " What if..."s. Easier said than done, I know.

That doesn't mean we don't care. But this thread to me is like family and people drop in and out of families sometimes. We've posted our hearts out and God willing, he'll post back if and when he's ready.

It's a horrible feeling I know and I guess we multiply that by a million for the families of someone who does end it all. This is just a hint of what they feel like. But we don't know what's happening. Whatever the truth is, this thread of wonderful people help each other through some terrible things that have happened to us as individuals, and this is the first time that we've had a situation like this as a group I think.

Each one of you is so important to the group and to me - I do mean that sincerely - and you all give so much. I just think that we've done all we can for now and that as families do, we need to carry on because we may never know, for the best or the worst, what's happening. We're giving Miroslav as much as we can and he knows we support him - we've told him often how much. With his sense of humour evident recently, I'm hoping he's just taking time out. And no guilt trips either guys!:grouphug:

I hope I haven't offended anyone with this post - I just don't want us to make ourselves even poorlier than we are. I think this is the sort of thing a group like ours can work through together. We have no control over this one guys.:o

An idea came to me this morning...:idea:... (yes, another one!:rolleyes: ), a lot of us have certain bad dates or anniversaries and that is when we are at our most vulnerable. How about when we post, either in the title panel or in the signature, we list any dates in the year that are hard for us to manage. People can look out for each other and also we'll know if they back off that they just need a little time. Kind words and thoughts mean so much on these dates to people. You don't have to say why. It just lets each other know when our really hard times are. And of course, we post the same as we always do.

And if we do a negative, then we have to do a positive right ? So how about putting your birthday 1st? Or post it with your avatar? Year of birth not compulsory!;)

Miroslav, wherever you are, whatever you're doing, God bless and keep you safe.:grouphug:

I hope all of you are well and safe andif you need a shoulder just shout - 4 or 5 hundred of us will come running!;) Please post during your desperate times so we can help each other - isn't that one of the reasons we're here?
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Horasio

Hi

I am new to this thread, how does it work?

Do I tell you what is going on just now?

Horasio

Miroslav wrote:

I've reached the moment where I have snapped and really can't be bothered anymore. I've tried being nice and helping people in life, but everyone seems to take take take in the real world and give nothing back.

Thanks to all for their advice over the past few days/weeks/months and hope everything works out for you all, you all deserve happiness and success in everything that you do.

Miroslav :wave:

Sorry to hear you are feeling low.

It has been a tough week, I blame the change in season. Never the nicest time of year.

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Yes CCStar, you can if you wish tell us about your situation and we all just generally try to support each other.

Welcome to the thread

Horasio

I used to get big mood swings due to my unbalanced hormones. But this week I have felt low due to the seasonal change. Strangely enough I didn't enjoy this summer so was looking forward to autumn/winter. I feeling a bit confused about it, as if I don't enjoy summer, I enjoy autumn/winter and vice versa.

I have taken anti depressants at this time of year before and to cope with my hormones. They helped with the seasonal problem but not the hormones.

I have a lot of bad memories from late September/early October in my past. I try not to dwell but the light and smell of this time of year trigger it. It is a time of change, change that is scary.

Circumstantially, my husband is starting a new job today and feeling nervous for him and our finances. Feeling low this week has made me feel more sensitive and this has affected our relationship, as we had a huge row yesterday. I have lost interest in things this week and it is a huge effort to do anything. I needed him to be more encouraging when I did make an effort yesterday but instead I felt put down by his reaction, which has really upset me.

I have a pattern where I get really excited by things, wear them out by being excessive, then get totally bored of them. When I feel bored, I get mischievous to add spice to my bored mood.

Also, when I rest, I feel rotten but I have to take a break sometime. I prefer to be busy but when there is nothing happening, I get really lazy.

I don't know what the label is for what I go through but I thought I would share where I am just now and try and support others going thro' a bad time too.

Tiff_2

CCStar wrote:

Hi

I am new to this thread, how does it work?

Do I tell you what is going on just now?

Hi CCStar - come on in. You're most welcome. There's no hard or fast rules. You can say as little or as much about depression or mental ill health as you want. This group are wonderful people.
It's Tiff's bedtime now hun so i'll catch up with you later.
Best wishes,
Tiff