depression

Horasio

Hi

Something I did when I did counselling.

Good and New

Yes I will vent about the bad but it is good to see the good too, especially at this time of year but can be used anytime.

Good and new

My MIL has gone home from hospital. She can hold a cup now.
Put my stuff off my HDD onto DVD
My son is working tomorrow
Hopefully, some sorting will get done by OH today and son do some on Monday and Tuesday.
Watching Delia Smith's Christmas collection on UK Food.
I made my own cake and pudding this year.
Got all the non perishable shopping for Christmas, just need fruit, veg and dairy next week for when we return, shops are shut on Boxing Day evening.
X Factor final on tonight - Leona to win!!

The usual misery:(

I didn't sleep till 5am again.

Have you noticed so many men are called Ed or Eddie?:D

Horasio

Tiff wrote:

Hi CC!
If that's the path you want to take hun do it - just because you have bought him gifts, doesn't mean he should get them all - hold some back for his birthday if his behaviour improves.
You show a little sign of optimism there hun with you saying that they're starting to agree little by little.
It's hard to strike a happy balance sometimes angel - if they'd have jumped in, some people might have accused them of interfering. Sometimes you just can't win.:o Hope things are getting better for you, hubby and for m-i-l hun.
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Yes it isn't long until then either. They can be for either

Horasio

feelinggood wrote:

I was going to start with good evening guys, but I should really start with good morning shouldn't I?
I'm avoiding going to bed even though I really should. The increased dose of AD's is making me very tired, but I'm rather upset today and I know I'm gonna be led in bed thinking things over and feeling more upset, so I'm staying here, distracting myself even though I can barely keep my eyes open.
I'm trying so hard not to think. I know I shouldn't get down and all that, but I do. Pah! Its not that bad, its not as dark as it has been, its just a bit grey. Dark grey lol. My mind is a strange place, I need to learn how to shut it up! Why did the bloody floodgates have to open? I dont like having to deal with things, I prefered it when I could pretend that nothing bad ever happened to me I'm in a very rambly mood tonight, I should write things down, but hurts a bit much. Its all a bit of a mess. Its always a mess. I mess things up. I cause mess.

I'm the same when the light goes out, no matter how tired I am, the chatter - arggh!

It is difficult facing things you would rather try and bury and it all be OK but it resurfaces. We are here and thinking of you, you are not alone.

It does help to write down your thoughts, no matter how random.

EthelBloggs

Weird.. my eyes have sprung a leak and just wont stop!!! it's infuriating.. i can't stop crying and i feel like people are thinking im pathetic. as soon as anyone looks a tme or says somehing nice thts it... the euyeballs start gushing!

daughter came home yesterday afternoon. I had misgivngs and I was right to.. she dcided to do a runner in themiddle of the night... had to get the police to go find her... they ventually did an brought her home at abt 4am.. she was in a bad state mentally but refuseed to go to hospsital and cos she's not been sectioned they codlnt force her.

So thats ermmmmmmm 4 out of the last 5 nights ive been sleepless.. aybe thats why the eyes are leacking eh?

got workmen in the house today.. they keep loking fnny at me and the support worker is coming at 2.30 or something. Daughter has had medisine so she's dead to the world now

i;m tryign to clean up the house a bit but i cnat see for long enuff to finish anythng.. agghh :mad:

EthelBloggs

fekk.. sory bout the bad typing

Sazbo

Ethel hun (((big hugs))). It's likely a combination of stress and tiredness. Can you grab a nap at some point while your daughter's quiet? So sorry I don't have time for longer post hun, or to reply to others' posts as I have to go out in a minute. I will try and get back on tonight if I can. Much love to you all. Saz xxx

blinky

Tiff wrote:

Oh dear - I was dreading this moment! Okay blinky, here we go...

There are lovely little girl birds flying around and busy little boy bees flying around. If a boy bee and a lady bird like each other, they start dating
Then they start to fall in love and decide to . Now when a blinky and an 'r' are alone, the blinky.....

AARGH! I CAN'T DO IT! :eek: :rotfl:
You tell him Saz!

Basically blinky - you could be in luuurve!;)
Much Love
Tiff xxx

LOL :rotfl:
Yes, we are very much in love :happyhear :kisses2:

blinky

EthelBloggs wrote:

Weird.. my eyes have sprung a leak and just wont stop!!! it's infuriating.. i can't stop crying and i feel like people are thinking im pathetic. as soon as anyone looks a tme or says somehing nice thts it... the euyeballs start gushing!

daughter came home yesterday afternoon. I had misgivngs and I was right to.. she dcided to do a runner in themiddle of the night... had to get the police to go find her... they ventually did an brought her home at abt 4am.. she was in a bad state mentally but refuseed to go to hospsital and cos she's not been sectioned they codlnt force her.

So thats ermmmmmmm 4 out of the last 5 nights ive been sleepless.. aybe thats why the eyes are leacking eh?

got workmen in the house today.. they keep loking fnny at me and the support worker is coming at 2.30 or something. Daughter has had medisine so she's dead to the world now

i;m tryign to clean up the house a bit but i cnat see for long enuff to finish anythng.. agghh :mad:

Oh Hun,

At least the crying is helping to let some of the pain and feelings out.

blinky

Tiff wrote:

Hi blinky! :hello:
I hope you don't mind me mentioning it hun, , but I've started to notice a small problem with your posts...

There's way too much happiness going on here! :rotfl:

Here we all are, doing our best to stay depressed and looking for possible MSE help and you come along with your joyful posts!:rolleyes:
I'm watching you young man - much more of this and...!!!

Just joking angel - I'm so pleased you've got some happiness - you enjoy it hun! It's really great to hear about your romance! :T
...64p in the hat fund!:rotfl:
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Sorry
ROFL :rotfl: :rotfl:

No need for hat fund yet.

If people do want me to leave just say...

mclaren_2

CCStar wrote:

I got rudely awoken by the very LOUD hail at 7.30am - did you hear it?:eek:

no - though, being in the city centre, i dont hear much - what i do hear is about 6:30 when the first plane takes off - but i dont hear it if im sleeping lol