depression

blinky

geminilady wrote:

No chance of seeing "N" but possibly after xmas not really sure as we had words,still talking though so thats something.

Hope you manage to work things out

mclaren_2

the whole of today, ive just felt tired. LIke i want to sleep all day. Dont know if its the meds or not but ive had not much energy

Hope i will have more tomorow - and even more on Sunday cos im going to old firm match

Today, my mood has stayed level aswell - not up but not down - which is good i recon. Though, just now, it has just went up 1 and down 1 so - still bout the same.

I do hope every1 here is okay.

I am just sitting down watching some tv atm - tho its all i have done today LOL _ just need more sleep lol.

Dont have a plan for tomorow which is a suprise for me cos usuall i have to plan things for the next day but ive just not had much energy to do tha tlol.

Horasio

mclaren wrote:

the whole of today, ive just felt tired. LIke i want to sleep all day. Dont know if its the meds or not but ive had not much energy

Hope i will have more tomorow - and even more on Sunday cos im going to old firm match

Today, my mood has stayed level aswell - not up but not down - which is good i recon. Though, just now, it has just went up 1 and down 1 so - still bout the same.

I do hope every1 here is okay.

I am just sitting down watching some tv atm - tho its all i have done today LOL _ just need more sleep lol.

Dont have a plan for tomorow which is a suprise for me cos usuall i have to plan things for the next day but ive just not had much energy to do tha tlol.

I got rudely awoken by the very LOUD hail at 7.30am - did you hear it?:eek:

stenny_2

CCStar wrote:

I got rudely awoken by the very LOUD hail at 7.30am - did you hear it?:eek:

Sorry that might have been me!

Hope everyone is doing well, again will read back tomorrow, been a busy day!

geminilady

Miroslav wrote:

Yeah, I miss people this time of year even more. Well, maybe not more, but it feels more because of what Xmas is meant to be about, families and all that.

'S' doesn't understand, even though next Thurs will be 5 years since her Mother died. She's odd, she didn't seem bothered about it Sunday. I've no idea what is true and what isn't with her.

'S' is still coming for Xmas, until she cancels on the day no doubt

14 and 22 :eek: Are they still mummies boys?

At least you are still talking with 'N'. Doesn't sound like it's irrepairable, which is good. Hope you have a good Xmas with your boys

Yes i know what you mean about christmas being a family time but i try and remember that there are lots of people who spend christmas on their own so even though its just me and the boys we will still have a good time.Maybe "S" was not that close to her mum,not everyone is.lol u sound shocked at my boys ages,i am 49,quite an old mum but modern in my outlook."mummies boys "? i don't know we are close but i'v brought them up to be independant they can cook ect and as the oldest only works a couple of hours he does the housework.Hopefully it will be ok with "N" its just a trust thing,everyone brings bagage into a relationship.We both find it hard to trust because of our pasts and part of me thinks he might just be using me but if he just wanted sex why would he have been happy being a text friend for 4 yrs?.I suppose its down to low self esteem and because i always care too much, just can't believe someone i care about would feal the same about me.

geminilady

blinky wrote:

Hope you manage to work things out

Thanks Blinky,me too i really like the guy and my instincts tell me he is a good one but just find it so hard to trust,been lied to and used so many times.You are so lucky to have found "R" thats all i have ever wanted just to have someone i care about feal the same way.

Horasio

I don't feel my family care about me. I hate them.

My son is allowed to push me over and I have a bruise on my arm from it

My son is allowed to be a nasty prat and get away with it, yet if I stand up for myself, I'm ganged up on.

Have you heard those dog owners who say 'he's only a puppy' - guess what I want to do those owners:mad:

Perhaps if I slash their tyres and say

'I am only an angry person who hates ignorant, uncaring b'stards like you'

My place is in the wrong in everyone's eyes probably because I am a female.

I hate being a female and expected to be all understanding of bad behaviour

Bulls**t!!!!!!!!

Horasio

geminilady wrote:

Yes i know what you mean about christmas being a family time but i try and remember that there are lots of people who spend christmas on their own so even though its just me and the boys we will still have a good time.Maybe "S" was not that close to her mum,not everyone is.lol u sound shocked at my boys ages,i am 49,quite an old mum but modern in my outlook."mummies boys "? i don't know we are close but i'v brought them up to be independant they can cook ect and as the oldest only works a couple of hours he does the housework.Hopefully it will be ok with "N" its just a trust thing,everyone brings bagage into a relationship.We both find it hard to trust because of our pasts and part of me thinks he might just be using me but if he just wanted sex why would he have been happy being a text friend for 4 yrs?.I suppose its down to low self esteem and because i always care too much, just can't believe someone i care about would feal the same about me.

What would you rather have?

Christmas alone or with a family that sucked?

I know what I would prefer

Horasio

My day today

Did a load of washing.

Edited a lot of stuff of my HDD recorder to DVD which was fun to watch. Had to do it in real time as I had edited it.

Of course, 4.30pm was the time to be depressed. The black cloud came home and it all had to be boring and heavy. The routine jobs become more difficult and I get irritable when things go wrong too because I am fed up.

Couldn't wait for him to retire to him room for the night so I could get happy again.

Is it me or is Pink Floyd depressing? They are good but they do depress me

geminilady

CCStar wrote:

I don't feel my family care about me. I hate them.

My son is allowed to push me over and I have a bruise on my arm from it

My son is allowed to be a nasty prat and get away with it, yet if I stand up for myself, I'm ganged up on.

Have you heard those dog owners who say 'he's only a puppy' - guess what I want to do those owners:mad:

Perhaps if I slash their tyres and say

'I am only an angry person who hates ignorant, uncaring b'stards like you'

My place is in the wrong in everyone's eyes probably because I am a female.

I hate being a female and expected to be all understanding of bad behaviour

Bulls**t!!!!!!!!

Oh dear you are angry! maybe next time you can come back as a man lol,get your own back.Sorry not making light of your problems at all.I think it is disgusting that your son pushed his mum over and your husband has not severaly repremanded him!It is totaly out of order and there is no excuse.As you say i think you will be a lot happier away from them.Don't know how old your son is but he definately needs some anger managment therapy if he can push you over what would he do to someone else?