depression

geminilady

CCStar wrote:

What would you rather have?

Christmas alone or with a family that sucked?

I know what I would prefer

Well you can choose your friends but you cannot choose your family,you can however choose wether you spend time with them or not.Pink Floyd? not listened to them much but sad songs can make my depression worse,i spent years not listening to them for that very reason.

feelinggood_2

I was going to start with good evening guys, but I should really start with good morning shouldn't I?
I'm avoiding going to bed even though I really should. The increased dose of AD's is making me very tired, but I'm rather upset today and I know I'm gonna be led in bed thinking things over and feeling more upset, so I'm staying here, distracting myself even though I can barely keep my eyes open.
I'm trying so hard not to think. I know I shouldn't get down and all that, but I do. Pah! Its not that bad, its not as dark as it has been, its just a bit grey. Dark grey lol. My mind is a strange place, I need to learn how to shut it up! Why did the bloody floodgates have to open? I dont like having to deal with things, I prefered it when I could pretend that nothing bad ever happened to me I'm in a very rambly mood tonight, I should write things down, but hurts a bit much. Its all a bit of a mess. Its always a mess. I mess things up. I cause mess.

Tiff_2

mclaren wrote:

Well every1 - hi.
I went to docs, and i told him everything including the part where i couls ee myself jump out the window. Was suprised i done it.

He said that he would give me some Mirtazapine, and i have to go back in a week to see how things are, and if things are good on it, can up the dosage.

Only thing was i felt very very low when i was walking in to docs and my anxiaty was through the roof

Least i have something that can help me now i hope

Hi mc:hello:
I haven't read ahead of this post yet so I'm sure everything useful has already been said.;) Well done angel on taking that big first step and for being so totally honest to gp.
It's the only way to get the help needed. Sometimes we don't tell the whole story in case they might think we're absolutely
But drs have seen it all before hun.;) So hopefully angel, there'll soon be a lot less of this :wall: in your life. It's great that you've got a gp on the ball too who is keeping you well monitored. In a funny kind of way, be glad that your symptoms were bad at that time - I'm sure we've all had the experience of feeling very ill (physically/mentally) and by the time it comes to see the dr, we're feeling a bit better!:rolleyes:
I guess the only thing I can add mc, is that there's so many options available to help you via gp, so don't ever give up hope hun - be patient and stay as honest with your dr as you already have been.
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

blinky wrote:

Generally he's not bad but he's so disorganised and forgetful. It's not the first time I've had to pull him out of the sh*t. :mad: Left one thing for him to sort, I spotted a mistake in a report he's responsible for and it's given to the customer so it needs to be right. I know he hasn't reported the error. :mad:

Seeing 'R' on Sunday night and Tuesday night :j :happyhear

Hi blinky! :hello:
I hope you don't mind me mentioning it hun, , but I've started to notice a small problem with your posts...

There's way too much happiness going on here! :rotfl:

Here we all are, doing our best to stay depressed and looking for possible MSE help and you come along with your joyful posts!:rolleyes:
I'm watching you young man - much more of this and...!!!

Just joking angel - I'm so pleased you've got some happiness - you enjoy it hun! It's really great to hear about your romance! :T
...64p in the hat fund!:rotfl:
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Sazbo wrote:

No of course not! He never turned up. And just to cap what had been a truly nightmarish week's "holiday" for me - I realise today I mislaid a debit card in a shop on tuesday and someone found it and has been using it fraudulently. I can't take much more. Hope you're all ok. I will read back your posts later when I've calmed down a bit.

Love,
Saz x

Hi Saz!:hello:
Aww hun - so much for your 9 days of peace and relaxation hun?!:o
That's terrible news re. your debit card - I'm guessing it's happening a lot right now with everyone in a hurry and stressed out. You should be able to claim it back hun.
Here sazzy, have a nice:coffee: and a :grouphug:!
Things will balance out angel - y'know the old yin and yang thing. And what goes around, comes around so hopefully, they'll get theirs!;)

Let me know when they find him - I've got this Italian friend who would love to help you out - he always looks after The Family... :rotfl:
Just trying to give you a smile at the end of a terrible day hun.
Much Love,
Tiffs xxx

Tiff_2

Sazbo wrote:

exactamundo...

:eek: A 'Happy Days' fan! :eek:
Ok, ok - I watched it too!:o :rotfl:
Much love
Tiffs xxx

Tiff_2

CCStar wrote:

I have wrapped a liitle pressie already and hubby had bought the main pressie already. I wish he would send it back or give it to me.
If I could have my own way, I would cancel his Sky and make him pay for his contact lenses.
I have my family against me tho' - little by little getting them to agree with me. But this wouldn't have got so bad if they had been more supportive in the beginning.

Hi CC!
If that's the path you want to take hun do it - just because you have bought him gifts, doesn't mean he should get them all - hold some back for his birthday if his behaviour improves.
You show a little sign of optimism there hun with you saying that they're starting to agree little by little.
It's hard to strike a happy balance sometimes angel - if they'd have jumped in, some people might have accused them of interfering. Sometimes you just can't win.:o Hope things are getting better for you, hubby and for m-i-l hun.
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi fg!

feelinggood wrote:

Thanks for all your posts yesterday and today guys
I'm back off to the doctors at 9:30 - I'm seeing the head doc, and I'm going to explain to him that I'm not happy with my treatment, and feel that I need more support than I'm getting.

At the risk of sounding like a Punch 'n' Judy show character hun - that's the way to do it!;) You're sounding very wise.

fg wrote:

The one thing that tends to stand in my way is the fact that, due to anxiety&fear, I hide behind a mask. I can discuss 'symptoms' and 'problems' and 'possible causes', but struggle to add any emotion in as I fear than once I start crying, I won't stop. I'm going to start by explaining this to him. He is the head of the practice, so he'll hopefully be a bit more help.
I'm also going to push to see a physcologist, cos I'd rather like a proper diagnosis, as I wanna know whats wrong with me head.
Anyways, gotta go get dressed, will let you all know later.
Hope everyone is good, spending lots of hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes, as you know angel, the mask is used to protect ourselves isn't it? It sounds like you need to cry hun - either with or without the dr. It's a good way to vent all those bad chemicals we store up. Great idea on opening by telling dr that. Yes, you should get a proper diagnosis hun - I'm sure he'll refer you. Tell them everything angel. Hope it all went well feelie.;)
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

blinky wrote:

Good luck, hun hope you manage to get something positive out of it.

I've spent years living behind a mask. At the time it made it easier for other people but at the end of the day it just screws you up more

Big hugs to all

I'm okay today but missing 'R' :blushing: Damm, what has that girl done to me?

Hi blinky!
You're right hun - masks should only be used in an emergency. We try and rebuild as we sit behind our masks but it's doomed to failure because the mask isn't the real us. :rolleyes:

quote["Damm, what has that girl done to me?"[/quote]
Oh dear - I was dreading this moment! Okay blinky, here we go...

There are lovely little girl birds flying around and busy little boy bees flying around. If a boy bee and a lady bird like each other, they start dating
Then they start to fall in love and decide to . Now when a blinky and an 'r' are alone, the blinky.....

AARGH! I CAN'T DO IT! :eek: :rotfl:
You tell him Saz!

Basically blinky - you could be in luuurve!;)
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi ethel!:hello:

EthelBloggs wrote:

Howdy peeps!

quickie from me just so you know I'm still alive and not killed anyone yet.. although it has been tempting
See Sazzy about afore-mentioned castrations - I'm sure she'd love to demonstrate. Killing them doesn't work hun - you end up on a permanent residential work experience and no MSE!:eek: Plenty of PMS though!!!:eek: :eek: :eek:

sazbomb.. this happened to me and the bank did refund me all the money eventually - took about 4 weeks I think annoying tho when it happens :mad: and more hassle than you need.

feelie.. I'm glad it sounds as tho you're getting your head together and doing what you want to do *huggs*

Me... I'm shattered but I've got two meetings today with different peeps bout my daughter and then i've to do the trip to collect her and have her home for the weekend.. :eek: So I think it'll be sunday night before I get a decent sleep
Bless you hun - you got to try and grab some sleep angel - you can't help anybody with a flat battery.:o

b/f is being quite nice to me sort of.. but complaining about another weekend to be ruined by my daughter.. even tho I've explained there's not much I can do about that. Oh well.. 5 more days.......
take care peeps.. I'll post wen I can xx

Oooooh nooooo he didn't!!! That's it - I'm coming up ethel!;) Tell him that Tiffy wants to play...:D


Doesn't he have a heart?! Well, tell him ethel, that it won't be his problem in a couple of days and that you've had plenty of ruined days recently thanks to him!
My heart goes out to you angel. Thinking of you.;) Huge Tiff hugs.:grouphug:
Much Love,
Tiff xxx