depression

blinky

CCStar wrote:

I know it does suck - all the hype.

I do try and see the nice in it, the lights and cosiness but my family have managed to spoil that this year.

I want whatever lights are up to come down, it looks daft and I'm not decorating the house this year. It makes me feel sick even looking at nice decorations now.

Normally, I hate Christmas for the same reasons - too much stress, too much hype and too much pressure to go happy. I've had too many Christmases were I have been seriously suicidal. Waking up on Christmas Day and to be distressed that you woke up while everyone around you is trying to be happy is almost undescribably bad

This year I'm actually looking forward to Christmas time. I won't be seeing 'R' on Christmas Day or Boxing Day but we are planning our own little Christmas on the 27th :snow_grin :rudolf: :xmastree: :kisses2: 'R's had such a good effect on me. :j

Big Hugs to all

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

muhahahahahaaha let me know where it is and I'll come and watch


you take care too xx

:rotfl: :rotfl: Don't tempt me, Ethel hun! I'm feeling nice and chilled after my acupuncture session but it probably won't last...! xx

Sazbo

CC - I don't think that sounds horrible at all. You're just trying to be realistic, see things as they are and not get sucked in by all the !!!!!!. But of course doing that makes you a 'tall poppy' - vulnerable to bad treatment from people around you weaker than yourself. They may resent your determination to see things clearly and not settle for treatment less than what you deserve. Hun all I can say is stick to your guns, if you can. Easy said, I know. Hugs, Saz xx

Sazbo

I can't be bothered with xmas this year - I just don't have the energy. x

Sazbo

blinky wrote:

I won't be seeing 'R' on Christmas Day or Boxing Day but we are planning our own little Christmas on the 27th :snow_grin :rudolf: :xmastree: :kisses2: 'R's had such a good effect on me. :j

Big Hugs to all

Aww, you enjoy it blinky. Glad she's having such a positive effect for you. Great to see you happy hun xx

gillette147

Hi to all (althought I don't think anybody's lights are on)

Went thru dole telephone interview yesterday.
Then went to see doctor in afternoon. Got one I haven't seen before - I knew it would go bad.

She gave me anti-biotics for my ear (even though she doesn't think it is infected). Am I paranoid but I seem to be given antibiotics every time I go to doctors - are they cheap now and are they used to get rid of people?

My sicky back pain has been put down to the anti-inflamatories and I'm now on pure pain killers. She has indicated I wont be given another sick note after these 2 weeks - thus I'll prob have no money!

Then I brought up my depression.
It was awlful - long periods of silence why she just stared at me - I felt embarassed and judged. She said it may be circumstantial (well ive had it for 13 years minimum tbh). I've made the mistake of going while out of work and she just thinks it's down to that. She's ruled out ADs for now and has refered me to a councellor - but not til january. She made it clear that if I don't turn up for councelling then I'm on my own.

I feel she's calling my bluff and thinks I won't turn up. I came home very down - over-ate hugely. This just feels like another horid thing to have to cope with. I may as well go to bed from now until january. I'm virtually doing that now anyway.

If I go back to brum I'll be with my family and will feel better. But I'll have no internet and will feel that I'm running away. If I stay at home then I'm on my own with no life and will just sleep/eat.

I've got to be back by the 2nd Jan coz my note runs out. She could have given me an extra week but no. There's always one mean doctor in every surgery and the other ones have been much better. The booking system makes it near impossible to keep to one doctor there.


I've just read back and it sounds like yesterday was a bad one for many people.

Mclaren
You never need to apologise for posting. Get help and use this place however helps you. At least your not a villa fan - take comfort in that. Good Luck Mate!

Ethel
Big hug to you. This guy will use every trick in the book. Let him stay if you are absolutely sure you can cope with it until he gets paid. But I'm worried you will be caved in. This situation is not unique and the police etc must be able to help with his removal and probably giving him a talking to about leaving you alone. I'll leave the advice to better people on here. Good Luck xx

CC
*tosses long flowing mane *
All the best to you. It all sounds very sad there at the moment. But you sound very clued up and I reckon you can take the steps to sort this situation out. IMO I know you have the strength to make your life better xx

Sleepy, elona
Hope you enjoyed the shopping trips xx

Sazzy
Good Luck kicking a$$ xx

Bunny
Good Luck with the insurance peeps.

Stenny
Good luck with your house mess. Just chuck tinsel all over it.

Blinky and Tiff
You're stars - handshake and hug respectively.

The wonderful rest of you
Hugs and handshakes to you all

xx

elona

gilly

Could you ask to see another doctor for a "second opinion" and point out thar it took you "years" to summon up the courage to mention you felt you had depression?

Big hug.

Sazbo

Gilly I cannot second Elona's post strongly enough. I am honestly appalled at how that doctor treated you. You were asking for help, for crying out loud, not the keys to the Pentagon :mad: Quite honestly, the way I'm feeling at the moment, she's damn lucky I wasn't there with you - I'd have socked her one. Please, please see a different doctor. Don't let one curmudgeonly a$$h0le stand between you and the help you need. Boy, when Tiff reads this she'll be a ticked Tiffy...

Much love,
Sazzyxxx

gillette147

elona wrote:

gilly

Could you ask to see another doctor for a "second opinion" and point out thar it took you "years" to summon up the courage to mention you felt you had depression?

Big hug.

But she took the fact i've taken so long to mean "I can cope".

Sazbo

gillette147 wrote:

But she took the fact i've taken so long to mean "I can cope".

And she knows this how, hun? Was she there at the time? xx