depression

EthelBloggs

wotcha sazbomb.. sorry for disappearing miro.. had to go make dinner n stuff.

thought you were gonna be watching the footie saz?

gillette147

EthelBloggs wrote:

Some of us like a big man... I know I do.. bit weird considering how small I am, lol but its that feeling of someone being so big and powerful and feeling like they can protect you from everything just by wrapping their arms around you... does that make sense?

Maybe that's why me and b/f are such a disaster, he's only 5' 7" and very slim

No worries on the form.. if I get really stuck i'll ask on the benefits board

Well I'm 6'4 :whistle:

....and hoping for some of Miro's surplus.

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

wotcha sazbomb.. sorry for disappearing miro.. had to go make dinner n stuff.

thought you were gonna be watching the footie saz?

wotcha ethel hunnie - yeah I'm watching it on ITV:D Blues lookin comfortable tho thus far...

how's you? x

Sazbo

gillette147 wrote:

Well I'm 6'4 :whistle:

....and hoping for some of Miro's surplus.

LOL ethel and me would make one of you gilly!

EthelBloggs

gillette147 wrote:

Well I'm 6'4 :whistle:

....and hoping for some of Miro's surplus.

oooohh........ wanna come down to my level for a bit?

EthelBloggs

I'm pretty good thanks sazbomb.. trying to make a concerted effort to eat less crap and more proper veg... even went to the market today and bought fresh broccoli and carrots.. did em in the steamer

think i might have a nice long bubble bath in abit... with a book and a cuppa.. bliss

enjoying ur time off sazzy?

whats the job plan gilly.. I saw u mentioned something earlier?

gillette147

Hiya folks,

I'm very good today.
When I'm like this I think I don't have a problem - just problems.
I am in a facing stuff mood. I've been to see a friend who needed a boost today. I'll be round to all your houses next - I feel like Jimmy Saville.

Tomorrow it's incapacity forms and bupa stuff.

Big hugs to you all.

Rose
especially for you - I've not directly talked to you but you have made an impact on me and I care so much that you get help and something is done for you.

Sleepy
my offer is good for any night I am around. Take care, i'm so glad the work situation is looking reasonable. You can't do it all - you are the most important thing.

Ethel
I'm glad that it seems that you are coping a bit better now xx

CC
I'll PM about ear stuff after this.

Mushy
Great name btw.
There are better people on here for the advice. But have a hug from me.

To all others with troubles
You have wondered into a magical place - I know there is the help and advice here to save you all. Good luck and a hug from me xx

To all those dishing out the help
Your generosity humbles me xx

I have spend the year drifting around on MSE but I feel this place is the most special place of all.

Sazbo

gillette147 wrote:

Hiya folks,

I'm very good today.
When I'm like this I think I don't have a problem - just problems.
I am in a facing stuff mood. I've been to see a friend who needed a boost today. I'll be round to all your houses next - I feel like Jimmy Saville.

Tomorrow it's incapacity forms and bupa stuff.

Big hugs to you all.

Rose
especially for you - I've not directly talked to you but you have made an impact on me and I care so much that you get help and something is done for you.

Sleepy
my offer is good for any night I am around. Take care, i'm so glad the work situation is looking reasonable. You can't do it all - you are the most important thing.

Ethel
I'm glad that it seems that you are coping a bit better now xx

CC
I'll PM about ear stuff after this.

Mushy
Great name btw.
There are better people on here for the advice. But have a hug from me.

To all others with troubles
You have wondered into a magical place - I know there is the help and advice here to save you all. Good luck and a hug from me xx

To all those dishing out the help
Your generosity humbles me xx

I have spend the year drifting around on MSE but I feel this place is the most special place of all.

I like those 'seize the day' kinda days. Always feel I want to make the most of them. Never forget you are special too, Gillette. You've done much to make this place the magical place that it is - so give yourself some credit ok? (That's a Sazzy order, btw) xxx

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

I'm pretty good thanks sazbomb.. trying to make a concerted effort to eat less crap and more proper veg... even went to the market today and bought fresh broccoli and carrots.. did em in the steamer

think i might have a nice long bubble bath in abit... with a book and a cuppa.. bliss

enjoying ur time off sazzy?

whats the job plan gilly.. I saw u mentioned something earlier?

Yeah time off's brill thanks, hun x I could def get used to it! Work sucks :rolleyes: Well done you eating healthy. I eat a large pack of Kettle chips and try to convince myself that's healthy! Sad or wot?! Enjoy the bubble bath xxx

gillette147

EthelBloggs wrote:

I'm pretty good thanks sazbomb.. trying to make a concerted effort to eat less crap and more proper veg... even went to the market today and bought fresh broccoli and carrots.. did em in the steamer

think i might have a nice long bubble bath in abit... with a book and a cuppa.. bliss

enjoying ur time off sazzy?

whats the job plan gilly.. I saw u mentioned something earlier?

Well,
I have written materials testing software for 20 years under 4 firms. The current one for seven years. I hoped the relocation to take this job would be final. They are the biggest in europe at it. But they gave me too big a project and too little resource. I nearly killed myself trying to achieve it and failed. They just labelled me a failure and have made me feel miserable and unwanted there for the last 3 years.

As my family have been saying to me over the weekend - I've just lost a job that made me miserable. But the pay was ok and to start again seems daunting and impractical.

Anyway for the last 4 weeks since I was chucked out I have flip-flopped about - trying to decide what to do with my life. I have been through all the various options but had realised that one now seems almost destined.

Two years ago when the firm were hounding me (no pay rise and threatened with demotion) I took on a part-time role as a safety officer there. I took it to try to show them I still wanted to make an effort to fit in (and I hoped it would make them less likely to sack me in the future - didn't work lol)

I have been to a meeting a month about accidents and safety issues and have to risk assess parts of the building at times in the year. I enjoy it and find my natural wanting to do a job right is a positive benefit in it. I was sent on a day-long course when I started it so I even have a lowly qualification in it.

I just want a different job with a bit less stress and where my effort is appreciated. My last firm didn't even give me kudos for my efforts. Over the last 12 months I have free-wheeled there a bit but I know when I care about work I put more effort in, and for longer, than anyone I have ever met. I am not lazy - just uninspired.

Anyway - initial web searches looks like it will cost £5k to retrain and the exams are next july which could be a problem. But it just feels so right a decision. I need to do alot more research - I found a agency who specialise in these type of jobs so I will phone them tomorrow.

I hope someone actually wanted to here all this.
Cheers