depression

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Morning all
Just a quick hello and to say I'm thinking of you all.
I will read through and reply to you all in a little while
Take care xx

Afternoon :wave:

Hope you are well

Miroslav

elona wrote:

Miro

I am hopping mad on your behalf!!!!!:mad:

You do not deserve this.

She may have been hurt and be lashing out but it is still not fair.

Miro - I do not want to offend you but am worried that you see yourself as a "rescuer" and she does not want to be rescued - has contempt for those who treat her decently - seeing it as weakness.

I have a scenario of a knight in armour on horseback, saying "Fair princess Let me rescue you from this foul dragon!"
Princess then says "Get lost Knight!! Poor dragon!"

You may love S but it sounds as if you would be unable to trust her.

I hope things work out for you and am sorry for the way you feel.

Hope that I have not offended you.

Thanks Elona!

It isn't fair on me I've done nothing wrong, but I can't be 100% positive 24/7, no-one can, and anyone who isn't she pushes away, so she either ends up very alone, or with people who use her

I am trying to rescue her, I just want to look after her, and she pushes me away.

I love her to bits, but no, I couldn't trust her. We may have a great day, but the next.....so up and down. She lies constantly. This has been done to her, and i'm understanding more every time we meet.

geminilady

EthelBloggs wrote:

I dunno what's up with me... I'm sinking into my depression and letting it take me over... I'm isolating myself.. don't want anyone around me or near me or to see anyone.. I don't answr the phone or open post... I'm just hiding. Havent been to uni in over a week.. nothing. I'm having lots of suicidal thoughts.. just havent come up with a suitable method that wouldn't take long and wouldnt mkae too much mess. then i think that i should finish bringing my kids up firsts - not fair to leave them when they're stil young.. i dunno anymroe. i just dont wnat anymore.

Hi Ethel. I echo Blinkey's words,there is light at the end of the tunnel you just can't see it right now but it IS there.Please pick up the phone and ring the samaritans or your gp and tell them how bad you are feeling they WILL help but you need to pick up the phone.Hold on to the thought of your kids they NEED YOU.I do not know their ages but just remember they would have to live with the fact of what you had done and they could even think they are to blame in some way.I might sound harsh and i know when you are fealing so down it is hard to think how your actions may effect others,but i have been in the dark place you are now and thinking of my kids pulled me back from the brink.Hope i have helped in someway and remember all the people on here are thinking of you and we are all hear to listen.

Miroslav

blinky wrote:

Morning all,

Hope you are all well. Quite relaxed at the moment. Spent a lovely night with 'R' :happyhear :kisses2: Neither of us wanted to go to work today.

Thinking of you all.

Eurgh, love

Happy for you blinky.............if 'R' has a sister.....

Miroslav

CCStar wrote:

Had an OK evening, watched Celebrity - there is only one woman left! Been a good one this year.

I can't say I have watched, but Malandra made me look over at times

Flatmate says Dean Gaffney will have won a few people over.........best task ever or something.

feelinggood_2

Afternoon
How well all feeling after lunch?
I don't need any hugs today, but I'd rather like some I'm in a huggy mood

Miroslav

No reply from 'S' today. I'm going to text her later, ask her to meet me at 6pm in town............late night shopping.

I won't give up. Everyone else does give up on her. It may be she never sees me again, well, most will think I will have had a lucky escape. Even my flatmate tells me she may never change, everyone else has told me to give up on her, I won't.

Speaking to my flatmate last night, she's been in hospital 3 times in the last 4 years AT LEAST, 'S' told me she's been in once...........not a problem for me, I can understand why she wouldn't want to admit it.

I found out she used to have counselling with a lady I know fairly well......well, kind of. She never turned up most times

Another lady I know fairly well, who my flatmate works for, never believed a word 'S' said. She knew she was messed up, so supplied counselling for her, but everytime 'S' said something, she just saw it as another exaggeration

Her support workers and supported housing staff, all think she's a moaner and complains about anything and everything.

A girl she says stalks her and constantly texts, writes letters of abuse and knocks on her door.........my flatmate has dealt with her at her workplace, and is so backwards, she can't believe she'd speak to 'S' let alone stalk her!!

I'm so confuzzled! 'S' is so messed up. I have to forget the romance thing, it wouldn't work. No-one can handle her. Her family don't see her much and put her off, because she's too much hard work.

She says i'm negative after 2 sentences, when she's 100% negative

Her 'decision' to stay, was in fact her support staff telling her she wasn't ready.......so she had no real choice! She was turned down for the move to another town! Of course, she's now angry at them, because they are 'doing wrong' by her.

Rant over

One positive, her hair and makeup yesterday were perfect, she looked blimmin' gorgeous

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Afternoon
How well all feeling after lunch?
I don't need any hugs today, but I'd rather like some I'm in a huggy mood

Lunch, must do some before handing my job application in

:grouphug:

Miro - FG - Whoever else FG would like............I couldn't be the one touching her bum, how rude

feelinggood_2

Job application? Sounds good! I've filled out some more forms, gotta get dressed and post one later

Thanks for the hug But no one is allowed to touch my bum!! Strictly off limits :rotfl:

I know you've just posted Miro, but you didn't say how YOU feel - how do you feel? Are you ok?

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Job application? Sounds good! I've filled out some more forms, gotta get dressed and post one later

Thanks for the hug But no one is allowed to touch my bum!! Strictly off limits :rotfl:

I know you've just posted Miro, but you didn't say how YOU feel - how do you feel? Are you ok?

Only an Xmas job in a pound shop Good luck with your apps!

Oh But what if I asked nicely in exchange for a touch of my botty?

How I feel?

Oh, i'm in a worried mood, worried i've lost someone. I'm not teary at all right now, I think i'm glad I made the effort to be totally honest with her, and this time, I don't feel any guilt.

I feel low, but not really really low. The more and more she puts me off,, the worse I will get.