depression

feelinggood_2

Miroslav wrote:

Only an Xmas job in a pound shop Good luck with your apps!

Oh But what if I asked nicely in exchange for a touch of my botty?

How I feel?

Oh, i'm in a worried mood, worried i've lost someone. I'm not teary at all right now, I think i'm glad I made the effort to be totally honest with her, and this time, I don't feel any guilt.

I feel low, but not really really low. The more and more she puts me off,, the worse I will get.

It isn't 'only' anything Miro - it a really good, positive step! Well done, will be keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Worried. I can understand that. Its good that you don't feel guilty.

I'm sorry you are low, but its good that you can see that you aren't really really low. I hope S gets in touch soon - its hard when people push us away, even if they have valid reasons. Just feels like rejection doesn't it? I'm sure thats not what she meant. Honesty is good, well done you for doing that

I don't feel like getting dressed yet lol. Aslong as I get to the post box by 6pm Its alright

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

It isn't 'only' anything Miro - it a really good, positive step! Well done, will be keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Worried. I can understand that. Its good that you don't feel guilty. I do. I feel very guilty Anyways, I've vowed not to talk about that anymore, it does more harm than good

I'm sorry you are low, but its good that you can see that you aren't really really low. I hope S gets in touch soon - its hard when people push us away, even if they have valid reasons. Just feels like rejection doesn't it? I'm sure thats not what she meant. Honesty is good, well done you for doing that

I don't feel like getting dressed yet lol. Aslong as I get to the post box by 6pm Its alright

I'm doing it whilst angry and assertive. I can't be like I am anymore, letting one person affect me like this.

Soemtimes reflecting does do more harm

Yeah, it feels like rejection, and I know she'll start telling everyone i'm stalking her, even though i'm not. Luckily, people know what she's like.

Make sure you get to post box, it's your future

feelinggood_2

Miroslav wrote:

I'm doing it whilst angry and assertive. I can't be like I am anymore, letting one person affect me like this.

Soemtimes reflecting does do more harm

Yeah, it feels like rejection, and I know she'll start telling everyone i'm stalking her, even though i'm not. Luckily, people know what she's like.

Make sure you get to post box, it's your future

I just don't want to get dressed lol, I'm comfy in my pajamas

Future, thats funny you know. I'm starting to get 'excited' about it. I know now that I am ready for this - its the right thing to do, and I'm actually gonna do it. Its scary, but I'm getting things all sorted, fingers crossed eh.

gillette147

Ethel
I am so sorry to hear how you are doing. I wish I could take you out for a coffee and give you a hug (if I'm near I will if you want). The fact that you can still post on here is a good sign. Put some music you love on or a video. Music is my salvation when I feel at the bottom. Is there someone you trust enough to have some contact with - if you can face it? I don't know if you are under someone (medical - lol) but this does sound extreme and you shouldn't be left to deal with it.

Rose07
It sounds like a wild ride you're having girl!
I think some people there need a kick. But you have great spirit and I can tell it will get sorted. Good Luck.

CCStar
It must be hard to feel alone yet be with people and I send you a hug. I'm not much good at the advice malarkey so I'll just say that you sound quite capable and I'm sure you are strong enough to sort out your problems.

Miro - I wish you luck mate. It sounds like I went out with a similar but less extreme version of your g/f. It is a very difficult thing to deal with. I'm not sure it's possible (wasn't in my case) but maybe you can succeed where I failed. Never forget your own worth, no-one can just be a giver in the long term. Relationships need you both to have a turn being the needy one.

Blinky
Thank you mate. I'm in a more numb frame of mind today. Not depressed as much as daunted today. I feel like a day off from worrying if that's possibe. I will go back to brum on Saturday to visit family - I like doing that. I'm waiting for the dole forms to arrive so I'm not sure how long I can stay up there tho.

Tiff
Thank's for the welcome back - not a good thing tho is it lol.
Well done with the not drinking. Cheers.

philippa36, elona, geminilady, sazbo - Big thanks and hugs to you all.

and fg
I care about you and will be happy if you are happy xx


I feel like driving round the counrty distributing hugs to you all.
Is that paid work coz I'd like that?

feelinggood_2

gillette147 wrote:

and fg
I care about you and will be happy if you are happy xx

Thank you..............

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

I just don't want to get dressed lol, I'm comfy in my pajamas

Future, thats funny you know. I'm starting to get 'excited' about it. I know now that I am ready for this - its the right thing to do, and I'm actually gonna do it. Its scary, but I'm getting things all sorted, fingers crossed eh.

Why do relationships have to be so complicated so often Miro? Am I really that difficult to talk to sometimes?

Reflecting is good for me, talking about it isn't. Well, talking is good, but in a limited sense - if you know what I mean? I just don't want to be talking about all 'that' on here. You know? Am I rambling again? hehe

It's easy not to get dressed isn't it? Although I always do, as I have no nigh clothes, just my B'day suit

It is exciting, the future, albeit scary. Glad you are thinking positively!

I think often, relationships don't work because of the other person. I know i'm very open, friendly and easy to talk too, it's the others!

Sometimes it can feel like we are going over the same old ground, and it can get tiring. Especially if we are trying to be positive, it's best to leave it for now, I feel that. I miss my little girl especially at Xmas, when all the talk of families comes out, but i'll leave that for when i'm feeling less positive.

Miroslav

gillette147 wrote:

Miro - I wish you luck mate. It sounds like I went out with a similar but less extreme version of your g/f. It is a very difficult thing to deal with. I'm not sure it's possible (wasn't in my case) but maybe you can succeed where I failed. Never forget your own worth, no-one can just be a giver in the long term. Relationships need you both to have a turn being the needy one.

Well, she isn't my g/f, sadly........or gladly? But someone I have got very close too.

At the moment, she is more needy than me, I mean, her hugs are amazing, but emotionally, she's all over the place.

I'm just going to keep going, I have to, or I will feel I have failed her.

Hope you are well, I still have a load of messages to reply to, from 231 - 237 so may go back and look at them, whilst I am okay, although must get this application form done!

feelinggood_2

Miroslav wrote:

It's easy not to get dressed isn't it? Although I always do, as I have no nigh clothes, just my B'day suit

It is exciting, the future, albeit scary. Glad you are thinking positively!

I think often, relationships don't work because of the other person. I know i'm very open, friendly and easy to talk too, it's the others!

Sometimes it can feel like we are going over the same old ground, and it can get tiring. Especially if we are trying to be positive, it's best to leave it for now, I feel that. I miss my little girl especially at Xmas, when all the talk of families comes out, but i'll leave that for when i'm feeling less positive.

Today i'm feeling 'healthy', its not a can't get dressed day, its a don't want to get dressed day. Sounds like a small difference, but is actually a big difference

I don't think I'll ever understand relationships, mine or anyone elses. Just gotta go with the flow and see what happens, all we can do.

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williamo_2

Hi everyone hope you are all having a great day!! I went to see my GP today told him the AD's I was taking (Citalopram 20mg) and they were not helping me and made feel drowsy quite often. I got prescribed Sertraline 50mg so hopefully they will have more of a positive effect than my previous AD's, has anyone been prescribed this particular AD before? I'm a little nervous trying a new AD and any side effects they might have on me so advice or experiences anyone had would be of great use! Now I have to becarel when drinking with this medication which for me at the moment is an easy task as I usually go out with my friends at the weekend to bars/clubs and I'll have to avoid the temptation of taking any cocaine that the crowd im with usually offer around and previously felt a bit pressured into it Take care everyone.

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Hmmm, our PMs are nothing like that are they :rotfl:
Today i'm feeling 'healthy', its not a can't get dressed day, its a don't want to get dressed day. Sounds like a small difference, but is actually a big difference

I don't think I'll ever understand relationships, mine or anyone elses. Just gotta go with the flow and see what happens, all we can do.

:grouphug:

:rotfl:

Very big difference, a conscious choice! Can't spell consicous

Yeah, relationships are weird. One day, the right one will happen. SAdly for me, I think it already has, and was cut short. I just hope I get another opportunity

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