depression

Tiff_2

EthelBloggs wrote:

I dunno what's up with me... I'm sinking into my depression and letting it take me over... I'm isolating myself.. don't want anyone around me or near me or to see anyone.. I don't answr the phone or open post... I'm just hiding. Havent been to uni in over a week.. nothing. I'm having lots of suicidal thoughts.. just havent come up with a suitable method that wouldn't take long and wouldnt mkae too much mess. then i think that i should finish bringing my kids up firsts - not fair to leave them when they're stil young.. i dunno anymroe. i just dont wnat anymore.

Hi Ethel hun!
Are you ok sweetheart? You are too precious to leave this world like that hun. Be kind to yourself angel - you've had so much to deal with lately I know and you must feel like a lonely warrior. And on top of that, you've had Uni to deal with. You need some you time ethel - that's what your body's trying to tell you. You spend so much time on here giving great advice and sometimes we use that as a shield to get us through...if I'm busy, if I'm helping someone I'll be alright. I recognize your syptoms all too well and the positive thing here is that so do you! You've recognized the symptoms yourself, so what's the next step hun? Do you have a CPN? Are you able to call your GP? You're a fighter ethel and you just need a little back up right now. How can I help angel?
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Miroslav

Eurgh, starting to get low now. No reply from 'S'.

She has until 4pm, then i'm texting her to meet me at 6pm, turn phone off and go and wait at 6.

Silly moo

blinky

CCStar wrote:

Sorry but I am at the end of my tether

I can't stop crying today

You see all the lovely Christmas stuff and it makes you feel all loving. You may think, lucky me, I have a family to share it with - bulls**t!!

My husband says he cares etc but backs off sexually (emotionally). It has only been since we have been married. I married for it all. I don't want to look for someone else to make up for his faults.

My self esteem is at rock bottom when he does this, life is a pile of poo, then his nonsense at the end of the day. There is no pleasure. I have been able to endure it but I can't take any more.

I am supposed to be getting ready to go out shopping and be happy. How can I be happy with him?, the way he hurts me with his come here, go away behaviour. I don't want him seeing me like this. I used to let him see my like this, then he would be all loving but only once I reach rock bottom, never when I feel good or OK. I can't go on like this any more. It is sick and it's driving me mental. I used to think it was my fault but I have done everything I can and he still does this.

I spoke to my mother and she isn't taking me seriously, she has a 'yes dear' attitude and I will be lonely if I leave. What have I got to lose, I hate this house and feel worse than lonely now. I have the downside of being with people annoying me and none of the pleasures. I might as well be alone and enjoy the peace.

I want to end it all one way or another.

NOOO HUN.

Hang on in there...

It is worth it
The pain will pass
There is a light at the end of the tunnel, although you can't see it at the moment.
There will be setbacks on the way but things will get better.

You have a lot to offer the world. You are a wonderful person and a valued friend. Please take some heart in this.

Try and do little things, make a cuppa, get dressed AND GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT for doing it. I know everything must seem so difficult right now.

Hun, ring your GP / psychiartrist / samaritans and tell them how your feeling. If things are really bad get someone to take you to A&E.

I don't get any support at home either and I know for me it makes me feel more isolated.

Not a big fan of Christmas either - far too much pressure and expectation focussed on one day. I get sick of people saying "be happy, it's Christmas"...

Not sure what else to say.

Thinking of you

Paul

Tiff_2

CCStar wrote:

Sorry but I am at the end of my tether
I can't stop crying today. You see all the lovely Christmas stuff and it makes you feel all loving. You may think, lucky me, I have a family to share it with - bulls**t!! My husband says he cares etc but backs off sexually (emotionally). It has only been since we have been married. I married for it all. I don't want to look for someone else to make up for his faults.


My self esteem is at rock bottom when he does this, life is a pile of poo, then his nonsense at the end of the day. There is no pleasure. I have been able to endure it but I can't take any more. I am supposed to be getting ready to go out shopping and be happy. How can I be happy with him?, the way he hurts me with his come here, go away behaviour. I don't want him seeing me like this. I used to let him see my like this, then he would be all loving but only once I reach rock bottom, never when I feel good or OK. I can't go on like this any more. It is sick and it's driving me mental. I used to think it was my fault but I have done everything I can and he still does this.

I spoke to my mother and she isn't taking me seriously, she has a 'yes dear' attitude and I will be lonely if I leave. What have I got to lose, I hate this house and feel worse than lonely now. I have the downside of being with people annoying me and none of the pleasures. I might as well be alone and enjoy the peace. I want to end it all one way or another.

Hi CC
Thanks for posting hun.
Oh hun, I'm sorry you're so low. Whether we're alone or with someone, Christmas isn't a guarantee for happiness as you know. You're right to expect the whole package with OH angel - you can be lonely in the wrong kind of relationship but you can make the plans you need to change this hun. People say ''Oh sex isn't everything!'' but if you love someone and they withdraw from that side of things, it's bound to be an awful feeling of rejection. Some people can live without it, but it's a natural part of a relationship hun so you're not wrong for wanting it.
This is going to sound glib hun,;) but I don't mean it any other way than with love ok? You are very stressed and unhappy and you've listed all the reasons why above. Take some little comfort in the fact that sometimes be loving. It should be all the time, you're right angel but at the moment you need some support wherever it can come from, just to get you on your feet. Once you're on your feet CC, we can take it from there and look at the big picture.
When we're hurting like this ethel, everything seems to close in on us and we feel helpless and hopeless. I can't make much difference right now I know but we have to be kindest of all to ourselves when we're like this. You will feel better hun because you've got the guts to do it. I won't let you quit!:o :grouphug: You are a survivor and you know, I hope, how much you're liked and respected on this thread by myself and many others. Break it down hun - one step at a time. Think only of the next hour, this evening. Don't look at solving the whole problem when you feel so poorly angel. If there's any way I can help, please let me know.
Maybe Mum doesn't really understand or doesn't know what to do. I don't know your mum but the older school are very much from a ''tough it out, be thankful for what you have got'' school of thought. You are among friends here who have an insight into some of what you face hun and I hope that's helpful to you.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

gillette147 wrote:

I was going to qualify the drink comment in case you were being ironic.
I assume everyone on here drinks like a fish - most sound like they do.
(I am being funny - or trying to be).

I'm going to make the odd slip as I don't really know any of you. I could go back to page 1 and read it all.

Hi gill
And so you should!!! I was only teasing hun. Mind you I'm sure my reputation's been slaughtered on here anyway! :rotfl:
I think it all goes with the territory angel I think we all should know that all the posts on here are done with good intention and when we can, with a sense of humour. Hope your day's going ok hun.
Much Love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

williamo wrote:

Hi everyone hope you are all having a great day!! I went to see my GP today told him the AD's I was taking (Citalopram 20mg) and they were not helping me and made feel drowsy quite often. I got prescribed Sertraline 50mg so hopefully they will have more of a positive effect than my previous AD's, has anyone been prescribed this particular AD before? I'm a little nervous trying a new AD and any side effects they might have on me so advice or experiences anyone had would be of great use! Now I have to becarel when drinking with this medication which for me at the moment is an easy task as I usually go out with my friends at the weekend to bars/clubs and I'll have to avoid the temptation of taking any cocaine that the crowd im with usually offer around and previously felt a bit pressured into it Take care everyone.

Hi will
I'm taking Sertraline at the moment and have had no problems with it. You've been prescribed the minimum dose which is sensible and usual practice with all ad's. They do it so that it minimizes the possibility of any adverse reactions and if there is one, then hopefully it will be a small one because you don't have much in your system. Remember hun we all feel like this with a new medication. If you're worried at all, call your GP, CPN or local hospital.

Take heart from the fact that your GP listened hun and even though the other ad didn't suit you, (your hair didn't go green or anything more serious thank God), hopefully this one might be better. Please tell GP about the cocaine and alcohol if you haven't already will. It's a very dangerous combination. You don't want to give yourself more problems than you already have hun. Good luck.
Much love
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

blinky wrote:

NOOO HUN.
Hang on in there...

It is worth it
The pain will pass
There is a light at the end of the tunnel, although you can't see it at the moment.
There will be setbacks on the way but things will get better.

You have a lot to offer the world. You are a wonderful person and a valued friend. Please take some heart in this.

Try and do little things, make a cuppa, get dressed AND GIVE YOURSELF CREDIT for doing it. I know everything must seem so difficult right now.

Hun, ring your GP / psychiartrist / samaritans and tell them how your feeling. If things are really bad get someone to take you to A&E.

I don't get any support at home either and I know for me it makes me feel more isolated.

Not a big fan of Christmas either - far too much pressure and expectation focussed on one day. I get sick of people saying "be happy, it's Christmas"...

Not sure what else to say.

Thinking of you

Paul

Hi blinky,
Completely agree with everything you advised. Well said Paul. A simple step like taking a shower, although it can be hard to motivate yourself, can make you feel a lot better. :T
That's part of what I mean when I say 'be kind to yourself'. It's about looking after yourself physiclly and also not being hard on yourself mentally. Give yourselves a break guys - we've got a hundred different experiences that have broken our hearts and believe it or not, it hasn't broken our spirit or we wouldn't be here now. When we're at our worst, we deserve, and we can get, help! Break it all down and get through each hour as it comes. We've survived so far and that's something to be truly proud of imho.
Much love
Tiff xxx

Miroslav

I've text 'S', making it 6.30 for meet.

She won't come, i've switched my phone off and I told her I would.

She won't come, so I need a plan B.

The text was about alot of things and was 780 characters

Basically telling her, if she can find a nice more handsome man, I would be amazed and asking her not to push me away, and if she is sorry, come tonight and prove it.

I'm fed up of going along with the world, it's about time I was more assertive.

'S' would be lucky to have me in her life, that's for sure.

Miroslav

blinky wrote:

Unfortunately no. She has a brother but he's already married 'R' is not available on a time-share basis either - she's mine.:p

Mother, auntie, grandmother

Right now, a bit of loving from a lady is all I need, i'm not entirely fussy

Miroslav

CCStar wrote:

Sorry but I am at the end of my tether

I can't stop crying today

You see all the lovely Christmas stuff and it makes you feel all loving. You may think, lucky me, I have a family to share it with - bulls**t!!

My husband says he cares etc but backs off sexually (emotionally). It has only been since we have been married. I married for it all. I don't want to look for someone else to make up for his faults.

My self esteem is at rock bottom when he does this, life is a pile of poo, then his nonsense at the end of the day. There is no pleasure. I have been able to endure it but I can't take any more.

I am supposed to be getting ready to go out shopping and be happy. How can I be happy with him?, the way he hurts me with his come here, go away behaviour. I don't want him seeing me like this. I used to let him see my like this, then he would be all loving but only once I reach rock bottom, never when I feel good or OK. I can't go on like this any more. It is sick and it's driving me mental. I used to think it was my fault but I have done everything I can and he still does this.

I spoke to my mother and she isn't taking me seriously, she has a 'yes dear' attitude and I will be lonely if I leave. What have I got to lose, I hate this house and feel worse than lonely now. I have the downside of being with people annoying me and none of the pleasures. I might as well be alone and enjoy the peace.

I want to end it all one way or another.

Sorry to hear you are feeling low.

I don't know what to say really, but hang in there and keep posting. Your OH doesn't deserve you