depression

gillette147

Miroslav wrote:

Thanks blinky, i'm cacking myself

I know it's lotto day, but this is one lotto that I could do without Which one of the 49 personalities will turn up today, and will I be lucky enough to get a bonus

Best of luck mate.
Us tall ones need to stick together - it's the little people that cause all the trouble.

EthelBloggs

Nice to see you Gillette.. (I'm a secret fan of urs) lol

I'm sorry you're having such a crappy time at the moment.. seems like you're in a life changing time just now. Have you seen your doctor about some antidepressants? I know it feels like a drastic thing to do but it usually really helps.. it doesn't mask anything or zonk you out, just gives you the ability to think a bit more clearly about things and help you stay out of the doldrums.

Have you thought about what kind of retraining you'd like to do? See it as a positive step.. the opportunity to change direction to do what you want to do, rather than what you have to do.

Relationships are always tricky.. a few of us here have issues with those too.. and sometimes wise decisions do hurt.. I don't know the circumstances but I'm sure you have thought eveyrthing thru thoroughly before takng any action.

YOu are allowed to be happy.. no matter how messy or complicated your life seems.. we're all in a similar boat to you and we're here if you want to have a rant or just a hug

I hope your back is not a long term thing and that it will be better soon, pain can make you feel rotten, emotionally as well because it's so draining on everything.

*huggs*

gillette147

CCStar wrote:

Hi

Didn't sleep last night till 8am. Feel a bit odd now

I want to avoid my husband and no I don't know anyone I can stay with. My mother is horrible to live with. I don't have any friends.

I am going to have to pretend to like them till I can go. It is going to be difficult. I am so glad I have the support I have on here.

Big hugs to all who need them and thank you to everyone who have sent theirs.

Ethel - He could well be depressed but he needs to admit it to himself and take action.

I have to get to Christmas, then new year, then as long as it takes to sell the place and move out. I foresee it being around April before there is any action, if I am lucky:eek:

I hope your shower gets fixed today, it is a bonus if he is hunky too:D

Miro - I often write down my different personalities. Helps me get to know my alter egos.

Miro and Blinky - you are both the loveliest guys I have encountered in recent times. Carry on being your lovely selves, your g/fs are very lucky!

FG - hope you have a good day. Well done for making it to day 5. Hope you are investing your savings wisely like a good MSer!

I don't know your full story so all I can do is wish you all the best.

EDIT:
I've just read back abit and want to add several (((HUGS))) for you.
I find if you think about it and still feel you are in the right then you usually are - it the people that don't think that are usually in the wrong. Don't let them grind you down.
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It's sad how many people are stuck in the wrong relationship or no relationship at all. Love is so important to us.

Are you in scotland or down south now?

A year ago my life was mapped out. I was engaged and had a steady job. But my relationship was crumbling and I didn't like my job. Now I'm out of both and am just as miserable but for different reasons.

Does happiness even exist? Or is it a story made up by hollywood?

gillette147

EthelBloggs wrote:

Nice to see you Gillette.. (I'm a secret fan of urs) lol

I'm sorry you're having such a crappy time at the moment.. seems like you're in a life changing time just now. Have you seen your doctor about some antidepressants? I know it feels like a drastic thing to do but it usually really helps.. it doesn't mask anything or zonk you out, just gives you the ability to think a bit more clearly about things and help you stay out of the doldrums.

Have you thought about what kind of retraining you'd like to do? See it as a positive step.. the opportunity to change direction to do what you want to do, rather than what you have to do.

Relationships are always tricky.. a few of us here have issues with those too.. and sometimes wise decisions do hurt.. I don't know the circumstances but I'm sure you have thought eveyrthing thru thoroughly before takng any action.

YOu are allowed to be happy.. no matter how messy or complicated your life seems.. we're all in a similar boat to you and we're here if you want to have a rant or just a hug

I hope your back is not a long term thing and that it will be better soon, pain can make you feel rotten, emotionally as well because it's so draining on everything.

*huggs*

Hello, pleased to meet you.
Secret eh? All my fans are secret or non-existant. Even mse depresses me. It feels like a big club with me on the sidelines. Everybody's PMing everybody else and I sit in the wings with an empty mailbox. I don't belong anywhere on here. I've hardly posted for a week and keep thinking I'll give it up.

I can fake thinking about retraining as a good exciting thing for about 36hrs then like a fake smile I have to let it drop and feel how I truely feel - scared and depressed. I was depressed before I lost my job and give a depressive something real to be depressed about and watch it fly.

I'm probably going to talk to the doctor soon. But I don't want to tbh.

Thanks for the hugs xx

EthelBloggs

you've probably got more fans than you think and ack.. ur not the only one with an empty box

I dont think any of us belong on here.. but we seem to muddle on ok in this thread so you're welcome to join us and be a misfit too

I know what you mean about the retraining thing.. but you know.. try not to panic about money (easy to say I know) and think about what you would really like and what would suit you and go from there.

Seeing the doctor is probly a good idea and it wont be half as bad as you're expecting... promise

One thing I have noticed (no offence to all the lovely people here) but if I spend a lot of time online then it does seem to make me feel worse somehow. I'm sure I read somewhere about high internet usage being linked to depression in some way.

Someone else will be along with more practical help soon..

and you're welcome to as many hugs as you want )

Sazbo

gillette147 wrote:

Best of luck mate.
Us tall ones need to stick together - it's the little people that cause all the trouble.

gillette I heard that! good things in small packages and all that...

gillette147

I've come on here less than I did when at work. Mostly because I have nothing to say. I'm not happy enough to be bothered to see anything in the world.

I used to look forward to my art class but tonite is the last one and I'm glad. I have cut all other activities out. I feel like I want to get on a train to somewhere nice - but I'd be there alone and it wouldn't help.

I've also withdrawn from mse because I know I should be focussing on more important things - but then I don't do any of those things either.

But I may be wrong because I'm not talking on here and I now obviously don't talk to workmates etc so I'm becoming a recluse. I'm just a few shaves away from a tramp.

I'm 41 and I don't know how to apply for any other work. I don't know how people manage on the kind of money they seem to offer for unskilled jobs and no-one wants my skills.

I just feel like this is where my life starts to spiral downwards (well started about a year ago).

gillette147

Sazbo wrote:

gillette I heard that! good things in small packages and all that...

I meant little men (and I'm also generalising).
......look I was trying to cheer up Miro lol.

Sazbo

gillette147 wrote:

Hello you wonderful people.

I know I haven't been around for a while to give support and I'm sorry. It's partly because i'm too messed up to be of use and partly because I know someone who posts here and have ben trying to not intrude on them.

But I am down, down, down.
I lost my job two weeks ago - no jobs in what I know anywhere - entering the maze of benefits. Feel I need to retrain but don't know what to do.

I've had back trouble for over a month (parting gift from my employers lol). I'm under a physio - i have to do exercises 3 times a day and go for a 2 mile walk. Hate it and feel like it dominates my day.

I'm hurting someone I care about (or maybe not - I don't know for sure)because it is the right thing to do and I feel terrible because of it.

I don't feel I can allow myself to be happy because my life is such a mess. I have no real friends and I feel isolated and futureless. I'm discarding my hobbies due to my back and money concerns. Just want to go to bed forever.

Gillette, good to hear from you hun, actually I was wondering how you were, I read that you'd lost your job, and hadn't seen you posting much, so was a little concerned. Totally empathise re back trouble - I have it myself and yes it totally takes over. Sorry everything's hurting and wish I could make it better for you. Keep talking here, that's all I can say, it's all we here can do for each other. Much love, Saz x

Miroslav

It's all over. She couldn't handle what I said and told me to leave her alone