depression

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

I've been trying to do things to take my mind away from 'S', and tonight, my existence in this 'show' is all to do with her

Started looking at myself as ugly and useless again, just because I don't have her by my side.

Relationships more trouble than they are worth?

Amazing how 1 person can affect everything.

Low self-esteem is a big factor Miro, in terms of how you view yourself, y'know? And as for relationships being more trouble than their worth....................... :think: :silenced: :question:

Sx

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Low self-esteem is a big factor Miro, in terms of how you view yourself, y'know? And as for relationships being more trouble than their worth....................... :think: :silenced: :question:

Sx

I do have low self esteem, but lately......I dunno, 5 women in a month have made nice comments about me and i'm kinda :dance: and i've had feelings I thought were dead, come to life.

I'm not great, and I don't look for greatness, I mean 'S' is so model, but then I wouldn't want that, perfection would bore me, unless it was Britney, who has smelly feet apparently anyway

I dunno, I just wanna be happy, with someone who wants me.

I know 'S' is going to be hard work, even if we started 'dating', but then we all need to take the odd chance in life.

Have a good evening, i'm off now, take care :wave:

Miroslav

Oh, I have another 15 mins Nice...........

Well, i'll likely get a negative text from 'S' tonight. I did last week when recording, which totally threw me Made me moody for the rest of the night.......i'm a moody performer.

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Oh, I have another 15 mins Nice...........

Well, i'll likely get a negative text from 'S' tonight. I did last week when recording, which totally threw me Made me moody for the rest of the night.......i'm a moody performer.

I guess you could leave phone off till you're done tonight, but then again many of the world's greatest creative artists were moody, so you're in illustrious company at least

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I guess you could leave phone off till you're done tonight, but then again many of the world's greatest creative artists were moody, so you're in illustrious company at least

I'll leave it off all night. Last week I turned it off, and then after recording, I turned it on and Eurgh! She only said "I'll come and see you wherever I go" which done me, as I wanted it to be "I'm staying!!!"

Moody Miro, my new stage name.

Right, off now, 'S' is doing my head in, must stop talking about her, it's bad enough she's in my head, I don't need it tonight........if only I had written about Britney instead
:wave:

EthelBloggs

Hi honeys I'm hoooooooooooooooooome!!!!!

I think the presentation went ok.. no feedback yet but we did get applause at the end so maybe it was ok

fekkin bus strike meant I had to walk bloody miles and I twisted me foot and had to keep going so it's killing now.. swollen up like a mofo too :mad: and I'm soo sleepy.. i could crash now, lol

I'm sat right beside the radiator which I never turn on but i have tonight and i've got loads of woolies on and im shivering with the cold.. werid huh cos i know it's not that cold really

Well done on the forms fg.. no small task filling those !!!!!!s in, I've seen em, lol

Good luck Miro.. I hope you;ll let us hear your song

evenin saz, cc, blinky, tiff, rose, anyone who's here or not here or lurking, I can't move much only to hobble around so I guess you lot will have the dubious pleasure of my company a fair bit this evening, lol

Sazbo

EthelBloggs wrote:

Hi honeys I'm hoooooooooooooooooome!!!!!

I think the presentation went ok.. no feedback yet but we did get applause at the end so maybe it was ok

fekkin bus strike meant I had to walk bloody miles and I twisted me foot and had to keep going so it's killing now.. swollen up like a mofo too :mad: and I'm soo sleepy.. i could crash now, lol

I'm sat right beside the radiator which I never turn on but i have tonight and i've got loads of woolies on and im shivering with the cold.. werid huh cos i know it's not that cold really

Well done on the forms fg.. no small task filling those !!!!!!s in, I've seen em, lol

Good luck Miro.. I hope you;ll let us hear your song

evenin saz, cc, blinky, tiff, rose, anyone who's here or not here or lurking, I can't move much only to hobble around so I guess you lot will have the dubious pleasure of my company a fair bit this evening, lol

Ethel hun, I've just got in, what happened? You twisted you ankle? Are you ok? Do you think you should get it check out hun? Maybe the shivering is shock? You poor thing xxx Yeah I know - public transport was a nightmare this morning - took me forever to get in on the tube this morning. Every bloomin' day it's some problem or other - drives me nuts :mad: You feeling ok hun? Sxxx

EDIT - have got some ice on your foot?

can_it_be_different

Hi all,

I posted a while back now about my issues and just thought I would check in again as life has not approved much and I was looking for more advise on my generally down feeling. I maybe did not make it clear in last posts but I live in a really remote area and it is not easy for example to drive to the next town to socialise and join groups - I live on an island in the Western Isles. For those who don't remember basically I was bullied all through school and have severe confidence issues - I am not the best in social situations. I am now in my mid-20s with good qualifications and a decent job with a caring family. Yet I am always feeling down and sad. I have no real friends I can turn to - although I do have a few but they do not live near me and I have met them through the internet. I do not want to be alone as I am and do not want to turn into a hermit/recluse. I was basically thinking of moving to have a new start.

Since my last post I have actually kind of tested living in a lager city - well not really tested but stayed for a good few days. The thing is it is no worse or no better than it was at home. Without sounding harsh I did not greatly miss my family (although I know I was not away that long) - to be honest I am not too close (but really love them if that makes sense) to them anyway but really they are the only people I have got. I have not really confided in them about my issues. I have always put up a barrier and do not talk things through. And I am not sure I can overcome this.

I think I was kind of confused in last posts in that I was looking for that one special companion. I know that was wrong as more than anything I need friendship more than anything more serious although would not mind the latter.

I did start this post with the aim of looking for advice but do not know what advice I am actually after

I guess I am looking for some advice from anyone who has decided to just go for a new start and how they found it. My worry is that I will not make friends or go out, and just be sad, lonely and depressed (sorry I do not know if what I am going through counts as depression or not) but just in a bigger city. On various short trips I make away each year I do enjoy making contact with people and then going out to meet them - it is not like that I am a recluse and happy in my own company - which generally I am not. Although when I do this and actually leave I am often very depressed and down when I know that I won't have opportunities to meet them again.

I think it boils down to the fact that I am much more comfortable making contact with someone through the internet. As I say there is no real opportunity to meet friends where I am - other than the people I do not want to get involved with.

I am really sorry this has turned into an essay and I am really appreciative of anyone who has taken the time to read. I just do not know where else to turn. If anyone knows of any other websites or forums more suited to my problem please let me know.

I know everyone here has there own issues and the last thing you want is me concerning you with my little problem. At present I do not feel I can offer any meaningful advice to those that post here but I read all the posts and would like to offer my input in the future but my thoughts are with you.

CIBD

feelinggood_2

Hey CIBD
I'm havinga bit of a hard day, so I might not be as helpful as I'd like.
If you are still having the same isolation problems where you are, maybe you do need to look at moving? I know it will be very, very scary.
I'm in the process of sorting myself out to move on - and I'm petrified. I'll be starting over with nothing, and with nobody. But, sometimes we need to do this.
Don't worry about not offering any advice or anything - sometimes all I can do is send out hugs.
A few days is different to a long term thing - you don't have much chance to see the same people regularly like you do if you are somewhere. If you did go to a city to live, you could take up lots of classes and clubs, get involved in town hall stuff and stuff like that.
Hope some of what I've said makes sense
I can really sympathise with you feeling isolated - I actually have no friends. And it isn't very nice, and it does get lonely.
Take care

EthelBloggs

can_it_be_different wrote:

Hi all,

I posted a while back now about my issues and just thought I would check in again as life has not approved much and I was looking for more advise on my generally down feeling. I maybe did not make it clear in last posts but I live in a really remote area and it is not easy for example to drive to the next town to socialise and join groups - I live on an island in the Western Isles. For those who don't remember basically I was bullied all through school and have severe confidence issues - I am not the best in social situations. I am now in my mid-20s with good qualifications and a decent job with a caring family. Yet I am always feeling down and sad. I have no real friends I can turn to - although I do have a few but they do not live near me and I have met them through the internet. I do not want to be alone as I am and do not want to turn into a hermit/recluse. I was basically thinking of moving to have a new start.

Since my last post I have actually kind of tested living in a lager city - well not really tested but stayed for a good few days. The thing is it is no worse or no better than it was at home. Without sounding harsh I did not greatly miss my family (although I know I was not away that long) - to be honest I am not too close (but really love them if that makes sense) to them anyway but really they are the only people I have got. I have not really confided in them about my issues. I have always put up a barrier and do not talk things through. And I am not sure I can overcome this.

I think I was kind of confused in last posts in that I was looking for that one special companion. I know that was wrong as more than anything I need friendship more than anything more serious although would not mind the latter.

I did start this post with the aim of looking for advice but do not know what advice I am actually after

I guess I am looking for some advice from anyone who has decided to just go for a new start and how they found it. My worry is that I will not make friends or go out, and just be sad, lonely and depressed (sorry I do not know if what I am going through counts as depression or not) but just in a bigger city. On various short trips I make away each year I do enjoy making contact with people and then going out to meet them - it is not like that I am a recluse and happy in my own company - which generally I am not. Although when I do this and actually leave I am often very depressed and down when I know that I won't have opportunities to meet them again.

I think it boils down to the fact that I am much more comfortable making contact with someone through the internet. As I say there is no real opportunity to meet friends where I am - other than the people I do not want to get involved with.

I am really sorry this has turned into an essay and I am really appreciative of anyone who has taken the time to read. I just do not know where else to turn. If anyone knows of any other websites or forums more suited to my problem please let me know.

I know everyone here has there own issues and the last thing you want is me concerning you with my little problem. At present I do not feel I can offer any meaningful advice to those that post here but I read all the posts and would like to offer my input in the future but my thoughts are with you.

CIBD

Not really sure what to suggest for you but wanted to let you know that I read it and I can empathise with how you're feeling *huggs*