depression

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

glad you a little happy,

thanks its a bit of a biggy tomorrow, and i dont even want tomorrow to come

sleep well xxx

The sooner tomorrow comes, the sooner it will be over.

I have another on Wednesday, the day my g/f who passed away and I agreed to get married, not gonna be a good one

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Well my sweethearts, I've gotta crash - it's way past my bedtime. Sweet dreams everyone. All my love, Sazza xxx zzzzzzzzzz

I'm going very soon too, will take me ages to get to sleep

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

I'm going very soon too, will take me ages to get to sleep

-too much excitement Good night Mr Miro babe xxx

Tiff_2

judi24 wrote:

Hi all. I haven't posted on this thread for along time and I don't want to hijack anyone's story but I really needed to express how I am feeling. There's no one at home that would understsnd.
Hi Judi -come on in!

I am feeling very down at the moment. I have had episodes of depression throughout my life but they are usually fairly managebale, but rigt now I feel so low I feel i could go to bed and never get up again.
Let's see what's going on here hun. Don't worry - there is an answer for everything, you just have to break it al down angel.

I am married with 4 children aged 15,13,4 & 2. I have been studying for a masters degree over the last year. But that is finished now. I have just left my current job and start a new job using my new skills on monday, with more money. So all should be rosey. So why is my mood so black?
Congratulations on your Masters Judi :T Wow, it looks like you are over-achieving at everything hun. Not only have you have got the terrible toddlers but the terrifying teenagers too and OH!:T At the same time you were working and doind a masters - this is evidence of how strong you are Judi. With this new job, everything can seem daunting - maybe you've got a bit of stage-fright angel.

I cry at everything. I don't want to be around anyone - even the kids. I'm fat but can't stop eating and sooo tired.
I have got to get things together and fast!
My new job is a 80 mile round trip and the new salary comes with new responsibility. They will expect me to be this clever smart person that I am not.
Judi, you are that person or you wouldn't haven gotten the job hun. You're seeing more stress ahead on top of what you have. Do you get any help from the older children Judi? What about OH? Can he help? You need some just judi time angel, some relaxation.

I am also going to have to be very organised at home so that everyone eats well and has clean clothes, clean house etc. and Iam also going to have to make sure everyone gets enough attention including my OH ... But I just can't be bothered. Sorry for the moan. I know I have got lots to be thankful for but why do I feel so bad?

Don't apologise angel.;) I think that for now what you should do is to remove the words, have to, must, got to, from your vocabulary. That takes some pressure off judi. Also, so what if you don't tidy up for a day or two hun? Bless you, the world won't stop turning angel. You sound worried for everyone else but who's looking after you? You need a break after all your hard work & there's bound to be ways the older children can help. Hope this helps angel - good luck with the job too!

Best wishes,
Tiff x

Miroslav

Eurgh, i'm awake. My voice is going, I feel like i've run a marathon and got all sorts of things going on in my head, mostly nice things.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww, 'S' is so lovely, especially when she puts her issues to one side.

When she freaked out, I was really worried, I just wanna hold her all the time.........she means no harm to anyone, I just get upset when she pushes me away.

Her face last night when she was on the rides, when we bought her some food, when we paid for her to have a go on the stalls, when I gave her some money for the machines in the arcade etc etc.........that's what it's all about.........making her happy and feeling comfortable.

I know it's gonna take a while, but she did text me to say she cared about me.........I want that 'S' all the time........it's gonna be hard, but I don't wanna give up, especially after last night, when she was the most vulnerable i've seen her.

Flatmate is really worried about her, as she's showing signs of breaking down again We'll be there for her though

How is everyone else today? I'll try and catch up later

Hope FG is having a nice time with 'H' (from steps)

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Eurgh, i'm awake. My voice is going, I feel like i've run a marathon and got all sorts of things going on in my head, mostly nice things.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww, 'S' is so lovely, especially when she puts her issues to one side.

When she freaked out, I was really worried, I just wanna hold her all the time.........she means no harm to anyone, I just get upset when she pushes me away.

Her face last night when she was on the rides, when we bought her some food, when we paid for her to have a go on the stalls, when I gave her some money for the machines in the arcade etc etc.........that's what it's all about.........making her happy and feeling comfortable.

I know it's gonna take a while, but she did text me to say she cared about me.........I want that 'S' all the time........it's gonna be hard, but I don't wanna give up, especially after last night, when she was the most vulnerable i've seen her.

Flatmate is really worried about her, as she's showing signs of breaking down again We'll be there for her though

How is everyone else today? I'll try and catch up later

Hope FG is having a nice time with 'H' (from steps)

Morning Miro hun. Morning everyone x Feeling a bit groggy at the moment - bit too much vino last night I guess you probaby have run a marathon in manys ways; an emotional marathon. Have good day hun x

feelinggood_2

Quick hello from me - I'm off out at 4pm
Hope all is good, Rose, you feeling better today?
Will talk to you all properly tomorrow
Much love x

rose07

hi everyone feelinggood, saz, tiff, miro, ccstar, flis... everyone

soz but i have no words today mum doing head in, its monday tomorrow and i really dont want to go to work. , and thats the least of my worries, still got that great big rock on me shoulders saz xxx

i feel awful
dunno if i should post or not
just wanna curl up

love you all xxx

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Morning Miro hun. Morning everyone x Feeling a bit groggy at the moment - bit too much vino last night I guess you probaby have run a marathon in manys ways; an emotional marathon. Have good day hun x

:wave:

Ahhhhhhhh, no sympathy for too much vino, but all my sympathy for everything else

Emotional marathon, which has only just begun!!!

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Quick hello from me - I'm off out at 4pm
Hope all is good, Rose, you feeling better today?
Will talk to you all properly tomorrow
Much love x

Best wishes for today!