depression

Miroslav

rose07 wrote:

hi everyone, feelinggood, tiff, miro, saz, flis, ccstar, everyone

im feeling awful at the moment. i had a bad day at work
I had an embaressing time at lunch

And it took me 4 hours to do something i coulda done in 30mins :mad:

So angry and frustrated, im tense and stressed, and well ya know just fed up and carp, feeling like im useless and stupid.

Just wanna say, miro, its glad to hear from you, and good to know you went to the samaritains, they made some sense?

and tiff thanks for the kind words, you seem to understand me which is good that someone does. x

and saz, hope you keeping well hun? i was on here briefly today bout well in the morning, coz i was feeling soo carp, but couldnt find the strength to post, and i am not meant to be on the internet anyway when at work :mad:
But i seen you were on and it cheered me up, so amazing its the small things for me that matter.

anyway going to go and eat some skittles.

soz i aint managed to catch up on things yet tonight, am sooo nackered, and upset etc....

will try and be back on later as i need a hug xxx

Rose :wave:

Sorry to hear you are low, but you are never stupid or useless, you have given so much to people on here, including me, and we all appreciate your kind words. You are a lovely person who deserves alot of happiness, and someone like you can't fail to find that one day soon!

The Samaritans did make sense, thanks.

HUGE (((HUG))) FOR ROSE

Miroslav

feelinggood wrote:

Only a quick reply sorry, but I think you should be honest - thats what you both agreed, and its what you should try x

I will, I just don't want to frighten her away.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

I'll be back later, but in essence I think my gut feeling is to... agree with Feeling Maybe if she's ill you might not want to give the whole explanation tomorrow, but in general it probably is important to be honest, otherwise things could unravel further down the road if there hasn't been clarity early on. Sorry it's brief but I will back later this evening. x

Hi rose hunnie big hugs to you, spk ltr xxx

Thanks, I do understand the importance of honesty, I just need ot be careful, like you say.

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

Good to hear from you Miro x. I have to leave work shortly so I don't have time for as full a reply as I would like right now. But do want to say that you sound like a different person after your chat with the Samaritans - I'm so glad you did that. It's entirely understandable that you wanted to do everything you could to show 'S' that your intentions were honourable. But obviously it will take a long time for her to fully appreciate what that means, because for so long she didn't know any different. By the same token, even though she might tell you she will be honest, right now it might be more to do with the fact that she wants to say things that she thinks you approve of, rather than deep-down understanding what it means to say you'll be honest with someone. Am I making any sense at all?
But also I think you're approaching tomorrow in a sensible way - and I mean for yourself as much as for 'S'.

I need to skidaddle now, but I'll try and catch up with you again this evening if you're around. Take care hun, Sx

Right a proper reply.....

I feel a bit lighter, I have to admit.

It will take a long time for her to accept my ways, but i'll always be me. I also appreciate she may not be fully honest with me. She said Britney was good before she knew me, now she thinks Britney is fantastic, only 2nd to Shakira, who she does genuinely like (and I do too!) I think she wants to please me. She was definitely coming on to me last Thursday, so I hope she still likes me.

You make perfect sense, as always.

Hope you are well?

Miroslav

Just heard something else about 'S'

Some of her neighbours are going around spreading nasty rumours about her

:wall: :mad: Why can she not be left alone? She's so bleeding lovely, she doesn't deserve all this, I'm so angry :mad: :wall:

Miroslav

Just text 'S' to tell her, I won't be offended if she doesn't come out tomorrow, as I want her to get better.

I'd like to see her, but want to see her when she is well.

Don't want her thinking she has to come out, so as not to offend me.

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Just text 'S' to tell her, I won't be offended if she doesn't come out tomorrow, as I want her to get better.

I'd like to see her, but want to see her when she is well.

Don't want her thinking she has to come out, so as not to offend me.

That was a nice thing to do; takes the pressure off her.

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

HUGE (((HUG))) FOR ROSE

I second that!

Miroslav

Sazbo wrote:

That was a nice thing to do; takes the pressure off her.

If she doesn't see me tomorrow, gonna buy her a get well soon card, and stick it under her door, as her main post is outside in a box, so don't want anyone stealing it! I'm going to write my explanation to her and stick it in the card. Flatmate says that is a nice gesture.

The card will be from us both.

Of course, still a 1% chance she may come out.

rose07

Miroslav wrote:

Rose :wave:

Sorry to hear you are low, but you are never stupid or useless, you have given so much to people on here, including me, and we all appreciate your kind words. You are a lovely person who deserves alot of happiness, and someone like you can't fail to find that one day soon!

The Samaritans did make sense, thanks.

HUGE (((HUG))) FOR ROSE

Thanks hun, i appreciate it, just bit fed up, my parents arguing across me and im sick of it. But counting to 3 and realisin they are family.

and work stressful, there are times when i do nothing, and times when i am soo busy my mind gets blocked.

Been doing alot of thinking and im all emotional, mum winding me up, and i am being wound up. feel like im a kid again not the age i am.!!!!

just a bit empty and lost, i got a great job for the mo, and im doing ok in meself, but think i have just hit a rock again, im sure i will be fine, just before when i posted i felt awful, but just wanted to say im still here and im ok. wouldnt want you all worrying.

and miroslav, im glad the samaritains helped you, and im glad you realise you need to make yourself the priority do this and you will be stronger which in turn will help you to help s, as you will be stronger and able to deal with things better take care
xxx