depression

Miroslav

Well I'm off, until after my visit to the home of 'S' tomorrow........did I say I was going to her flat? Or did I just say I was seeing her? Anyway, i'm going to her place............just the two of us

I'm confused as to what I want, and i'm likely to be mis-reading the signs, mistaking some friendliness for more I wouldn't know if a girl liked me anyway, i'm so out of the market place these days.

I kinda want her to make a move, but kinda not, bleurgh!!!!!

I know I wasn't mis-reading the very low cut top my flatmate says is her 'dress to impress top', I know I didn't miss the 'I love you' comment, and I know she wanted to tell me something after she said I was good looking "in fact, I.........no I can't say that" I also didn't imagine, the kiss, the hugs or the touchy feely stuff.

Don't panic folks, I am a gentleman, never made a move on a woman, and likely never will, so won't ruin it..........unless I respond to any advance from her. I truly care for her, and truly have only good intentions. She's been through too much to be hurt again, and I don't intend on doing that.

I want to prove I care about her, but have to admit, someone maybe liking me, has got feelings I had forgotten existed, come back to life. I realise I slowly have to move on. I've lost alot, but I want to find so much more and be happy again and not be who i've been for the last 15 years.

Wish me luck, I'm excited, scared and hoping for a good day.

I'm off to have a shower/bath etc, find as much nice things to put on me as possible, then do it again in the morning..........she seemed to like it on Thursday.

:wave: *cacks oneself*

Sazbo

Miroslav wrote:

Well I'm off, until after my visit to the home of 'S' tomorrow........did I say I was going to her flat? Or did I just say I was seeing her? Anyway, i'm going to her place............just the two of us

I'm confused as to what I want, and i'm likely to be mis-reading the signs, mistaking some friendliness for more I wouldn't know if a girl liked me anyway, i'm so out of the market place these days.

I kinda want her to make a move, but kinda not, bleurgh!!!!!

I know I wasn't mis-reading the very low cut top my flatmate says is her 'dress to impress top', I know I didn't miss the 'I love you' comment, and I know she wanted to tell me something after she said I was good looking "in fact, I.........no I can't say that" I also didn't imagine, the kiss, the hugs or the touchy feely stuff.

Don't panic folks, I am a gentleman, never made a move on a woman, and likely never will, so won't ruin it..........unless I respond to any advance from her. I truly care for her, and truly have only good intentions. She's been through too much to be hurt again, and I don't intend on doing that.

I want to prove I care about her, but have to admit, someone maybe liking me, has got feelings I had forgotten existed, come back to life. I realise I slowly have to move on. I've lost alot, but I want to find so much more and be happy again and not be who i've been for the last 15 years.

Wish me luck, I'm excited, scared and hoping for a good day.

I'm off to have a shower/bath etc, find as much nice things to put on me as possible, then do it again in the morning..........she seemed to like it on Thursday.

:wave: *cacks oneself*

Aww have a good day tomorrow hun, just take the day as you find it and have fun. We'll all be thinking of you. Let us know how it goes. Sx

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

- I will do, definitely. Sounds like it's been a largely positive week for you this week though, hun, and I'm glad about that. xx

yeah it been an ok week, just a very intense time at the councellor.
i think work has kept me busy and my boss and manager even tho they alot older they got a good sense of humour and im the baby of them all so they treat me nicely.

you ok apart from your cold?

xxx

rose07

Miroslav wrote:

It's been great since Thursday, I mean, WOW, an amazing time, 'S' is amazing.

Counselling was okay, was really just an assessment.

Wouldn't say flatmate was close, but they are good friends. They never say anything about me that they don't tell me.

Scared about tomorrow, but very excited.

Hope you are well, been wondering where you have been!

im soo glad you doing ok and that you and s are getting on great

oh yeah i had my assessment back in july, was a bit weird one, lol.

oh it is good that you are all open with each other at least then you dont need to feel left out of things.

good luck for tomorrow

thanks i been wondering where me have been too, lol :rotfl:

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

yeah it been an ok week, just a very intense time at the councellor.
i think work has kept me busy and my boss and manager even tho they alot older they got a good sense of humour and im the baby of them all so they treat me nicely.

you ok apart from your cold?

xxx

Yeah not too bad thanks, all in all. Weekend always puts me in a better mood x

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Yeah not too bad thanks, all in all. Weekend always puts me in a better mood x

glad u alright x

yeah me too, its hard going through the week at work, as the days seem long, and my weekend flies by. :rotfl:
but it nice to be here tonight instead of out getting drunk, i was asked out but too darn tierd, lol. :rotfl:

Sazbo

rose07 wrote:

but it nice to be here tonight instead of out getting drunk, i was asked out but too darn tierd, lol. :rotfl:

Ah well, just kick back and relax :cool: Do ya the world of good x Sounds like you're doing ok at work though, sounds like you're indispensible there already! (Not that I'm surprised by that o'course )

rose07

oh just wanna say.........
Hi to Mrs A, flis, Saz, Jina, Razorblade, gillette, slayerx, miro, tiff, feelinggood, ccstar, betty. and anyone else!!!!

betty, how are you huni? we havent heard from you in a while so hope you are ok. ? let us know. xxx

Mrs A, how are things going for you? are you ready for work yet? x

razorblade, gillette, slayerx, where you all got to eh??
hope you all ok and keeping safe
xxxx

one final thought.....

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ’99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
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understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked….You’re not as fat as you
imagine. Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing everyday that scares you Sing Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with
people who are reckless with yours. Floss Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind…the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with
yourself. Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements. Stretch Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your
life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe
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use it every way you can…don’t be afraid of it, or what other people
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people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
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maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
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look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it’s worth. But trust me on the sunscreen…

remember be yourself, be honest open and free, and may your dreams come true

we are all survivors here and a great community

xxx

Tiff_2

Miroslav wrote:

Going out? :eek:

I'm trying to relax She is great though, i'm just really excited as I don't meet people as nice as her. I just can't believe she thinks I'm a looker :rotfl:

Baby steps it is........I'm sure we won't even get involved, let alone you need a hat by May 2007, but she did tell me, that by the age of 35, she wanted to be married with at least 2 kids :eek:

Hi Miro
Not a good sign if she's 33 already!:eek: :rotfl: Just kidding hun.
If things get too heavy, pop down to the local vets with a dog, call it by your name, get it neutered, get a certificate from the vet stating 'Miro' has been fixed, now sterile (and probably chipped and had his belly rubbed - THE DOG Miro!:D ) :rolleyes: - if that doesn't send her into a panic, you'll know she's not just after your reproductive system!:rotfl:
Much Love
Tiff x

rose07

Sazbo wrote:

Ah well, just kick back and relax :cool: Do ya the world of good x Sounds like you're doing ok at work though, sounds like you're indispensible there already! (Not that I'm surprised by that o'course )

thanks hun, yeah i do seem important here and there, they have new software and spent two hours trying to figure it out i got back from my appointment two clicks of a mouse and sorted the problem out. :rotfl:

there are slow times too tho.....:(

but it ok. xxxxxxx

so what you doing tomorrow, anyhing planned?