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Souk08

Yay to ace weekend lady XXX

little_h_2

thanks everyone!

choogirl I lived in Manchester for 5 years and went to uni up there briefly... love love love it! I got married in the Town Hall My granny lives near the airport and my uncle lives in Warrington. I have been to Liverpool once years ago when I was very young and once a couple of years back just as Liverpool One was being done - it holds very special memories for all sorts of reasons.

I am shattered but also wired so not sure if I will get to make the most of my 'early' night (in bed before 11)

I haven't shredded since Thursday, I have just been too busy. I was tidying up the house on Friday night and printing music for the weekend, then Saturday had haircut then off to London. Sunday I got back about 9pm, last night I wasn't home til gone 10 and tonight I have picked up the dog from my ex hubby and gone out to a Brownie planning meeting so again not got in until 10.

I have 2 work from home days coming up, hopefully I can maintain the productivity and interest level of the last couple of days!

I have another viewer on the house tomorrow morning so will take the pooch out for a walk while the agent does the showing round.

Tomorrow evening I am teaching and then Thursday it's Brownies! I was meant to be going to get my photos done on Sunday but this has now been postponed and I am very relieved, partly because I need a quiet weekend and partly because I could do with pushing the fuel cost into next month!

So I am hoping to get out on my bike on both weekend days. I also have to tackle the photos and cards from my first marriage which are waiting for me in the spare room.

My ex hubby gets married again at the end of Feb so I have decided that I must sort these out before then. I have agreed with ex that I will go through them, decide which ones I want and put them in 2 boxes, one for the ones I want to keep and one box for ones I am not fussed about. He will then go through both boxes and decide if he wants copies of any of mine, or if he wants any of the others. I will put the proper wedding ones away in a wardrobe along with cards and things like that.

I had my counselling session last night and we talked about my first marriage a bit, and touched on the photos. We didn't discuss at any great lengths, but the old subconscious must have worked on it in the night as the plan came to me today!

I have a few plans for what I might change in my house if I stay (minor redecorating and rearranging) and one of the main things to do will be to put up lots of fab photos - partly because my house lacks personal touches, and partly because I have a lot of wall space which has nasty woodchip/textured plaster and I can't afford to get them skimmed yet :rotfl: I have kept a few pictures from magazines of gorgeous photo displays on walls for inspiration, so maybe I will get to make use of these soon.

Right. Off to bed. The dog is home sweet home and I like knowing he is snoozing away downstairs while I am upstairs. Night ! x

little_h_2

well, a good day today. a bit bitty but can't complain at all.

I slept a little later than planned, but was still up by 7.30. took me a while to get going but had the deadline of a viewer at 10.30 so I knew I had a few bits to get done so the house was ready.

Then my dad popped round to collect his birthday card and present (I didn't get home before going out for his birthday curry on Sunday) so we had a natter. He liked what I had bought him so that's a result :money: I am a total daddy's girl, we are very close.

My mum is taking one of her dogs to be put to sleep tonight. This is very sad but not unexpected. She is another greyhound, younger than mine but has been hit very badly by arthritis and is in a lot of pain I said good bye on Sunday, we had lovely doggy cuddles and I didn't want to leave her. Mum is being very strong and brave, and I have told dad to go with her and take her for a big drink afterwards, or at least furnish her with some wine at home. But i know she will be very sad indeed.

My teaching is cancelled this evening, logistical/transport difficulties for my pupil. So i have a very unexpected uninterrupted evening at home! I have decided to postpone the shred for just one more evening, and I am going to have pizza for tea and also some wine. I am going to enjoy them and not feel guilty about them :T and as things become more settled, I feel the reason for tucking into them is differetn to what it has been before. Previously it has been a can't be bothered/miserable sense, but tonight it isn't that at all.

Last night before I went to sleep I started re-reading a feng shui book I bought ages ago. It has given me lots of fab ideas for how to revamp my house if I stay. I am leaning more and more toward this, although I know as soon as I started craving holidays, I will want to move again! For now I am keeping the pressure off myself (or trying at least!)

Tonight I will catch up on Big Fat Gypsy Wedding. I saw last week's but missed last night's as I was out doing Brownie stuff. I am not sure how i feel about it as I worked with a couple of traveller girls when I was a youth worker. I learnt lots about their culture and how life was for them while they lived as settled travellers. It's a fascinating programme (I watched the episodes last year too) and I feel it is quite balanced in lots of ways, but it has also attracted a lot of attention in a bit of a fairground point and laugh kind of way, which I think is unfair.

Right, I am off to the supermarket. Desperately shameful as I am hungry and need to buy wine. I am on a serious budget though, so will hopefully come back relatively unscathed! :eek:

choogirl

Ohh I am envious I would love to live in Manchester its a fantastic place. I always feel at home when I go there. The accents are fab and I always feel relaxed when I go there.

DH was looking at properties in Alderly Edge the other night £3.5 million - somehow I don't think so :rotfl:

little_h_2

mm Alderley Edge, ah so reasonably priced we could have a weekday AND a weekend home, NOT! :rotfl:

an ok day today. spent a lot of time in a dolly daydream, but got lots of stuff done too. sad to hear that there is a big shifting around going on at work, and feeling guilty for the dolly daydreaming time as a result.

FINALLY got round to some harping tonight, it was great :j finished the rest of the wine from last night and just enjoyed playing for the sake of it.

last night's blowout was enjoyable in some ways, but has mostly taught me some lessons.

A) I can still overspend in the supermarket. And what I buy is generally not food related, so when I think I am overspending on food, I am not. I am overspending on magazines and wine. :mad:

After the number of AF days recently, half a bottle of wine sees me snooker loopy :rotfl:

C) I do not enjoy the feeling of blotto-ness in the week any more. Nor the feeling of stuffedness after a big bowl of crisps, a small pizza express pizza (supermarket size) and a slice of mascarpone/lemon curd cheesecake (even if this was only 89p)

other lessons learnt today:

my ex still has chasing letters coming to my house. today's was from mckenzie hall (i know because I googled the senders address from teh back of the envelope) - i gather these are not nice people so I hope to !!!! that they leave me alone

my ex will not be changing his ways any time soon. he sent another text today designed to provoke a specific reaction/argument. not impressed.

I don;t want to move. I love my house.

Right, off to bed. Night all x

Shoe_Gal

Sounds like a manic week, hope you have a good weekend

Reading through your posts it really seems like you want to stay in your house, and my feeling is that you should do that for the time being, make a few cheap, personal changes to the decor and get some head space before making a major move

little_h_2

THanks ShoeGal, you are right I have been reading a very interesting book on Feng Shui recently and have lots of ideas as to how I could change things on the cheap

My agreement with the latest estate agent ends in a couple of weeks so think I will let that run and then stay as I am. This is something else where the dust has settled after the new year, and what is important is becoming clearer all the time. I feel strongly about the house, and feel confident that although I will be a bit/very skint for a couple of years, apart from a holiday, and possibly a new bike, there is nothing else that I am desperately yearning for that costs a lot of money.

So far in a month, I have learnt:

• the total joy of a gorgeous shower gel or lovely soap (I like nice smellies) - the beautiful big blocks of soap I bought at Christmas were £2.75 each and I am not even half way through the first one
  
• half a bottle of wine a night is too much, too expensive and not good long term
  
• drinking less wine means I have energy and inclination to do other things
  
• I enjoy doing fitness/exercise stuff as long as its on my terms!
  
• I have a wardrobe full of lovely clothes and with a couple of strategic purchases, I will be able to make much better use of what I have
  
• I love playing the harp and am excited about where this will take me this year
  
• I miss being out on my bike
  
• I love being with my dog
  
• My mission to increase my social life is starting to work and it's not going to be expensive
  

Even work has been good this week! I am surprised by the above list, as the current priorities/pleasures are maybe not what I thought they would be a few months ago. but I have had lots of time and space to think and relax about things (even though things are actually pretty busy).

I am taking my mum out to the cinema tomorrow afternoon to see Black Swan, and off to play at a wedding fair on Sunday (getting paid for this by an agent to hopefully get some bookings for her). I am popping for a quick drink with ex fiance on the way home from my mums. Hopefully he will behave and not create any dramas. If not I shall be straight back in the car!

Tonight I am going to knuckle down and do some Shred, and do some practice then have a look at some feng shui stuff - printed off the floorplan for my house from Rightmove and printed a compass off to work out what is where and what should be where

hope everyone has a fab weekend :j

beanielou

All looking very positive

mineallmine

hello hope all is well :A

Souk08

Hey, all very positive. Hope ex behaved! X