Buffy Cracks the Egg Diary 2010

Buffythedebtslayer

Aha Worked out why Mum is huffy, well huffy is a bit harsh tbh, but I forgot my sister is coming round - Mum would have wanted me out of the house - well again a harsh way of putting it- but it is just easier like that. guess I had better get a shift on. decided to take a change of clothes with me to work, its a pain but hey ho.

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

first day of holidays was mixed. Got up late, went to work, printed off some work, oh my days I have so much to do. Then had lunch with a friend who unintentionally stressed me out (work generally is just all too much tbh) was then ill (!) and had a tough time in 2ndjob. Finally cancelled evening drink with a good mate.

on the plus side I didn't spend much money, had an ok day eating wise

yoghurt- 2
bacon roll - 4
pizza - 12
toast - 2
egg - 2
beans - 3?

which is 1 point over my allowance i think.

might go file some work.

ooo dilemma - my friends are going to the cinema tomorrow night, but I was meant to visit another friend - new house. No one else is going to see the film it will be my only chance.

pants.

and I fancy Eddie Cahill. If I pay my debts off can I have him please?

xxx

LouiseJ

I thought your food was in quantities there for a minute Buffy

12 Pizzas and 3 beans:rotfl::rotfl:

ziggles50

LouiseJ wrote: »

I thought your food was in quantities there for a minute Buffy

12 Pizzas and 3 beans:rotfl::rotfl:

haha me too Louise!!!:rotfl:
Well done Buffy you definitely seem to be coming out of 'it' whatever it was.I am back from London hols and it was brilliant- low stress low fusss and quite a lot of fun. not too bad with money but as always the niggles remain about 'spending money that could be used to get debt free'
Anyhow have a great week whatever you decide to do

Pippajo

:hello:

Sorry not been here but things have been manic. You were sounding very positive and then BANG - sister and work - I still say you should go back to Drs.

I can't believe its 7 weeks until summer hols, I've got far too much to do before then, but might treat myself to a week off once its here!

Buffythedebtslayer

hello all,

Pippa I think you are correct, job and situation with sister are the key things that get me down. I am also worried that I am getting headaches more often. Got my normal monthly headache wed, thur,fri, slept for 12 hours friday night felt fine saturday, weekend away was good as I said but for some of the time I was very tired, felt weak - but have to say we were up late and drinking so you know!

However today I went to nursery (bought some lovely plants spent 43 pounds............) managed to get sunstroke. Felt awful came in threw up got headache that frankly reduced me to tears, the pain really did make me weep. slept for about 4 hours. feel better now had dinner etc. I guess it was sunstroke but God what a wimp. I really wanted to plant my plants.

Got work tomorrow and driving lesson Friday. today was my only day off so to speak. oh well. Whilst I am out and about tomorrow I will look for Feverfew tea. Must take vitamins too.

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

Just a quick note to say my debt £7876.86

THere are six months left of the year, paying off a 1000 each month (will make me feel ill but must remember I am flipping LUCKY to be able to do this) would leave me with roughly 1876 at the end of the year (last lot of sums done before the most recent payment)

I *could* in theory raise that?

Its so near and in my Buffy typical fashion I am so frightened of failure I won't even try? But I have done two days without chocolate. So perhaps I should start to think anything is possible...............

I don't know. SO disappointed with getting sunstroke, wanted to walk this afternoon, to keep up my ten thousand steps a day (I did it yesterday and will be able to do it tomorrow) only will have done 4000 today. I like my walks.

Plus the Guinea Pigs have hardly any food (well they have greens, carrots, cucumber - they won't starve)

should get an early night really get up early in the morning, like Lou does.

xxxx

Pippajo

Stop notting and go get checked out :mad: An afternoon in a nursery should not give you sunstroke with that serious effect.

I pledge to not stop nagging you

Maybe you shouldn't pressure yourself with the extra. You will have it cleared by the end of Feb anyway. Thats only 2 more paydays.

x

beanielou

Please go to the Doctors hun.
Either way in less than a year you will be debt free

Buffythedebtslayer

Have arranged to get code thing for the doctors to make an appointment - it is a ridiculous set up - you need to go to the docs to get the code, come home log on make an appointment, you can't make an appointment whilst you are at the surgery. So I have to walk all the way there for a piece of paper!

A couple of decisions made, I am going back to how I used to treat my sister, I feel bad about it but I have tried (And I think to be fair so has she) to do stuff and chat and be like normal sisters - ie civil conversation even a bit of a laugh, some shared interests, but we have no honesty no real connection and I am sick of trying, it stresses me out and upsets me enormously.

Previously ie years ago I made no effort to be here when they pop round, treating her more like my Mum's friend then my sister. It was much easier
For example today - I was going to sand the walls in the bathroom, Mum said - no don't do that you are holiday and have to work later etc leave it for today. so I did - realising now that my sister is visiting and they are going to do some stuff in the garden(I am definitely not invited!). To be honest I was stupid to let mum talk me out of it - I would have been in out and of the garden you see and I think Mum thinks it is better if we are kept seperate and so don't compete for who does the most for mum type thing. Sorry I know all this sounds utterly bonkers and childish. So if I go back to not being here that would be avoided? mostly I am at work and hope to out on the weekend studying or visiting friends. I have tried to solve the problem, my other sis and I have talked about it endlessly - is her bf abusive? is she depressed? what can we do to help? but since she is literally never out of his sight and they are always together I have never had the chance and we are not remotely close sadly. don't get me wrong if it turns out to be something like that I would be there in a shot but in all honesty about 70% just thinks she is selfish and self absorbed. The 30% can't hang on any longer.

The other decision I have made is to start being proactive. I am at work - always looking for the next thing to do/tackle and it works well, at home however I do defer to Mum a far amount - it is her house after all but it is getting me down. So come the summer break I will be a woman on a DIY mission no matter what she says!!

Ok, one of my fish has died so I need to go bury him/her.

I feel very sad about my sister but don't honestly think I can do anything else. I have tried for about 2 years now.

xxxx