Sallyx's Sink or Swim, Swimerdy Swim Diary ;)

LouiseJ

sallyx wrote: »

Oh and I am desperate to come to Buns party but so confused about what to do....
Why do I feel guilty for leaving B behind....I worry that OH will be horrible to her and I shouldn't put her through that. I feel like I would have no control over the situation and stupid as that sounds, scares the shiite out of me.

Sally, its only for a very short space of time sweetheart and could you arrange for her to go to a friends for a couple of hours to break the day up while you are away?

OH will be fine with her and it will do him good to shoulder the responsibility for once. I do worry about you Sally as you seem to take the whole worlds problems on your shoulders, remember that you are allowed to take a break and have a treat.

Dont feel guilty for it either! The only person who can make you feel guilty is yourself.

.........says someone who took 20 years to figure out the fact that I am actually worth caring about:o

beanielou

Can I second what oh wise one Louise says.
Huggles hun.
Why have insurance still not paid out?

sammy115

It will do him good to look after B by himself....he isn't a bad man really. I would honestly leave Chloe with mine even though he can barely look after himself...because you have to trust them...and you have to have a break.

sallyx

I know what you all say logically makes sense...
Anyway it all depends on whether he has to take this computer back before the 13th or whether they can wait until then.
If he is at his sisters and B stays with him there I'll be fine and then I can go back after our run on Sunday to pick them up.

Stupid thing is, if she were staying here with my mum Id quite happily go away the whole weekend and not worry about her....

sallyx

Morning Diary...not really much to report here. Spending is still well under control apart from I spend 4p more than I budgeted yesterday for the food shop and resulted in having to use the bills card instead of shopping one so now I need to transfer money around...got to laugh really over 4p!

Good news is that I shall be going to Bunny's party and am very excited to be seeing all the wonderbra's

Have also started up the clicks and surveys again...every penny counts and want to start spreading the cost of Christmas NOW!

redsquirrel80

Only going over budget by 4p is pretty good!

sallyx

Yeah it is...and its really made me think about the amount of food I was buying and probably wasting. Although I would def be back to buying better quality stuff once we have a bit more money.

sallyx

Morning Diary...funny weekend, busy busy busy on saturday doing things with B and at home (swimming, piano, allotment, gardening, park, cycling, cooking and cleaning) and then yesterday I had to go to London for Work to a trade show. Nice to have some away time but I spent most of the journey there and back worrying about B as OH was being very strange..like when I phoned and said does she want to speak to me he replied no..she's engrossed in watching a film. Which I would have been ok about but he didn't even ask her and it was obvious he was upstairs (there was no background noise) and she was downstairs.

Anyway feeling very Meh today, I know this is down to eating carp yesterday but I feel very isolated from all of my friends at the moment, and I know this has been a lot down to me but this really is the first time Ive had a true realisation that having debt has made on my life and lack of social time.

Anyway need to get the budget for Feb down and make sure I know exactly where the money is. Have also joined in with Hypno's £20 challenge....how long will my £20 last!

redsquirrel80

Hi Sal, Saturday sounds fun (well apart from the cleaning)! Sorry to hear you couldn't relax on your day away, wouldn't have taken much for him to ask her would it? Big hugs for feeling meh xx

sallyx

Thanks Squizz

Good news for today is that Ive been accepted for the shop and scan All my rewards are going to start accumulating soon