Zig's 'Save for a House and Stay out of Debt' Diary!

Tete_en_l'Air

Oh no! Can't offer any baking advice whatsoever I'm afraid! I'm definitely sticking to the tried nd tested ones then, that's something I need to start on tomorrow. I'm sure it'll all taste lovely no matter what it looks like!

zigmeister

You're so sweet Tete, but it's all hideous! *sobs*

The gingerbread stars I thought had gone alright, but they've burnt on the bottom (I blame the crappy oven) and taste bitter. And obviously the fudge was a disaster. I have done the white choc and baileys fudge and that seemed ok but I'll go and try it in a mo. I still need to do the biscotti.

You know where you imagine something and in your head it looks fabulous? I really thought this was gonna go well! I knew I should have just stuck with brownies. :rolleyes:

All I've eaten today is remnants of rice krispie cakes, gingerbread and fudge.. I feel really sick! But I think OH is cooking steak for tea so that should be good

Tete_en_l'Air

zigmeister wrote: »

You know where you imagine something and in your head it looks fabulous?

Yeah, that's kind of how I'm thinking my jars are going to look Will update tomorrow!!

zigmeister

I'm exhausted. With everything in general to be honest. Things are still not quite right between me and OH. He has been spending a lot of time with my sister 'because she's fun at the moment, and you're not'. And it's been bothering me. I don't understand how he can't see that I'm just done in and have had enough. But we're working on it.

I haven't got a clue what people owe me for Christmas, and the thought of going through all my receipts and stuff is filling me with dread. It needs to be done as soon as poss though.

I'm still having panic attacks and just crying a lot so that isn't helping my progress with my uni work. I'm considering talking to a doctor but I'm scared they're just gonna go 'you're just having a rough time, just get on it with it and stop over-reacting'.

Dinah93

Glad you're working on it. Personally I'd have told him to get out my house if he said something like that to me, but I'm not very understanding!

I think you should go to the doctor hon, hes not going to laugh at you, even if there is nothing he can give you, at least you know you tried.

mariagti

Hi Zig

Ive just found diary and wanted to say good luck saving for a house deposit! You dont find many young people in the diaries so i will subscribe to your diary

Im sorry to hear your having panic attacks , i agree with dinah93 you should go to the doctors if its happening often, see what they say.

xx

zigmeister

Well I shouted at him (whilst crying!) and he went out in a huff. But we talked and so for the minute things seem to be ok.

I have an appointment booked for Monday, wish it was sooner but oh well.

I've been at home for the past few days which has been really nice, my Mum has been really supportive. But I'm back to the flat tonight which I'm not looking forward to cuz it needs tidying and it's cold and lonely there.

I've decided I am going to ask my Nan if I can move in with them sooner than June because it will be so much easier for me to deal with everything else without having general house-running on the list too.

misselvis

am happy to hear you are being so proactive with everything. am a strong believer in taking one step at a time. Like the others I think that going to the GP will be a positive move for you. Good luck with it all and take care

wendz86

Sorry to hear that you haven't been having a great time with your OH, hope things work out.

Hope that the doctors goes OK on Monday, is definitely worth it to see one.

Cinny91

zigmeister wrote: »

He has been spending a lot of time with my sister 'because she's fun at the moment, and you're not'. And it's been bothering me.

I can't believe he said that to you! Sending you big hugs

Glad you've booked yourself in at the Doctors, I went a lot when I was younger from panic attacks and they are really helpful. Hope it goes well x