Macgirl's "Stop Procrastinating and Get on with it" Diary

In_my_dreams

Sorry you had a pants day. Pay day tomorrow so one step closer to being debt free. Hope tomorrow treats you better x

macgirl

Yep, we've cleared the air and I've kicked myself up the bum - tomorrow is a new day!

MissOptimistic

You said it - Tomorrow is a whole new day! - I've had a pants day too if its any consolation and feeling bad about myself because I've not run for a week, drunk wine and eaten carp! - Here's to a better week
Miss o x

macgirl

I'll drink (water) to that! :beer:

macgirl

Are we all waiting up for our Ebay Free listings to end?! I am

macgirl

Hello
Not much to report except extreme tiredness. I was in bed early last night and am currently in bed with the laptop! I think I must just be cold, or maybe that I'm on a diet (of sorts), but I feel completely lethargic.

Not much to report money wise - in fact this will be a very dull post! Sorry

hypno06

Hey, I am Queen of all posts dull myself right now!

I hope you feel better soon xx

chops22

I am soo hungry and feel really cold...I think it is due to lack of chocolate!

macgirl

Just typed a huge post and bleeping well lost it! Arrgghhhh!!!!!!

Yesterday I took DD to the Doctor's and then straight to school. I'm usually at work before they even get up so it was a treat for both of us.

We were laughing and chatting on the way, then she ran off to line up at the door. I shouted her back in mock shock as she didn't kiss me goodbye. She was giggling and ran back to kiss me and we waved goodbye. It was all happy and smiling.

I don't know what made me, but I walked up to the door and called her name to wave again. When she turned round she had tears streaming down her face and looked so sad!

She said she misses me every day, as she never sees me on a morning. I asked her why she didn't come back to me, as the school doors weren't even open?
She said "Because you are always in a rush to go to work and I didn't want you to know I was crying" :(:(

I felt heartbroken for her. She's only 5.5 but is very perceptive and such a good girl. She's always happy and easy going. I was blubbing all the way to work, and started again when I got there

There has to be a better way, but at the moment I work 4 days and am well paid for it. I can't afford to leave and get another job...I need every penny. It's not really too much to ask to see your Mummy on a morning when you're that age is it? So I feel like a crappy mother, as well as being totally reckless with cash. Think that's why I'm so tired.

Plus DH and I had a big fallout on Sunday evening, after a lovely weekend, so I felt carp after that too. All's well now though. I guess it's just life.......
(where's that bloody eyes roller when you need it!)

hypno06

((hugs))

I'm a fully paid up member of the bad mothers' club, so you have my sympathies xx

Remember, you are just doing the best that you can - that is something you can be proud of, and she will be proud of you too in due course - mine are now 14 and 15 and I have always worked, and mine turned out not to resent me (too much, anyway!)
xx