Lilmissmups what will 2010 bring diary!

Shoe_Gal

Hi hun

Just caught up - what a t*sser :mad: Well done on changing your number - I know that must have been hard

Stay :mad: for a while and stay strong - it will get your through the next couple of weeks

Take care of you :A

lilmissmup

Thanks ladies.

Part of me feels a bit weird about the number change TBH.

I know I really shouldn't want to hear from him ever again after everything but just knowing he will never be able to ring or text me is a bit weird.

I guess thats more of a reason for me doing it, I know he still has a hold on me and unless we have no contact its not gonna break.

Shoe_Gal

lilmissmup wrote: »

I guess thats more of a reason for me doing it, I know he still has a hold on me and unless we have no contact its not gonna break.

You were better with no contact last time - it will take time for you to stop thinking/wondering about him, you were together a long time. However, for now, hopefully 'out of sight, out of mind' will kick in

lilmissmup

I am still very angry, he obv thinks because he wasn't actually lying to me that he didn't do anything wrong, its all the things he didn't say that are the problem though.

Oh and also hate him more than anything for pretty much calling me a slag without using the word! God knows what he says to this women online and he calls me that for talking to one guy in a sexual way, wonder if he always thought so bad of me :mad:

doodledo_2

I am sure before all this he didn't think that about you at all. At times like this it is so easy to say things in the heat of the moment which we then regret for ages. Don't take things he says now to heart, he is part of your history so don't let his bitterness effect your future.

Shoe_Gal

doodledo wrote: »

I am sure before all this he didn't think that about you at all. At times like this it is so easy to say things in the heat of the moment which we then regret for ages. Don't take things he says now to heart, he is part of your history so don't let his bitterness effect your future.

Well said :A

doodledo_2

Thanks Shoegal :beer:

lilmissmup

I know your right, still bloody hurts though, can't help but feel like an idiot.

Don't understand how someone I once shared my life with and who made me happy and I had great times with can want to hurt me so much.

doodledo_2

But you haven't been stupid at all. All you are guilty for is having feelings for someone who you spent many years with. everything you have done and feel is perfectly natural.

Shoe_Gal

Your only 'crime' is loving him - he didn't deserve you :mad: He is now your 'past' and your brilliant future awaits :A