Lilmissmups what will 2010 bring diary!

lilmissmup

I will try not too promise

I am suprised at how mature I can be sometimes about things lol.

stacy

Hi,
im just slightly confused... is the person you went to the cinema with your ex?

lilmissmup

Hi Stacy,

Yes, short version is he confessed a couple weeks ago he still loves me and isn't sure if he made the right decision so we are trying to be friends and might lead to more but then again might not at all.

Its a bit more complicated than that but if you read back you will get it all.

I am so bored today, had day off work as using up holiday but felt a bit dodgy so instead of seeing a mate have just stayed in. Am super skint and have 8 days until payday with only about £10 left :eek:

Souk08

lilmissmup wrote: »

Am super skint and have 8 days until payday with only about £10 left :eek:

Welcome to my world doll:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

Souk08

Hey lady, I got my new job. just wanted to let you know XXX

lilmissmup

I have news too ladies.

Hes been playing me, I knew something was wrong so decided to unblock his facebook as couldn't get hold of him and looks like he has been seeing this 22yr old girl for a couple weeks now. Shes put loads of gushy stuff on his profile and about seeing him...she saw him Saturday it seems....when he told me he was hungover :mad:

A bad and good idea to unblock please please don't let me ever say anything nice about him again.

He won't answer my calls or texts so I emailed him saying I think i deserve an explanation and why did he have to put me through this.

Obv because his other play toy left him so he used me until this new one has arrived.....:rolleyes:

I don't understand how he can do this to me after how long we were together, I never treated him badly.

Ok so he didn't get back with me but he wasn't exactly saying he never would :mad:

I am ringing O2 to change my number ASAP and blocked him, this thing and all his family off Facebook again.

lilmissmup

Just an update spoke to him when he woke up, this girl lives in America and he has been "meeting" her on second life (like an online sims but a real world if you don't know what it is). I checked her facebook and she does actually live there.....

He was playing that game before he left me, quite pathetic he is living his life through that again.

He tried to have a go at me for my online distraction (kept popping at me for this over last few weeks) and also I mentioned the guy I met Friday and he had a go at me for that too!

Said I had been trying to contact him to as I needed an answer on where I stood, he tried to chuck it all back at me saying he had only ever meant friends but I know from our chats he wasn't just saying that.

So now back to where we were before, can't be his friend now and don't expect to hear from him again. Thank god.

Things go civil then something always ruins it.

Just want to be left alone by him, guess I am gonna have to change my number to ensure that.

doodledo_2

Ahhhhh this is why I didn't know I didn't realise you had a new diary grrrrrrrr

Anyway subscribed now

Chick he has been playing you and the sooner you move on the better, you are not silly for doing it as you have feelings for him, he is the stupid one for losing you.

2010 is our year I promise :T

lilmissmup

Hes just sent me an email actually trying to pretend he is not an anchor and that he still wants to be my friend, that he wanted to touch me in cinema and that he hasn't treated me like a toy etc....I replied saying please if you care just let me get on with my life.

I don't believe a word he says anymore.

I hate myself for letting him play me, hate him for doing it to me after everything I did for him and the experiences I gave him i.e New York etc and am scared I will never trust a man again now as this is the second man who has played me, both the men I loved.

I have a new number now anyway so he can't text or ring me.

doodledo_2

It's all just a game to him, he is happy to do his thing but doesn't want you to do yours. Good on you for changing your number, I wouldnt reply to his emails either he will soon get the message.

Not all men are like that, just will make you a little cautious in new relationships though unfortunately.