The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread! Part 5

graemecarter

mumofseven wrote: »

Morning all,

Woke up at 3.30am in a blind panic, I couldn't remember letting my 16 year old into the house last night and had visions of her sitting on the step waiting for some-one to let her in , she wasn't too impressed when I ran into her room and switched the light on to check she was home safe.

I have to stop doing this, for my kids more so than myself. I decided I would put a signature thingy on saying 'AF since 10/10/09', then thought 11/10/09 looked better! Who am I kidding? I know tonight will be almost impossible to stay AF. I can't imagine sitting through XF without a bottle of wine, but I have to and it is so b****y difficult!!!

I see so much of myself in other postings, drinking because I am happy, sad, lonely, stressed or to be sociable- all just excuses because I have no control. Does anyone have a magic wand that will give me that control? cos right now I really could do with it.

Sorry for wallowing, I just don't know how I am going to get over this, when I go through my (rare) periods of abstinence I feel more of freak than I do right now, a 'friend' of mine once said that I was only good company when I had a drink and I think my hubby prefers me when I am not sober!!!

Rant over! I CAN do this, I WILL do this, am gonna buy some AF beers for XF tonight and cuddle up on sofa with kids, Harry Hill is on too so something else to smile about. :rotfl:

Hope everyone else is achieving their goal.

MOS

I admire your spirit and determination. Try and keep this hunger to remain AF. Alcoholism for me is a disease of forgetfulness. I would forget I have a problem with alcohol if I do not remind myself daily.

I have, and will never have, control over alcohol. When it is inside me I have a craving to drink more. That's why I rarely just had one beer/wine and stopped there. I wanted to carry on drinking.

I could stop drinking when I admitted that I was powerless over alcohol. When I admitted I was alcoholic.
In all addictions, people who fight them struggle and most often lose. People who admit, accept, and then surrender to their addictions (be it drinking, drugs, alcohol, food, sex, etc) are the ones who recover.
I could not stop my drinking by myself (I wouldn't drink everyday, just that when I did drink I could never guarantee that I could stop drinking at a certain time/after certain number of drinks)
Alcoholism is a nasty illness - it makes you think that you will not be able to live your life with any happiness without alcohol. This is nonsense of course, as MP, RA, Bis, Es, Heath, will attest too.
Life for me began when I stopped drinking, and I never ever want to go back to drinking. Thus I take it one day at a time - I will not drink today. I will make the decision about drinking tomorrow when tomorrow comes. But I can (and most people can) do 24 hrs without drinking. If one cannot even go a day without drinking, then that is serious, heavy alcoholism, which needs to be treated. However, most people can survive 24 hrs without a drink. It may not be pleasant, but it is necessary to get better.

graemecarter

ineedtokickthehabbit wrote: »

Thank you I aim to start next week. I had a friend around last night and again drank too much so am sitting here with a hangover, why oh why do I keep doing this.

While I don't know your story INTKTH, for me I kept on doing it because I am alcoholic, and that's what alcoholics do. They drink. They feel remorse, promising themselves they won't drink again, but then eventually they do. Thus the cycle continues.

I drank because my problem is with life. Alcohol just compounds the problem. Alcohol is in the bottle, the ISM is within me. Alcoholism.
I hope you find the support you need on here. Posting for the first time is a brave step, so well done.

Lurkio

jo1972 wrote: »

Sorry that sounded a bit bossy didn't it Didn't mean to. Hope you are okay, hows the job situation going?

no, it didn't

Job situation? Still losing it, as things stand....... desperately hoping something turns up in the next month, but it doesn't look likely........

69chick

Hi all, unfortunately I wasn't AF last night :rolleyes: I got one of those meal deals from Mr T's and thought I would save the wine till tonight, but of course I didn't - downed the lot, now feel pretty rough and annoyed at myself really, not so much that I wasn't af as I am happy if I drink on Fri/Sat only, but I drank it far too quick and I should have been able to have a couple of glasses and put the rest back in the fridge..

Anyway no drink in the house at the moment, have a nice meal planned for tonight so am aiming to get by on squash and hot choc with X-Factor.....lets just hope those twins get knocked out tonight..

Some really poignant posts over the last day or so, I admire you all for your honesty and hope that we can all get to where we want to be...

After reading GC's post the other day it has made me think again about changing myself so as not to keep repeating the same pattern. I just need to decide what I need to do to do this..

Happy weekend all

maman

:hello:

Hi all! Just came on to catch up. Not AF at the weekend but cross with myself that I had too much last night (another birthday do). Didn't do anything silly but do feel a bit hungover.

Some very sad posts on here in the last day or so. I am so sorry that some of you are feeling sad and lonely, hope the thread helps just a bit. Gromit , please hang around. I know what you mean about those posts, they make me angry (another excuse to drink ) if I read them.

FH, I sometimes suffer from similar pain. My muscles go into a kind of spasm, usually when I'm stressed. It's excruciating so you have my great sympathy. Luckily for me strong painkillers and relaxants do take the edge off it.

On a lighter note (:D), GP you are doing fabulously well with the lardloss. I'm sure you'll be at your lightest ever, long before the 100 day challenge is up :T

Have a good evening everyone.

jo1972

You know what, Saturday evening is so boring on here, you're all watching XF and Strictly :rotfl: (or out having a good time )

I'm watching Wibbly Pig from Cbeebies on ondemand :rolleyes:.....the kids are still up, obviously :rolleyes:

TIME2GROWUP_2

jo1972 wrote: »

You know what, Saturday evening is so boring on here, you're all watching XF and Strictly :rotfl: (or out having a good time )

I'm watching Wibbly Pig from Cbeebies on ondemand :rolleyes:.....the kids are still up, obviously :rolleyes:

Admit it Jo, its you watching wibbly pig...!!

Not AF as it is officially the weekend.. but no hangovers, accidents, wet patches, fights, injuries or trips to A & E. I'm obviously too well behaved...!!

Done my first 2 Mystery shops today... yippee.. got one tomorrow and another next week... Glad to have got my first one's out the way...! Off to London tomorrow.. looking forward to a day out.. and just done the ironing..yawn.. now back to x factor....can't wait for the twins...!

Good luck all on AFness tonight.. xxx

heath480

Hi to everyone.

X factor on in this house:j. Waiting for Robbie.;).

Hope the AFers are doing O.K.

glasgowgirl

TIME2GROWUP wrote: »

no hangovers, accidents, wet patches, fights, injuries or trips to A & E. [/QUOTE

:rotfl::rotfl:That's my definition of a good night out/in these days!:rotfl: :rotfl:

Trying not to cost the over-stretched NHS any more money!

You're not seriously looking forward to that pair are you? God, they're SO annoying!!

Looking forward to Stacy, she seems lovely.

xx

jo1972

T2GU, congrats on the MS, I love doing my shops, even the ones that don't earn me anything. If you ever do one for the burger shop with the golden M, as soon as you ask for the receipt it's like the caberet has arrived, that's why every time I shop there (like I did tonight ), I ask for a receipt, that's one way to get the manager on the shop floor :rotfl:

Glad to hear that everyone is watching telly and not avoidind the thread. I've not seen XF yet, well tell a lie, we've taped them all on V+, I've watched the 1st three and we need to get up to speed, have no idea what you are talking about re. twins, stacy and robbie no doubt I will catch up eventually!

I'm off researching house rabbits, thinking of getting one for DS for his birthday