sucidial... no help given

beaniebabe

I am sure your kids want you to be around for them .You seem like you are a great Mum but have just had a rough time lately and need some support to get you on the right track again. Would you be able to make an appointment to see your GP tomorrow and I am sure he will listen and be able to help.
You are welcome to PM me anytime if you want a chat. Take care hun, things will get better and you are very precious!X

feelinggood_2

Frankiegirl, do you have a 'back up plan'? After my suicide attempt, I decided that if I ever felt that low again, there are a few things I should try. I know the pain can be overwhelming, but is there anything you could try? I decided that I would go travelling before I attempt suicide again. What about going back to college? Do you have any dreams? Any desires?

There is help out there, but it can be hard to get. Do you think you could keep up with appointments and medication if you were to see the Pyschiatrist again? I was discharged due to failure to comply a few years ago, but I got back in touch with them when I was able to stick to the regime, and they happily had me back.

tandraig

frankie - your son wants YOU - not anything you can leave to him.. I would be heartbroken if anything happened to MY mum. dont do that to him! ring samaritans hun - they are marvellous - I was really drunk one night and had argument with sis in law and husband that day - and cos i was depressed anyway - was going to take tabs and end it. the lady on other end listened to me!!! and had very helpful suggestions. and someone phoned me next day to make sure i was ok. i followed the suggestions and got the help. as my OH wasnt supportive - just the opposite. i felt so alone. but the main reason I am still here - gone through bad times since - is that i realise how my kids would feel. they want me here - not gone!

mumofjusttwo

I know that you mention that your DR wasn't much help. Could you see about seeing another Doctor?

The_Banker_5

frankiegirl wrote: »

thank you for replying... after the overdose i got pyscarist treatment.. i cancelled one appontment and the next thing police was at my door took my son off me and gave him to my ex husband next day i rang everyone to be told it take time but lucky for me my ex gave me my son back, now been told no more anti depressant for me as i didnt take them 6 months ago and pyscarist told me i am off his books cos i was not happy about how I cancelled one appointment and reported that I was not happy that they had got rapid response team to take my son off me

I just feel so alone.... friends i have a few but not ones that i can talk to

You are very brave to talk about it frankie and by coming on here at least you are meeting people. Even though its only words on a computer screen there are live people on the other end typing those words who care.

Promise that you will come back on every day to let us know how you are doing and at least by doing this it will give you something to aim for.

Sorry I cant be more helpful.

frankiegirl

my son is 12, on the computer in his room, my daughters are scattered everywhere... cos i failed them. one is with my brother who beat the crap out of me the other two lives in a rented house i give money to all of my kids everyweek for bus money, dinner money only hear from them when they want money or lifts when i say ask you dad for it to be told dont be silly u know dad dont have it! awarded csa and my daughters thinks i am cruel cos I am forcing their dad to go on the dole rather than pay it.
last night i agreed to go out for a meal for our daughters birthday with the understanding thier dad paid half of it, bill arrived and he didnt have enough money and all of my kids said dont be mean mummy! i paid it but felt so down that they cant see that I dont have a flashty merc and struggle everyday they simply toldme daddy works hard for his merc!

olipot

Oh sweetheart so sad to read your post, please please think of your son, you are probably the most precious person in his life, you may not think you have many friends around but there are loads of us worrying about you here, its so difficult when we can only converse like this but we are worrying about you and you are in my thoughts, when you feel down come on here and post your troubles and let us share them with you, for now lots of hugs and kisses:smileyhea

eckythump

Frankie,I know you may think your son may be better off without you as long as you leave him financially secure but that is not the case.
He needs you,you must be a good mother or your ex would not have returned your son to you.
please phone the samaritians for a chat,they will help you through this.
you mentioned changing your will,does this mean your present one is out of date?
this could leave a complicated finacial mess should anything happen to you.
you have been so careing to other people,please let someone help you through this.

frankiegirl

i never got any csa payment off him! didnt pursue it as kids dont want me to

whitewing

frankie, my son is the same age as yours. My son needs me (even if he is grumpy sometimes). Yours needs you. Your daughters need you too.

Call the Samaritans 08457 90 90 90.