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beanielou

Hope your feeling of dread goes away.
Take care x

In_Search_Of_Me

Thanks...had my first councelling session today and it helped, although was very emotional but it helps to have an outsider help me sift feelings...also saw gp and we agreed that will just have to get through the process. He ? whether the dread feeling is panic attack but dont think it is as breathing etc is ok....I remain ever thankful that my friends are so lovely and look after me so well.
Tomorrow I am helping at the local cat sanctuary sale to see if I can get into doing some kitten socialisation so I get my cat fix!! Am babysitting and typing on a very posh apple mac book thingy!! O and I took mum and dad to town and was told on the way back that I was very kind and beautiful so thats me suckered!! aww bless...am ver proud of him because he swam a length of the pool without arm bands today and did four stitches of my knitting...then played star wars with the spare needle!! Lodger is doing ok...tomorrow night I have people for dinner which will be lovely as theyre good friends..indian storecupboard meal of spinach curry and spicy potatoe me thinks...hugs all!

penguin83

Hi ISOM, have fun at the cat sanctuary tomorrow and get lots of cuddles in!

Hope that the counselling helps you and those horrible feelings go away.

Look after yourself x x

In_Search_Of_Me

Alas it was just a jumble sale...didnt realise it was a whole day thing so could only stay a couple of hours...ok w/e...geting used to having someone here all the time! Friends for storecupboard supper on Sat and church yesterday. First knitting group tonight so have baked cakes as a treat! Money doing well - only paying mins at the moment until I know whats what but am doing well spending v little and still flogging stff - sold my cinema system yesterday for 50 so all good and adds to the emergency fund! Spent £9 on shopping which was the most yet but lidl had butter for 59p so got 4 and froze 2!! Bits to do so must on....

Lemon_Tree

nice to hear you sounding happier in your post, glad you and your lodger (can't think what else to call her) are getting on well, it's not easy sharing your space with someone after living on your own for so long. I've just done the same with marge in morrisons so that's now in the freezer ready for lots of baking.

Keeping_Positive

Nothing important to say except hello :wave: and glad to hear things progressing in the being prudent plan.

In_Search_Of_Me

Getting there but for all the wrong reasons IYKWIM! Much better a spending less anyway but today spent 10 at mr t's...helped at church lunch today which was nice then sleep in the pm...off to knit and watch medium!

shaz_mum_of__2

Hiya missus

You seem to have settled into a kind of routine which is good and hope the HS(houseshare) is going well

Counsellings great for thinking out loud and making sense of your thoughts and feelings just a fiendly bit of advice ...................don't stop going straightaway when you think your "fixed" keep going for a bit just to make sure ...................................I made the mistake of thinking I had resolved my issues and 2 weeks later i was worse than when I started ,you really do need the continued support .

you seem to be more positive though so good for you

Shaz xxxx

In_Search_Of_Me

Morning shaz...loder and I are slowly getting used to each other and tolerating each others foibles! She doesent mind me cleaning up after her so theres an easy compromise - she makes mess and I clean which she doesent find annoying so thats the way it will be! Finished the first of my Christmas pressies yesterday! A lovely scarf thats warm and snuggly and the recipient will love it! Today is a day in with washing machine being examined! Will, finally, bottle my two dj of wine and also make some more. Slept well last night with no nightmares which was a relief.
hugs all...sorry if I've sounded negative - not my intention at all and have tried to be positive but some days its really hard...

Keeping_Positive

I thinks youve been quite chirpy especially considering whats happening.