Alcohol self help thread II

Al_Mac

ac wrote:

nope thats one day at a time :rolleyes:

Good girl:T :A :cool: :rolleyes:

Shaz123_3

Hi all,

Sorry not been on for a few days to update everyone. Was going to ask my OH for a divorce on Tuesday night but spoke to him during my work to ask how his interview went. It was then he said he was going to join the AA.

Spoke properly when I got hom and I told him I had been working myself up to asking for a divorce until speaking to him in the afternoon.

He has been to a meeting on Wed, Thur, Fri and this morning. He has met alot of like minded and very very kind people that he says are really helping him a great deal.

I can't believe the energy he has and the new outlook he has. It's like he's a changed man and looks forward to every day now. He says he has a long way to go but taking things one day at a time.

After his meeting we went out as a family and now he is downstairs making dinner.

We have talked lots about how we can do so much more together as a couple and as a family. He said if he died tomorrow he would be happy that at least he died sober and had woken up looking forward to the day.

Take care all.

Al_Mac

I was just thinking about the thread:eek:

Excellent. Fingers crossed he can keep it up, it's a great start.

Good luck and do keep us informed:T

lewt

Good stuff shaz it's a good place to go i go regulary also to CA and na if there is'nt an AA meeting all the same steps. has he got a sponser yet?

ac

1st day back at work 2mora !!!!

(kept it under me hat aint i) xx

doing 10 - 3 so.........:eek:

wish me luck

i part of me want to get back out into the big wide world...

the other part of me (the bad part.. defeative part) the parts thats
always on self-destruct !!!!!!
dosent want me to go... keeps winding me up...keeps giving me
anxiety attack and the shake...

(which im ignoring ) :rolleyes:

feelinggood_2

il be thinking you tomorrow AC, hopethings go ok.
Good luck x

on_the_up_6

Hello everybody,

Well I've finally faced facts. I'm an alcoholic, I don't need any quizzes to tell me what is now completely clear.

I've mooched around on alcoholic sites previously, then i've convinced myself that I don't have a problem and that I can deal with this on my own. I say things to myself like I won't drink for a whole week to 'prove' that i'm not an alcoholic, or that I will only drink one bottle of wine and then stop, of course I fail miserably.

I'm feeling quite calm at the moment, I am aware that I can't do this on my own and so have signed up here and have also contacted AA. I'm going to give a meeting a try tonight.

I'm not at one of my rock bottom moments, its been strange. I went to Alton Towers on Sunday with some friends, I was queueing for a ride with my friends and I saw a sign for cold beer. At that point I could almost feel it running smoothly down my throat, the craving kicked in, thankfully the stall was closed. It has been from that point that I can't stop thinking about my alcohol consumption.

I drink to excess most nights, the craving sometimes starts earlier and I nearly always pick something up on the way home from work. No cup of tea just straight to the booze. Once i've started its like a switch has been flicked, I just can't stop. I drive different routes home each night so I can stop off at different places so they don't know how much I drink. I dispose of the bottles before my BF comes round on the weekend. I drink a lot on weekend evenings and lie to the man I love telling him I need a drink as I havn't had one all week and have been under a lot of stress.

I haven't done anything really stupid recently, but thats mainly because I lock myself in the house and drink alone. But I still wake up with that horrible fear, what if I did go out and do something really stupid but just can't remember it.

I pass out most nights and never seem to get anything done. My evenings are lost to alcohol.

I don't want to live my life like this anymore. My health and my money down the drain already due to alcohol, whats next, my job, the people I love.

I'm scared as hell.

Thanks for listening.

feelinggood_2

On the up, well done on facing your demons
I hope you get to a meeting tonight, and that it is sucsessful for you.
Best of luck on your journey x

on_the_up_6

Thank you feelinggood. The meeting is at 8.00 and is easy enough to get to but far away enough for me to feel comfortable. I suppose the extra petrol is no where near as much as I would spend on booze tonight if I didn't go!

I've been reading through this thread and the stories on the AA website. I'm not going to bottle out (no pun intended just can't think of a better phrase) of this. I do have a problem, the fact that I have not gone without a drink for more than 1 day for longer than I can remember is a testomony (sp?) to that.

I can't even remember the last day I went without a drink at the moment.

When I was younger I never liked drink, I used to be happy to go to clubs etc and just drink coke. I think as soon as I learned to tolerate the taste of alcohol I've been an alcoholic. I dread to think what i've done to my liver and its no surprise that my skin is so bad.

I don't drink because i'm stressed I drink because I am an alcoholic.

My best one is i'll have a drink tonight because i'm tired. I won't have any willpower if I'm tired, I'll have a drink, get a good nights rest and then I'll stop tomorrow and my whole life will be happy and sweet. My little sick puppy mind was not able to come to the blindingly obvious conclusion that passing out after 2 bottles of wine does not bode well for a restful and restorative nights sleep.

Sorry for rambling on again but its helping me to focus. I have the little devil and angel on my shoulder, the devil telling me I can control it, forget all this alcoholic rubbish, just a wee drink tonight and a good nights sleep and all will be right, the angel telling me that this has to stop and that I don't want to live my life like this.

feelinggood_2

on_the_up wrote:

Thank you feelinggood. The meeting is at 8.00 and is easy enough to get to but far away enough for me to feel comfortable. I suppose the extra petrol is no where near as much as I would spend on booze tonight if I didn't go!

I've been reading through this thread and the stories on the AA website. I'm not going to bottle out (no pun intended just can't think of a better phrase) of this. I do have a problem, the fact that I have not gone without a drink for more than 1 day for longer than I can remember is a testomony (sp?) to that.

I can't even remember the last day I went without a drink at the moment.

When I was younger I never liked drink, I used to be happy to go to clubs etc and just drink coke. I think as soon as I learned to tolerate the taste of alcohol I've been an alcoholic. I dread to think what i've done to my liver and its no surprise that my skin is so bad.

I don't drink because i'm stressed I drink because I am an alcoholic.

My best one is i'll have a drink tonight because i'm tired. I won't have any willpower if I'm tired, I'll have a drink, get a good nights rest and then I'll stop tomorrow and my whole life will be happy and sweet. My little sick puppy mind was not able to come to the blindingly obvious conclusion that passing out after 2 bottles of wine does not bode well for a restful and restorative nights sleep.

Sorry for rambling on again but its helping me to focus. I have the little devil and angel on my shoulder, the devil telling me I can control it, forget all this alcoholic rubbish, just a wee drink tonight and a good nights sleep and all will be right, the angel telling me that this has to stop and that I don't want to live my life like this.

If you read through this thread, ignore all my posts! I leave them up as a reminder to me what I'm like when I've been drinking, and its rather embarrasing.

Will be thinking of you tonight x