The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

bigzippy

Tea, I might've asked this before and forgotten but when do you start your short protocol?


Any word from the clinic, mrshappy?

mrshappy

Congrats lily and happy birthday for yesterday

TCD-sorry your results weren't good-I know how bad results can make you left feeling stunned and confused I would def be trying to get an earlier appointment so you can talk things through.

I spoke to the clinic last night, the nurse I spoke to will speak to the consultant and get back to me either today or tomorrow. She thinks they might try a different protocol (we had flare last time) and would probably get going with my next cycle, AF due around 21st March. My mum is ridiculously excited about it all, so no pressure eh?

hope everyone is good x

tea_lover

bigzippy wrote: »

Tea, I might've asked this before and forgotten but when do you start your short protocol?

I have to call on CD1 and attempt to arrange a scan for CD2. Slightly easier said than done as no one ever answers the phone there, so remains to be seen how that will work.

Am currently CD28 I think. Last couple of cycles have been about 32 days, which is pretty short for me. So in theory it could all start again this weekend :eek:.

Have got a busy couple of weeks coming up at work which is typical as once we get going it will be scans every other day. Not sure this is going to run smoothly.

onestep

Hurrah, & belated happy birthday lily may!!

TCD.. Hugs to you. No experience of what you're going through, & no wonder you are stunned. Hope you can see the consultant sooner.

:wave: to everyone

vseviour

Hi everyone,
Sorry for my lack of comments, not much going on with me. CD 33, BFN, weight loss slowed, just working and gym at the mo.

Huge congrats to Lilymay and belated birthday wishes.

Teaandcakeordeath, sorry for your news. Hope work wasn't too upsetting and you get an appointment soon.

Well done Chickpea on the weight loss!

Hope everyone else is doing ok.
Vx

TeamLowe

just a quick note to say appointment was horrible

after saying (and she acknowledges she said it) that if we weren't pregnant by now they'd perscribe clomid, they don't actually perscribe clomid there because they won't do follicle tracking. so i've been referred to a fertility specialist.

so so fustrated and upset, at the time i nearly didn't come in to work as i couldn't keep it together. they said they wouldn't consider clomid for me from them because when i had my pregesterone tested it was at a good level (that's before my cycles went nuts again) so they think i'm at too much of a risk of OHSS.

so the intervention i know i need and has every chance of working has once again been snatched away from me . they've no idea of waiting lists and they won't even send the referral letter to the fs for a week :eek:
even better the fs will be at a merseyside teaching hospital and i said well i live in pie eater land*, can you not refer me to an fs there? and they said no, cos then you'd have to go to your gp to get a referral and get all the tests done again!

spoke to DH and we've agreed to take a break from actively trying. I'm just so so sick of everything being out of my control and getting myself worked up about doctors appointments.

SO the plan going forward (we all know i love a good plan) is that we'll stop actively trying and go to NTNP until i turn 27, when we'll go private. if the nhs fs referral comes through before then then great but i'm not going to desperate for it.
In the meantime efforts for diet and exercise will be redoubled as i won't have the excuse of worrying about messing up ovulation or whatever.

don't breath a sigh of relief though girls, i'm too emotionally involved in the ttc of internet strangers to leave the thread

it's so oddly liberating and relaxing to feel like i'm in control of my journey for once, not living or dying by a doctor's word.

although i do secretly hope i'll be that cliche of 'well such and such stopped trying and now they have 16'

*a nod towards BigZ's privacy concerns

Primmer

Huge hugs TL - they don't seem to understand how much we need to plan particularly when a lot of ttc and treatment is out of our control. It is horrible to have a plan especially based on what they told you and then have it changed. Pleased to see you have come up with a new plan though and really hope you get you BFP whilst ntnp so you don't need to see fs. X

bigzippy

I'm so confused TL. Who did you see today that wasn't an fs and wasn't a gp??

time2deal

Hey ladies,

Firstly - congrats LM! Although you may have moved onto the other thread by now.

TCD, sorry to see you move over here with such poor news. I think there are lots of positive stories about heart shaped uterus's, so it doesn't sound like the end of the world, but also so hard to hear when you do get bad news.

I've seen people on the other thread say 'I wish there was something wrong so it could be fixed' and I have to bite my tongue! The reality of bad news hits you like a brick. Even if it can be 'fixed', it means more stress and more time and probably more money. Anyway, sending you lots of good wishes, and you'll get plenty of support from the ladies here.

Zippster - how are you going? I know you have been a bit down, and this whole thing gets hard after a while. Sending hugs.

TL - sounds rubbish today. Good luck with the NTNP, and while I know you will hate me saying this, at least you do have time on your side so you can take a break. Feeling like you are back in control is a major thing.

And thanks all those ladies who are posting on my blog! It makes me feel loved. Pretty soon I going to have to learn how to turn off my tendency to give TMI at the moment and go back to my normal more restrained self. I'm only glad I never gave the blog address to my workmates!

Right, AFM, I've had what is hopefully my last operation, and I'm just lazing at home now for March, and will think about going back to work after Easter. I'm getting there physically, and starting to come to terms with it all mentally too, but that may take longer than I think. The stress has been pretty overwhelming from time to time, and I need to think about if I want to go back to the same as my life before. But that's too deep to contemplate here!

My latest dilemma is a missing period. Now.. that can be a complication from the surgery - in fact it is MOST likely due to scar tissue blocking up the cervix. I've had massive cramps on Monday, unusually so, and on and off since then, but no sign of the actual period.

But - You all know what I am thinking... I'm CD31. I did ovulate normally around CD12, and normally my cycle struggles around 25-27 days. I don't think we BD at the right time as I wasn't paying attention.

Arrgghh.. there are no good results here. BFN means I probably have scar tissue problem and perhaps another surgery. BFP would be amazing, but soo risky that it becomes stupid and dangerous. I have had IVF in January, and two major operations this month, so it's not crazy to have a strange cycle, but my cycle has been rock steady for the last 18 months or so. And what were the cramps all about?

Sigh, I just need to wait. I'll give it til Monday or so and will test and/or call the surgeon. I don't know what I want (yes I do - of course!) but I'm going to try and ignore things for a while (yeah... sure I will). Writing this will probably cause AF to show up in about 10 minutes!

(p.s. Sorry for the essay!)

TeamLowe

T2D I think I'd be feeling the same way are you sure you ovulated when you think you did? Just thinking it might have been delayed with stress and illness

Thanks for your kind words ladies, t2d I won't hate you for saying I have time on my side as I know it's an enviable position, I was very lucky to meet the love of my life as early as I did. And at least you're not like mum saying I should wait seven years cos apparently her dad used to reckon health would go in seven year cycles lol

BigZ it was a gynaecologist x