The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

tea_lover

Big hugs becca. Feeling a bit cr.ap today. as well, group hug for all of us needed I reckon.

Part mouse - hope all's going ok.

Part_Mouse

Becca *hugs* Hun the depression is all consuming isn't it, you spend so much time hoping it's your turn and the rest feeling like you could cry at the drop of a hat.

I hope you can keep up the fight and carry on until you get your bfp.

Xx

lucyloo77

Thank you for the good wishes ladies. Really hOpe everything goes ok tomorrow with your scan PM. x

Oh Becca, sending you big hugs. I know exactly how you feel, I truly do. I've spent so many days fighting back the tears, pretending not to cry, walking round with the biggest cloud in the universe following me.

When I feel like giving up, I know deep down that I won't. You have to hang on to that. I'm a stubborn so-and-so really. It was a massive shocker to me that we weren't going to concieve naturally, especially when we went straight to the Ivf option. I was also really worried that I'd go into complete emotional meltdown whilst undergoing the cycle, but apart from a few mini-meltdowns (as exactly as Tea said it would be!) it really has been ok so far. I guess the only way with these things is a combination of plans (plans are good!) and taking one day at a time, literally bit by bit.

When I'm feeling so depressed with it all and I think about being stuck in the job I despise for the next 30+ years with no children, no future etc - its literally unbearable. I FORCE myself to make silly plans for if it really does never happen with children - that we'll jack our jobs in and go travelling, we'll move abroad, I'll set up my own jewellery business, whatever. It just makes me feel a tiny bit better to promise myself that I will at least have the life I want if this all doesn't work. Whereas now of course my life is permanently on hold cos of all this fertility stuff etc. BUT I'm a long, long way off from having to take those choices and I still have options and chances left (as do you too hun). Plus I outright refuse to give up on this, quitting is not an option. I have to know that I've done absolutely everything possible to make this happen for me.

Keep your chin up hun, you're truly not alone in feeling like this, believe me. Just take it one day at a time. Maybe tomorrow you'll feel a bit of fight coming back. Plus I honestly believe that when it comes down to it we're all much stronger than we think. xx

Part_Mouse

Tea sorry to hear your not doing so good today, group hug sounds fab. It will be my 3rd tracking scan this month and no sign of ov and tbh I don't think things shave moved on from fri either.

Xx

lucyloo77

Really sorry to hear you're feeling rubbish today too Tea Hope you feel more positive soon and remember to focus on your plans for later in the year. xx

((Hugs)) to everyone who needs them.

tea_lover

Fingers crossed for good news at the next scan. I think I've forgotten how to ov!

Part_Mouse

Tea I have never ov on my own,heck I didn't even start af on my own.

Xx

tea_lover

Why do I obsessively read the pg threads?

Why do I still know exactly how far along I should be?

Most of all, why is a bit of me still convinced I'm pg? My head won't accept the -ve tests, the bleeding, the pain. I still keep symptom spotting & can't stop thinking they're still in there.

OH is adamant he won't try again. He nearly moved out yesterday.

Primmer

PM - good luck with your scan tomorrow

Lucy - keeping everything crossed for you.

Becca - hugs honey, sometimes it just feels too much doesn't it and so unfair. I really wish that none of us ladies had to go through this nightmare.

Tea - so sorry you are having a tough time. I know how you feel about refusing to believe that you are not pregnant as I felt the same. I think it is a hard time as partners can't understand how you feel as they were the ones who had the embies inside them. Sending hugs and hope in time things will get better.

Part_Mouse

Tea so sorry things are so tough for you.

Primmer thanks.

Xx