The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

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tea_lover wrote: »

WTDN - really hope clomid is working for you xx.

what she said and also, yes, I have insomniac tendencies too

BZ - can you teach me how to cook lol?? I love the idea of it but haven't the faintest idea where to start with it all. So I put it off and eat toast

Yes? Probably, lol. I've actually been cooking and baking with friends lately to help them get their confidence up... I can send you some super simple recipes if you like?

Am almost holding my breath waiting for you to test, really wishing you luck! What does OTD stand for though? Is hubby going with you for the test?

chickpea wrote: »

BZ - hope OH is OK.

80 pounds is amazing weightloss. You must feel good about that, you must get comments all the time?

I have lost 30 pounds, it's slow going now though! 20 pounds to go.

I'm feeling a bit gloomy though.

Very well done on yours too! :T mine's definitely slowed down, I think it's been mental blocks though tbh. I do get comments, but tbh I really don't know how to respond I'm really bad at taking compliments generally and this is such a bizarre thing, cos I know I look completely different, but I still know how far there is to go, and I'm kind of ashamed at how much I've had to lose to get back to this size again

Sorry you're feeling gloomy, although I understand why hormones and triggers would have you feeling that way :cool:

Part_Mouse wrote: »

Hi all

I did briefly post on the thread but had to drop out of fertility treatment go awhile. We're just about ready to ttc again, I would love to get pg naturally but wih my 'cycle' it's never happened.

Xx

Welcome/back :wave: what's the up-to-now/current/next stage of your journey look like for you?

mrshappy

good morning, hope everyone is well.
BZ-I thought OTD stood for official test date, I'm probably wrong though
Tea-everything is still crossed for you
AFM-have just about recovered from the pre treatment counselling session last week and have spoken to the nurses, so that's us on the egg donation waiting list. She says it can take up to 6 months to match, so I have that in my head and anything sooner will therefore be a bonus. While we are waiting I have decided to shift the extra weight-I've realised that I'm a bit curvier than I would like to be , but I was genuinely shocked when I stood on the scales last week. I had put on a bit since stopping smoking and then just kept putting on throughout the ICSI, so week 1 and 7lbs off I know that rate isn't good or sustainable, but it has given me a kick start.
It has been 8 weeks since my last AF (when I got my BFN) Does anyone have any idea how long it will take for AF to return? I'm finding it all very strange.

Ooops, that turned into a bit of a ramble, need to go and get ready for work now

tea_lover

Morning ladies,

OTD is official test date... and it's tomorrow!!! Less than 24 hours to go *starts singing final countdown to herself...* OH will be coming with me. Part of me thinks why are we driving all that way just so someone else can put a stick in my wee, it's not like I can't do that at home! But I'm a good girl lol, and do what they tell me. So if they tell me to wee in a pot and take it to them that's what we shall do .

Ok.... 11dp5dt, so here's today's list of imaginary symptoms
1. Teeny tiny bit queasy for about 3 nano-seconds. Pretty sure that's just nerves.
2. Convinced myself I had veiny boobs last night. Think it was just a weird version of line-eye.
3. Also thought I had a really itchy boob. Turned out to be a hair that had fallen in my bra.

Nothing else to report. Bloating has gone again (and I think that was just cyclogest anyway... or maybe wind! :rotfl:)

At the risk of sounding like I'm accepting an oscar, I just wanted to say a massive thank you to you all for keeping me (relatively) sane over the last few months. Whatever the outcome tomorrow, I really don't think I could have got this far without you all. I really hope that you all get your dreams xx.

abis21

Eeeeekkkk. Every time I see you have posted last I hold my breath cos I think you may have tested. I am soooooo impressed with your willpower not to test before the OTD. I am also crossing fingers lotsly for you still xx

Birdie85

Hi ladies! :wave: I'm popping over from the other thread as technically I guess I belong here although I did mention over there last week that I'm currently in limbo - no luck getting PG but not been trying long enough to take it any further medically so feel like I don't have much to offer here. Another queue jumper this morning has pushed me into posting though as I'm hoping you ladies will help keep me sane when yet another poster goes missing for weeks after introducing themselves then pops back to say 'BTW I'm PG!'. :mad: Jealous, moi?!

Just a little recap about me: TTC since October 2011. Had some troubles with annoyingly long cycles at first but settled down after about 9-10 months even though my AFs are still a bit 'odd'. I've had day 21 bloods and the dildocam which came back normal, OH has had a SA which came back with super results so on paper so far there's no reason for us not to get PG. The problem may be down to timing and the fact that OH is a sex panda so things like SMEP are never going to happen but I'm fairly convinced that there's something Not Right with me. I'm just plodding along now and waiting until October so I can go back to the GP and ask to be referred for more tests.

I've been lurking here for a while and following everyone's journey with my fingers crossed so hard they hurt. I'm so excited for you right now Tea!

Big hugs to you all!

lucyloo77

Long-time lurker here just popping out of lurkdom to say GOOD LUCK Tea Lover!!!! I'm rooting for you here and have got everything crossed that you get your BFP tomorrow!

A little bit about me... Well I'm 35 and TTC for 2 years. OH has borderline/low motility (depending on what SA you look at). I'm seemingly ok they think (although I keep thinking you never know what hidden probs they may come across ) We're starting our first cycle of IVF privately in May (I'm annoyingly "too old" for NHS cycle in this area now). We may have ICSI, they're going to make that judgement on the day depending on sperm quality. Drugs all booked with the drug company, should be arriving by courier at the end of next week do they'll be all ready to go. Eek....I'm terrified tbh!

Edit: We've never been offered Chlomid or anything like that. It was straight to IVF for us. Horrible, horrible shock isn't it, when the penny drops that you're gonna have problems doing something that comes SO easily to so many other people.

Also, I just wanted to say, I soooo get you not wanting to test early TL. I expect I'll be exactly the same. Even with just a normal 2WW with little hope, I never want to test and burst the bubble of hope and possibility IYKWIM. I try and put it off as long as possible lol! It's silly but in a weird way I like to live in that little bubble of hope as long as poss, it makes a nice change from the difficult reality/disappointment/heartache. Sorry, bit of a ramble there, but yeah, I do totally get the wanting to wait to test!

tea_lover

birdie - I know what you mean about the other thread. I had to stop even reading it as I was starting to have some v mean thoughts!

lucyloo - hello *waves*. Best of luck with the ivf, will be keeping my fingers crossed for you. It's only natural to be nervous, it's a scary time! But I honestly found that the anticipation was the worst part, the actual injections and meds and scans and all that gubbins really wasn't that bad at all... despite all my moaning . It's awful that the NHS say you're too old! I'm 34 so it looks like we just scraped in.

It's nice to know other people can appreciate my non-testing madness lol . I've never been much of a tester, in 4 years of TTC. I actually feel great today - really happy, quite relaxed, and I keep finding myself singing along to the radio (at work - not good :rotfl:). Whether my mood is brilliant or awful today it won't make the slightest bit of difference to that test tomorrow. And if it is a BFN, I'll be devastated no matter how I feel today. So my logic is that I'm going to enjoy today, and worry about tomorrow when I get to it.

Obviously this could all change in about 2 mins .

Part_Mouse

Hi lucyloo

Best of luck with the IVF will keep everything crossed for you.

Tea I've only ever had one 2 ww so know what you mean about not wanting to test, wishing you all the luck in the world.

BZ well done on your weight loss, you've done so well.

A little about me. I have pcos and don't ovulate at all. I've had one round of clomid which made me really ill and one of tamoxafin, I only ov on the clomid but didn't fall pg.we haven't used any contraception for 5 years and due to not ov my cycles are a mess. I'm just about starting cd1 again and only got up to about cd 14 on my last cycle. I would love to know how to get a proper cycle and ov on my own if poss?

Xx

tea_lover

Part mouse - have you ever tried metformin? There's mixed reviews about it but some Dr's swear by it for regulating PCOS cycles. I tried it for about 8 months and tbh all it did was give me a terribly upset stomach, but I do know of other people that have had success with it.

Some people also try agnus castus, but that's a herbal thing rather than 'medication' iyswim. I tried that too but it gave me even longer cycles! Think I've still got a bottle of it in the cupboard.

Part_Mouse

Tea

Sorry I ment to add I have tried both of those with no success, I did try the slow release metformin but that didn't help either, nor did the reg one.

Xx