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hypno06

Enjoy your week off, although I'd be happy to bet on a list or two being produced!!

taxi73

Great news on the meal and maje sure you DO chill out..thats an order...everything can wait for another day.

urg123

hypno06 wrote: »

Enjoy your week off, although I'd be happy to bet on a list or two being produced!!

I've got one in my head already - but some of it is nice. It includes a walk and doing my nails with products bought pre-LBM!

taxi73 wrote: »

Great news on the meal and maje sure you DO chill out..thats an order...everything can wait for another day.

Yes Maam!

Better go and check the threads.

urg x x

hypno06

urg123 wrote: »

I've got one in my head already - but some of it is nice. It includes a walk and doing my nails with products bought pre-LBM!

Ah, that sort of list is fine

urg123

So today I slept till late, went for a walk, got some of the last wedding invites sent, went to the post office.

I treated myself to a coffee at lunchtime and wrote a list of things I need to do for the wedding (sorry Hypno).

I also went to the local library - whenever I go, I'm always impressed with what they have there. I just never seem to be organised to use it more often.

I haven't done my nails but I still have time if I feel like it. I'm expecting a friend to pop over in a bit but not sure if she'll make it. If she doesn't it'll be an early night which is no bad thing.

It's amazing how quickly time just seems to disappear!

urg x x

taxi73

Hope you are enjoying your time off.

urg123

HI Taxi

Thank you for thinking of me - it's so nice to come on here and find a post.

TBH I'm having a bit of a hard time at the moment. I'm quite emotional and finding things very stressful. I haven't really had a chance to have a break at all really - there's always been something. We didn't have much planned today and so went out for lunch and then we were bored! We've lost all ideas for entertaining ourselves. We went to see gran and I came back feeling quite low. I'm missing my mum terribly at the moment and just want her around for advice and a chat.

We can't decide on a break for after the wedding - it won't be a proper honeymoon as we will have that later in the year. It's during the half-term week and it is so expensive. At this rate I don't think we will get anything!

I am so tired and very tense. I will get an appoinment for a massage this week as I think that will be a help.

I haven't had a chance to check your thread - I hope you are well.

Thanks again for caring.

urg x x

Buffythedebtslayer

Hey Urg,

Its funny on my walk tonight I was thinking about all the people in my life who had lost a parent, you came up and I came back to check in on you.

Sounds a bit nuts but could you write your Mum a letter? asking her stuff, writing down your thoughts? I am wary of suggesting stuff normally but I can hug all my other friends and I can't hug you. wish I could cos it is so hard some days. THank God they aren't all like this. I sometimes ask Dad for signs I am doing the right thing, there is usually an answer or just the act of asking makes me feel a bit better.

I am sending hugs and you are in my thoughts

Hope I haven't upset you with my somewhat silly suggestions

Love Buffyxx

urg123

Never silly Buffy - In fact I am very lucky that I have people like you around!

I have been keeping a diary and I do write in it - I just am scared that it is all so negative. A letter to her would be full of anger right now - for not being here and that's not fair to her. It's not her fault she went.

Seeing my gran in some ways is trying to get close to mum, but she feels so robbed that it can be hard sometimes as she goes in to 'if only....'. I find that too hard to cope with. I have to accept that this was the way things were and if I keep wondering how things might have been, what if I had done x... then I will never be able to move on and get on with my life.

Just writing about it makes me well up.

I'm hoping a good night's sleep will help. I went out for a walk this evening and it did help release some good endorphins. Just need to be more positive. When things don't work out the way I want I am just a bit more likely to get upset.

I think I might go and see if any of the nice people on the holidays board have any ideas for our break after the wedding. Otherwise we'll be stuck here and I think we'll both want a break after the wedding.

How are you my love?

urg x x

Buffythedebtslayer

I know what you mean about the diary being negative - my written one is like that. sometimes on here too, It isn't a true reflection of my life, I just think when I am happier I don't write as much.

I also think you have to pick and choose who you talk to or see when you feel sad and vunerable. I have one friend I avoid like the plague cos she always says the wrong thing and really hurts me. its funny, losing someone you love happens to all of us at some time or another and yet so much of the time people don't seem to get it.

at the moment right now I am ok, had a good walk and about to make a nice drink to help me sleep. And maybe another chocolate rabbit. THe horrible tense feeling I had early has gone which is def due to the walk.

Hope you find a lovely not honey moon

big hugs

xxxxxxx