Burlesque Babe's Re-building life but back in debt diary

Burlesque_Babe

I have thought long and hard all morning about this interview to teach. I even did a SWOT analysis in my head and the outcome is that I've decided not to go.

It's for lots of reasons - the first is financial, but there are knock on reasons as well as that. There is the journey - bit of a pants one each day, the thought of teaching all teenage boys (I'm enjoying teaching adults, I am not sure I fancy the flack of 13 year olds day in day out) and even though I love cookery, I am not sure I want to be living and breathing it every day of my working life.

I'd need to be right at the top of the unqualified rate for it to cover my bills, petrol and food. Anything other than that and I'd be teaching in the evenings and AQA'ing to make ends meet and that's no better than now and they could pay a NQT £20k and have someone qualified rather than pay me the top of the unqualified rate and I'd still need to do the rest of my qual.

I know some may think i'm mad to turn down an interview because I haven't even been, but I think it would be too full on and I would be going to the interview for the sake of it and that's not fair on the school and I don't need any more on my plate than I already have.

In other news, i've withdrawn £10 from daily scratchard and start again.

I got paid £628 for my office hours/teaching/invigilating.

Last month I budgeted £30 for petrol and put it in at the beginning of the month. The needle has been at the bottom of the red line for a couple of days and as I went to fill up today the petrol light came on so I judged it just right. I worked out I have 4x10 mile trips I won't need to do in July because I have no cookery teaching in the evenings now until September, so I think £25 should be enough which is what I've put in the car.

InkyCats20

BB, you've got to do what's best for you, just because there's an interview available, doesn't mean you have to go.

Sounds as if you've weighed up all the pro's & con's & come to the right conclusion for you :T

Onwards & up wards - just think, just over a month to Weyibiza & you get to meet me :eek::rotfl:

Burlesque_Babe

Nowt scary about that inky

Oh, I also had a voicemail on my mobile from the manager about that job I didn't get etc etc rather crisply saying if I wanted feedback, to call her PA and arrange a time to call her. ERm..........I did that last time - she wasn't there, not going to bother any more :rolleyes:

ZTD

Burlesque_Babe wrote: »

Nowt scary about that inky

Oh, I also had a voicemail on my mobile from the manager about that job I didn't get etc etc rather crisply saying if I wanted feedback, to call her PA and arrange a time to call her. ERm..........I did that last time - she wasn't there, not going to bother any more :rolleyes:

Send them an email
"Thank you for your message left at X time on 26th of June 2009. However your request has already been performed on Y date, and I will not be performing it again. Please send me the feedback in writing to the following address. Please also CC your legal department in.

Love and Kisses.

BB"

Burlesque_Babe

I have decided to let the woman sweat by just not bothering to ask for feedback. Part of me can't be arrised and part of me just wants to let them know they picked the wrong person to mess around with these days

Re-started at the bottom of the daily scratchard hill so will be clawing my way to another £10.

Was teaching this morning -dear god, it was appallingly hot in the classroom, I could feel the sweat running down my back _pale_

Just about cooled down now but am really tired!! :rolleyes:

Need to get the local paper today as I forgot on Thursday because the jobs are repeated. Feel as if I have a bit of job seeking fatigue at the moment. Probably something to do with all the work I put into those 2 interviews and neither were appointed to.

Last weekend of the month for AQA. I really am screaming at myself to get loads done. To be honest, I need to be working non-stop all weekend to break even but I'm so tired and hot, I'm not sure I can keep going at the break neck pace of the last few months

Burlesque_Babe

I have been stupid. And part of me doesn't care.

I had the weekend off AQA (erm, like last weekend, cough) and it has felt good to just have a normal weekend. Well, I say normal, I was still at work for 3 hours yesterday and last Saturday morning :rolleyes: but apart from that I have just pootled around doing not very much and have not been burning my brain cells for 10 hours each day of the weekend on AQA.

It's stupid because I am 100% going to be borrowing money from my savings to break even on the bills.

The bit of me that doesn't care is saying that it is 1 month in my life and if I can't even allow myself 1 month of just having 2 fairly normal weekends then my life has become worryingly sad - and it's not as if I have even gone mad and spent any money - I've just been doing normal stuff like bits of housework, read a freeby supermarket magazine etc.

So, stupid or care free.........one or t'other is my general take on life tonight....

postingalwaysposting

Care free BB :j What is life if you cant take a weekend off. I am sure you are super grateful and when you get a fabby new job its not as if you can't replenish your savings is it

Hope you have had a great ~ care free ~ weekend :T

Burlesque_Babe

ta pap It has felt nice to be just doing, well, not very much really. I haven't been able to relax enough to do anything more than the housework and a quick 5 minute flick of the magazine, but it is at least something other than work. And of course, lots of MSE'ing but that's mandatory

God, if I got a job that meant I could properly have a Sunday off, I might even...........go out somewhere............keel over with shock.......:rotfl:

Seriously though..........my life is getting very........hmmmmmm.............routine to be honest. It's nowhere near as extreme as when I was going through the Cruella carp when I used to panic if the clock said 8.01am rather than 8.00am and I was just leaving the house, but I do feel I am just working, planning work,thinking about what work I should be doing, cooking (often the same stuff), working out finances, doing the same bits of housework such as the washing and the washing up (but never some of the other stuff!).

OH is working 30 miles away most days and isn't getting here until well gone 9pm - and it's sometimes 10pm at the moment (well, unless it's football practice, he manages somehow to get back for that :rolleyes: ) and so I am mostly on my own from first thing until quite late in the day. I laid it on the line yesterday because he said he would rather be at his house whilst it is light to 'do stuff' rather than here because he didn't want to 'just watch TV'. I went a bit mad because over the years I have suggested nights at the pub, meals out, barbecues in the garden, doing a bit of gardening together, going for walks, going to the beach, going for a drive in the countryside, going to the cinema - all these repeatedly to the point of sounding like a broken records and he has never wanted to do any of them.........so to then say I was being selfish because I wanted him with me when he didn't just want to watch TV was a bit of a low blow.......

InkyCats20

At bit of "me" time is always a good thing BB

Don't be so harsh on yourself

InkyCats20

Burlesque_Babe wrote: »

OH is working 30 miles away most days and isn't getting here until well gone 9pm - and it's sometimes 10pm at the moment (well, unless it's football practice, he manages somehow to get back for that :rolleyes: ) and so I am mostly on my own from first thing until quite late in the day. I laid it on the line yesterday because he said he would rather be at his house whilst it is light to 'do stuff' rather than here because he didn't want to 'just watch TV'. I went a bit mad because over the years I have suggested nights at the pub, meals out, barbecues in the garden, doing a bit of gardening together, going for walks, going to the beach, going for a drive in the countryside, going to the cinema - all these repeatedly to the point of sounding like a broken records and he has never wanted to do any of them.........so to then say I was being selfish because I wanted him with me when he didn't just want to watch TV was a bit of a low blow.......

Sounds like you're in similar place to Sally & Maz BB - (((hugs)))