Support for people with Depression

flis21

Hey guys, sorry haven't posted again for a while, but have been reading. I have hit rock bottom (again!). My financial situation has come to a head, I've realised I cannot carry on like this, one of my friends even bought me some food last week so I can feed the kids!! Anyway I have contacted CCCS and they are getting a debt advisor to ring me next week. Have also had lots of (mostly friendly!) advice form the debt free board. Kind of makes me feel a bit better that I'm doing something about it now and not burying my head in the sand. But on the other hand I know it's going to be hard and stressful getting it all sorted.

I'm going to quit smoking on Sat, mostly because I can't afford it and I shouldn't be smoking if I can't afford food!! But I'm a bit worried how that will affect my mood. I have been quite down and tearful about my money situation. on the other hand if I keep reminding myself I am doing this for my kids so they can have food, clothes, shoes etc. that should help.

I have been able to talk to a close friend and my Mum about the situation. My mum was really shocked at first, but think she has calmed down now and said that I need to do what's best for me and my boys. even if that does mean going bankrupt!!

Got to go to drs again soon, they're keeping me on close review as to whether to up my meds. Also I have metalwork in my ankle and it has moved and I can now feel all the screws!! Am a bit scared about bringing this up with the doc as I'm really worried they're going to want to operate on my ankle and what on earth would I do with the boys then!! But I have to face it and deal with it if it happens I suppose.

Sorry think I might be rambling now, got so much going round in my head, not sleeping much as I can't turn my brain off, but I daren't risk taking a sleeping tablet in case I don't hear the boys wake up. They are off to their Dad's this weekend tho so I might have one then and try to catch up on some sleep.

Sending hugs to all who're low xxx

Borrisx

Hi Guys, Hoping everyone is doing OK this week and that you have a good weekend!

I'm feeling much lower than normal today, It's been building over days and I think it may finally be time to bite the bullet and see a GP. I can't believe I've gone from an outgoing funster to simply wanting to shut myself away.

Maybe it's because i stupidly decided to drink but it doesn't explain the constant tiredness that exists all day every day regardless of sleep

EDIT: does anyone keep a journal where they write their feelings? I'm starting to think this may be a good course of action...

Raksha

Raksha wrote: »

Hi peeps!
Having spent the weekend higher than a kite, and scaring myself silly, I went to see the Dr this morning (after 'putting my foot down with the receptionist yesterday, who wasn't going to give me an appointment and told me I had to call back when the books opened for this mornings appts at 08.30 this morning - I told her my depression may not let me get out of bed at that time of the morning, and I really needed to see a Dr)

Turns out it may be Bipolar! Or do I mean I may be Bipolar???......

I have an appointment with the local Mental Health team at 10.00 tomorrow - yes, Sunday!:T

debtfreewannabe321

Borris I used to keep a diary/journal..it was very therapeutic and would recommend it. I now use MSE and my dfw diary to vent ! Perhaps going to the GP might be a good idea, even if it is just for a chat and some ideas to help you

Good luck for tomorrow raksha :A

debtfreewannabe321

lovethymini wrote: »

dfw, if your son reads, I really recommend a book I came across a few months ago - "Beat Depression and reclaim your Life" by Alexandra Massey. It isn't full of scientific jargon, and written by a fellow sufferer, and speaks on a "normal level" for example it has a section for when your head is "just above water". It's not a huge book for your son to wade through, it's something he could pick up and read a few pages of. It is by far the most helpful book on the subject I have come across;-

http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/075350989X

It's so good he turns to you for support, you are clearly his "rock" right now.

I hope you all have a good day; I'm off to the gym for an hour , for medicinal purposes only. I can't prune the garden again yet, there'd be nothing left.

thank you i received this book today and it's great. Easy to read and has bits where you can dip in and out so i will give that to him when i see him :T

He's still at school. We're having major trouble getting him into a 'decent' school round here. We've only had one positive yes and that school is on special measures so i'm really loathe to take him out of his school yet. I think we will carry on for the moment with the counsellor (he is back seeing her again :j) and the st. john's wort because i can tell a difference in him already since he started taking them 3 weeks ago :T. really hoping we can sort the depression out and he will be happy where he is (of course if he's still not happy the carp school back home will have to do:))

dfw

Borrisx

lovethymini wrote: »

dfw, if your son reads, I really recommend a book I came across a few months ago - "Beat Depression and reclaim your Life" by Alexandra Massey. It isn't full of scientific jargon, and written by a fellow sufferer, and speaks on a "normal level" for example it has a section for when your head is "just above water". It's not a huge book for your son to wade through, it's something he could pick up and read a few pages of. It is by far the most helpful book on the subject I have come across;-

http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/075350989X

It's so good he turns to you for support, you are clearly his "rock" right now.

I hope you all have a good day; I'm off to the gym for an hour , for medicinal purposes only. I can't prune the garden again yet, there'd be nothing left.

I've started reading this book today and my initial impressions are very good. It excludes the usual jargon and gets to the real issues as appose to anything else. Hopefully it will continue

Thanks LTM! :A

lovethymini

Glad you're getting into that book, borrisx, and dfw, I've started reading it again from the beginning, this time I'm going to try writing a journal as the author suggests. Had a good five days last week but I'm possibly sinking again so trying to do positive things.

Ive been reading about about endogenous opioid deficiency/ endorphin deficiency depression. Lots of long words, but maybe with a bit more research I might find out enough to decided whether or not to discuss with dr and ask him to look into it. I do think a lot of my issues stem from childhood though.

Spotted some crocus in the garden, nice to see some colour.

Hugs to you all.

flis21

Hey all,

It's quiet on here at the mo, hope you're all ok. I'm up and down to be honest, but not too bad. I have a thread on the DFW board on here with people helping me to sort my finances out. Most people have been really helpful and supportive, but I got a post today that was nastier and made me feel crap!! Ok it's the 3rd one I've had on the thread and there are loads of nice ones. Why do I always dwell on the negative? Was feeling quite good today until that!!!

I've quit smoking as well, which is a real challenge, particularly when I get stressed or start to feel low, but I'm on day 9 smoke free now and I'm determined to do it. When my mood stabilises I'm gonna ask drs to lower my meds, they put them up a while a go and I don't like being on the higher dose. Am sure it dulls my good moods as well!!

Sending hugs to all who need it
Flis x

UnluckyT

hi all, hugs to all, hope all is well. hope everyone is getting their and looks up for everyone.
up and down at the moment, struggling a little too. had to make the awkward choice of going back to being a lacto ovo vegetarian as i wasnt eating properly and feeling so great. plus struggling a little with it.
just feeling blue and lonely mainly plus getting pretty peeved with someone i work with who keeps touching my bottom as she walks past. ive reported it to one of the managers plus not only mentioned it to her but ive also constantly told her to stop and keep her hands to herself when she's doing it to no avail?
im at a loss as to what to do, she's suffered with depression and breakdowns and dont want to be responsible for her having another one but it cant carry on and dont understand why she's doing it as she said she doesnt mean to?

Butterflymind

Hello all

Just wanted to add my experience, first time officially asked for help for depression.

Been off work several months, on ad's, seeing CBT, but I have been asked to go to other counsellor too. Long story short - turn for the worse & reviewed by crisis care team. I refused going to hospital which was suggested, and now trying for VR at work.

Been through hellish year & struggling at the moment. Reading through these posts, makes me realise it's a common thing, but, also, seeing everyone struggle makes me realise that there must be something inside us all that keeps us all going.

Hope everyone holds out and fights this.

BM

It helps to see I am not the only one having a rough time...