Support for people with Depression

sock-knitter

hi tulip, and flis, i remember you both,
sorry to hear you had a bad patch katie, but looking on the bright side, at least you are well and happy again, well done you, on coming second at the carnival
flis, my boys were my focus, and the only reason i believe, that i got thru the awfully bad times. my children also had disabilities as well, which made caring for them so hard, as their behaviour problems made me more depressed sometimes. especially as they hit their teens and where physically and mentally abusive towards me. they are now both 16 (twins) and living in supported accomodation, daniel is doing really well, is happy most of the time, tho he still has a temper that can easily flare. josh on the other hand is very unhappy and has tried to take his own life twice in the last month. josh will barely speak to me right now, tho he knows i love him, and trying to do my best. i broke my wrist 3 weeks ago, and since i cant drive, joshua is angry, and says i did it on purpose, to stop myself being his taxi driver, but i know he has mental health issues, and tho it does upset me i try not taking it too personally.
flis single mothers get given a hard time as it is, remember you are a good mum, and are doing your best for your two littlies, incidentally i was left a single mum when my boys were just 3 months old, so i have been there and know how hard it can be.
i have two guinea pigs, that i got recently, they are very easy to care for and make lovely pets, when i am lonely, i go and stroke, cuddle play with them, they always seem so happy
sorry for what turned out to be long post, i used to post as shazrobo til my ex stalked me on the forum, and i changed my name to sock knitter
hugs all
shaz xxx

Miroslav

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: Everyone,

Does anyone remember me as well? Hi Rose,sorry to read about your dog,I am fine,had a bad spell in April this year and I had to go to Wales to a unit to get well again and they made me well,I had lots of friends while in there as I was there for 2 and a half months,they got me back to Devon in time for my towns carnival of which I always enjoy,I won the carnival procession and came 2nd and won £20

I am now on the mend and back doing my usual routine

*hugs* to those that need one Hi to anyone thats new


love and light,

Katie xxx

Welcome back Katie. Nice to see you again and congrats on your carnival prize

Hope to see you posting more often if it helps.

flis21 wrote: »

Hey all,

Not sure if anyone will remember me, but seeing some old familiar names has encouraged me to post again. (Hi Katie, Miro, Gemini, Rose and Tiff xx) Have been getting thread updates by email. I've not had a good year, had a really bad bout of depression at the beginning of the year, couldn't go out, crying all the time and very stressed. They upped my meds and I got a family outreach worker to help me with dealing with the boys. Then my OH and I seperated and I had to try and adjust to life bringing up 2 very small children by myself, whilst also running my own business. Then my Nan died, it wasn't really a suprise as she'd been ill for a long time, but still really hurt when she went. I've recently lost a large chunk of my business, which is hitting me hard financially and causing lots of worry. All in all I hate this year, just want to get it over with and hopefully 2012 will be better!!

I'm hating it now it's starting to get darker, I dread the winter, always makes me lower. I am so much happier outdoors in the sunshine. maybe I should emigrate. I'm trying to concentrate on Christmas and their birthdays now, have started buying some presents and bits. Am determined they will have a really good Christmas and enjoy their birthdays (they are dec and jan birthdays). I need something positive to focus on and there doesn't seem to be much else at the moment.

Miro - am so glad to hear that you are happy and have a girlfriend, I remember your complete Britanny obsession from a few years ago!
Rose - am really sorry to hear about your loss, I had to give my rabbits up when I was really ill as I couldn't manage to look after them properly and it really upset me. I keep thinking about getting some more, my boys would love it, but worried that if I get bad again I'd have to give them up again and don't think I could go thru that again.
Shaz - How old are your children? I am really worried about the effect my depression will have on my children and they are only 20mth and 3.5yrs. My eldest already knows when Mummy is 'sad' and will give me hugs and tell me everything will be alright, which just makes me feel worse as it should be me being strong for him at his age. Altho on the other hand my kids are what keep me going and keep me fighting. I think I'd have give up completely this year if it wasn't for them.

Am sure there are more I should reply to but kids are demanding their breakfast now!!

Will try to get on here a bit more often, it is good to talk to people who actually understand and don't just think I'm some terrible single mother who can't cope (which may be true tho!!).

Love to all,
Felicity
xx

Hi Flis, welcome back.

Sorry to hear you had a bad time earlier this year. I too don't like the darker nights and i'm sure that will be echoed by many people

Oh and I still have that Britney obsession. Girlfriend likes Britney so that's worked out well. Not as much as I do, but i'm working on her

Hope to see you post more often if it helps.

Hi to everyone else. Hope things are going well.

LadyMorticia

Does anyone remember me too?

Having CBT at the moment for my severe anxiety, OCD, and Emetophobia. I've had two assessment sessions so far and start the proper work next week.:)
Have a good psychiatrist who is monitoring my meds at the moment. Don't have any side effects anymore but also haven't seen any benefits from the meds either.

M.E is alot worse now. I've just been taken on by the local M.E clinic and have my first proper appointment in a couple of weeks when the clinician is going to give me some diary sheets to fill out (just pretty much colour coding). Apparently it's a bit hit or miss but I'll try anything to feel better.

The mental health place I used to go to has shut down and my CPN will be moving to a different place that doesn't cover the village I'm in so I'll have to have a new CPN within the next couple of months. Not looking forward to it as I get on really well with my CPN and it takes me so long to built a rapport with professionals.:(

It will be DH and I's first wedding anniversary next month. We're hoping to go to Bath but now we'll have to see about money as we've just had a shock £480 mechanics bill.

sock-knitter

hi annie, i remember you, cant believe that its almost a year sine you married sam, good luck with the new cpn xxx

well my depression just gets worse, son2 informed me last night he is packing in college, i'm so lonely living on my own, seem to have hit rock bottom again, been drinking tonight, first time in weeks, i know in long run it dont help, but i had to numb the pain
shaz xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

aw Shaz I feel your pain,Hiya Miro I will post often dont you worry Hi Flis21 I remember you and also Anni as well

I forgot to say in my welcome back post that I am now an Auntie and I have a lovely niece called Evie.Spoiling her rotten although not met her properly yet as shes in Australia with my brother and sister in law,I am meeting Evie later this year and will chat on Skype tomorrow to them and then go to my parents for lunch.

Keep as well as you all can be *hugs*

love and light,

Katie xxx

DarlingBuds

Does this feeling of darkness ever get any better?

rose07

Hi

How is everyone feeling tonight?

Miro - I am sorry to hear about your cats, I understand how much our pets are much more than that, for me my dog was always there. A hug, a paw on my hand, a walk in the rain, she did not mind, she meant everything to me, still does.

Great to hear your in a relationship, and glad to hear its going well for you, you deserve it.

As for me Miro my travels have taken me all over the world, Alaska, America, Mexico, Caribbean, China, India, Egypt. I have had to adapt to heat, which I am getting the hang of. :rotfl:

Tulip - Of course I remember you. Sorry to hear about your bad spell in April. It can be awful when going into any sort of unit. I remember the time I was in one. Was not the best thing. I am very glad you found friends it always help to have someone that understands there with us.

Well done on winning the 20 pounds , every little helps right now eh?

Congrats on being an auntie.

Flis - Yes I remember you too. It sounds like you have had an awful year, loss or grief can hit hard, and you have had the death of your nana and the seperation from your OH, how are you dealing with the grief? Have you managed to have some you time? A relaxing bath or doing something you enjoy can help? Sometimes its the small things that make a big difference.
Small steps, when things are falling apart, we need to go back to basics and just take one thing at a time. Do you get to spend time with your boys and does having the outreach person there help? xxx

Shaz - Hope it is ok to call you this now? It sounds like your two boys have alot of anger inside them. And they have been venting it out on you. Have you tried talking to them about the anger and how they feel?
It must be hard for you to see your boys like this.

LadyM - Yes i remember you 3! Soz to hear about the M.E, a friend of mine has M.E , sometimes she has good days some really bad days, but I think she is also trying to get more help.
How do you feel about the change of cpn? It is hard building up trust and a rapport with someone, you need to feel safe and know they are there. I hope your new cpn will be as good if not better than your current one. Congrats on the wedding anniversary next month.

It is lovely to see you all again.

Now me is wondering where is Sazzie and Tiff?

Lots of love to you all



Rose xxxxxxxx

rose07

DarlingBuds wrote: »

Does this feeling of darkness ever get any better?

Hi and Welcome

Would you like to talk about how your feeling?

Do you get any glimpses of light? Sometimes light shines through when we least expect it.

Here if you need to talk

Your not alone ((((hug)))

Rose x

DarlingBuds

Thankyou, just fed up of feeling this way. I feel out of control, hate people being around me, keep arguing with my partner, hate the house, the weather, everything!

Just finding it very hard to motivate or see any lift in this mood.

Sorry to put a downer on things...

Tulip

:hello: DarlingBuds,


welcome to the thread