Support for people with Depression

shazrobo

beachbeth and mouse hope you feel better soon (((hugs)))
i've ended up crying today over my car, how ridiculous is that, i scraped it against a brick wall :mad:. its only 2 years old, and ive had it since new, and i got so upset, that i had caused it some cosmetic damage. no dents thank goodness. will have to phone to get quotes for that part resprayed.
so after 8 nights sober, tonight i'm gonna hit the bottle. wont sort out my car, but will help me sleep at least, and calm my nerves
night all
shaz xxx

twinklebelly

Hello,

I've lurked for a while and decided to post. I'm using a different username as some people know me on here and don't know the full extent of how I feel.

Well been suffering from depression for a few years and this has been getting gradually worse over the last year. My meds have been changed 3 times during the year and after a tearful conversation with my lovely doctor I'm now on Sertraline. First night on them last night, slept well, decided not to go to work....slept all morning and feel pretty washed out now. she classed me as at risk and wants to see me again in a week. Been getting bad thoughts about do I want to be here.

Reason for my depression...life in general. Dad died 4 years ago, pressures at work, home life etc. Been made redundant this year and having to accept a redeployment I don't want - although people say I might be happier. But its only for 10 months and I have the hassle of the uncertainty again.

I've had counselling but had all allowed sessions. Did it help...yes and no. Made me look at things and told me things others had said. But still can't answer why I feel like do.

But I still hate myself and hate life, feel useless and a failure, especially after the redundancy thing. I feel so low, can cry at anything. The other day was my first day sick with it as I was determined I wouldn't take time off, but I couldn't face seeing anyone.

My BF tries to understand but struggles and asks why crying now. I love him to bits but he can irritate as well! The lights of my life, him, my 2 cats and my niece and nephew, when with the kids I tend to forget the world.

Why am I here, well counsellor suggested a diary or something to write down thoughts. Guess is the next best thing or even better as you all understand what I'm going through and are never judgemental and always supportive.

Not sure what else to say (enough already me thinks!) except I wish you all the best and I'll pop back soon.

xx

sandy71

Need some positive vibes for tomorrow please. Going to get the full results of my scan. Neuro said there is something tumour like in my brain:(

Hugs to all who need them x

Sazbo

Hi twinkle and welcome to the thread xx Please excuse quick post but I've got to crash soon, as early start tomorrow, but just wanted to say thanks for posting and please stop by anytime you need to.

Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate recently. But yes I agree - writing things down here helped me tremendously and was a lifeline to me for a very long time. The folk who post here are so supportive.

My first thoughts are - often with depression there are no easy answers as to why we feel the way we do (imo, it's a complex web of things built up over time) - and therefore no quick fixes - but perhaps you'd benefit from futher counselling sessions? I have benefitted so much from counselling, everyone is different of course, but I know in my case if it had been limited to just a few, it wouldn't have been enough for me. Is there any chance you could continue the sessions?

Wishing you all the best and keep posting.

Love,
Sazzy xxx

Sazbo

sandy71 wrote: »

Need some positive vibes for tomorrow please. Going to get the full results of my scan. Neuro said there is something tumour like in my brain:(

Hugs to all who need them x

Big hugs back to you sandy, gotta turn in now but will be thinking of you tomorrow.

Sx

shazrobo

twinklebelly, welcome to the thread hun, this thread has helped me so much in the past, and continues to do so, everyone is really nice here
sandy, you are in my thoughts and prayers, (((big hugs)))
shaz xxx

Part_Mouse

Sandy thinking of you hun

Shaz

Well done on not drinking for so long,hope your ok after drinking tonight

Twinklebelly

Welcome, sorry for the really quick post but got to get to bed

Beth

Sorry to hear your ill aswell.

night all

xx

beachbeth

Morning everyone. Feeling really tired and haven't even started yet. Got to get some cleaning up done because I have a friend popping in for a cuppa after lunch. Sorry you are feeling low Twinklebelly. I understand how you are feeling. Horrible to be crying and, of course, other people want to know why. There isn't always a reason though - its just how depression hits. Look after yourself and be kind to yourself - sometimes we are too hard on ourselves.

Good luck today, Sandy. I hope the results of your scan are good. I'll be thinking of you.

shazrobo

morning all, dont feel too bad this morning, bit of headache, but nothing more than usual.
beachbeth, i've given up cleaning just before a friend arrives, they have learned to accept me for how i am, and at the mo, i'm generally untidy.
hugs all
shaz xxx

vickiv55

. Horrible to be crying and, of course, other people want to know why. There isn't always a reason though - its just how depression hits.

So so true. I got diagnosed y'day as having a complex anxiety disorder - which is manifesting itself in my eating disorder ! Bloody hell. My mum and my OH were asking me what i'm anxious about or what is stressing me, and i honestly dont know. My mum now feels awful that i cant talk to her about stuff, but I dont know what to say to her, when i have no idea what makes me feel the way i do.
I've got to go back to GP in about 3 weeks to see how I'm getting on, and am now on a waiting list for pyschologist. But have been told its up to 4 months at the min.

hope everyone is ok and had a good night last night. With this horrible weather I think I'll spend the day Ebaying so I'll be popping in and out of mse