Support for people with Depression

shazrobo

sh1305 wrote: »

That's brilliant Shaz!

How's Daniel doing? Is he any better?

daniel is very quiet, says his back stings where the rash is.
hope your ok sh1305
alison enjoy the tv
bedtime for me, cant stay awake any longer
night night
shaz xxx

sandy71

Hope all are ok.

Part_Mouse

Alison

Just had a bath and used a lush massage bar did a 45 min work out befoe that,off to bed before another cycle tommrow.

Shaz

Hope your feeling better soon,well done on deleting that jerks number.

SH

Hows you?

Sandy hows you?

night all one very tired mouse.

xx

sandy71

Sorry moan alert. The flyladies have been amazing but I can't keep moaning at them:o

I can't eat, can't sleep, I feel sick all the time. I have never been so scared in my whole life and I don't know how to deal with everything:(:(

vickiv55

Hi,
I'm new to this board but was needing to find somewhere to talk.
Its now 2ish, and I cant sleep... AGAIN. This is the first time I've posted here, so firstly hi. I've got an eating disorder, and i have done for nearly 2 years now. I've been overeating/purging and its now getting really quite bad. Everyone is aware that i am sick. but i've lied lied lied and have blamed a food intolerance or stress or my stomach muscle function.
I've had endless medication from the GPs for anti sickness, needless to say its gone in the bin. I only went so i could get a prescription to keep my mum quiet. then i would have a legitatmate reason for being sick. I've been for a camera down my throat, which was horrific., and i broke my heart lying on the bed because it was all my own doing and i still couldnt admit to it. I've had to eat radioactive eggs for a stomach scan. All these scans have of course come back clear, because its me doing this to myself.
And last week, I went to doctors where i completely broke down in tears. I got quite close to admitting how bad its all getting. I told her that when i'm stressed my sickness gets really bad. its like an anxiety thing. This is true. But I find myself stressing if i cant be sick after i've eaten. I feel like the food is just sitting there and i cant breathe. My chest gets really tight and i HAVE to be sick to feel less panicky.
I've been off work for the past couple of weeks and have been binging for most of the day. Its horrific. the toilet constantly smells of vomit
If I'm honest i htink this is just another form of my panic attacks/depression. I've got a child and when he was born I had really severe post natal depression. I took medication for this and it lifted but since then I've had panic attacks every so often. I've not had a panic attack in a while, but have had this increasingly bad vomitting thing. It started when my relationship with my ex was breaking down. I started to be really sick, then when we split up I had nobody to really monitor how much i throwing up so its just got worse and worse.
I'm now anaemic and i've developed raynauds syndrome as my circulation is shot to bits. I'm constantly cold. I've gone from a size 12 to an 8. and although i shouldnt i love being thin. When i eat anything, like going out for dinner or eatin in front of people, I panic about putting on weight. i try and get to a loo asap to be sick. With every meal I drink pints and pints of water so that i can sick more easily, and i always finish my sons plate so my stomach feels really full. and then i feel like i cant breathe so have to sick.
I've been asked a number of times if i'm bulemic and i always say no. why cant i just say yes? i feel like such a fraud. And people are obviously noticing and talking about me, but i still cant tell them.
When i was at the doctors the last time, she gave me beta blockers as I refused to go back on my anti depressants.
They are meant to help with anxiety/stress, and although that is underlying, thats not going to help with the bulemia is it?
Sorry if this has been garbled but I've never told anyone,, and its just all coming out now

Part_Mouse

Sandy

Sorry to hear your strugerling,here for you if you want to chat


Welcome Vicki

Sorry to hear your strugerling to,sending you *hugs*

xx

shazrobo

welcome to th thread vickviv, you made a start by writing everything down, could you print your post to show somebody?
hi sandy, (((big hugs))), here if you need us
mouse, well done on the work out, i love lush products

not been feeling well recently, not depression, just extreme tiredness, where i am sleeping during day, dizzy all time, body aches, head feels like its swimming, googled, and my symptoms sem to match M.E. or M.S. would have gone with m.e to start with, but have tingling in my hands and numbness, always droppign things, feel so scared, hoping to see gp today, wish me luck
hugs all
shaz xxx

Part_Mouse

Shaz

Hope everything goes well with the gp for you,try to rememeber that sometimes google isn't your friend and gets it really wrong

Thinking of you.

xx

beachbeth

Hope you are ok this morning, Shaz!:wave:

Sorry you are feeling bad, Sandy. I wish I could be of more help. Don't worry about moaning here, we all understand. Hugs ((()))

Vickiv55, welcome to the thread. Im really glad you were able to get your feelings out here. I hope this is the first step for you. As Shaz says, print your post out and perhaps show it to your doctor? This could be the beginning of you finding your way out of your situation. All the best and hugs (())

vickiv55

hi. I eventually got a sleep around half 4 this morning, and then had to be up at 7 to get my wee boy ready for school. Needless to say, i'm def not working today. I've made a doctors appointment for later and think that maybe printing the letter out would be a start. its scarey tho,
thanks for listening x