Support for people with Depression

Louise22

Hello everyone

I have been following this thread with some interest. I am not sure if I am depressed or not. Sometimes I think I am, because I am so sad and frustrated with everything that seems to be happening in my life at the moment. Some things I have no control over but the things I can fix (or at least make a start to fix) just seem so overwhelming that I dont even try.

I have negative thoughts about absolutely everything, and find it hard to be optimistic and see the good in things. I also feel angry lots too, but at what and who I am not sure....

Part of me thinks that I am just feeling this way because of everything going on, but when I think about it I cant remember the last time I felt truly happy and settled. Even when things were a lot better with certain problems I am having now, I always had something to be sad about, something to worry about.

I am really confused as to whether I am what you would class depressed, but I know I dont like how I feel a lot of the time, and I want it to change. I dont look forward to the future and am bored of how my life is right now - I feel totally stuck!

Anyways, thanks for reading

newlywed

Hi Louise - I have felt like that and wasn't sure if it was depression because it wasn't constant - more like depressed episodes or something :rolleyes:

But I found moodgym and ecouch helped me to retrain my thinking a bit and I did find benefit from that. They are free online cbt programs - so help to retrain your thinking.

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome

Louise22

newlywed wrote: »

Hi Louise - I have felt like that and wasn't sure if it was depression because it wasn't constant - more like depressed episodes or something :rolleyes:

But I found moodgym and ecouch helped me to retrain my thinking a bit and I did find benefit from that. They are free online cbt programs - so help to retrain your thinking.

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome

yeah thats what I was thinking, that its just like little episodes.

Thanks for the links

Tiff_2

Hi guys!
All right, all right - I'm coming! What's all the shouting about?
You got me up just to post cat pics - is that all I mean to you? (Rhetorical question, no answers needed!)

How's everyone doing?
Sorry for the recent absence, not at all like Tiffers as you know. If it helps, let's just say that even I am not exempt from life's custard pies! Anyhoo, more on that another year.
And haven't you all been busy bunnies?! I don't know where to start.
Of course protocol prevails and I'm sending a sincere Tiffy to possley (poss), boo666 (boo), gottochange (gtc), xXMessedUpXx (mu), blushred2 (blush) and louise22 (louise)! It's nice to hear from you guys and I'm sure you've been made to feel at home by the thread's resident guardian angels. And huge welcome home hugs going to our lovely gem, ettie b, shaz, ilgd, rose, lm, amber and cb2 to name but a few! You really have been sorely missed guys.
I note the absence of the sazzter off on yet another well-deserved break with gilly-badgie. Also missing from the crime scene are miro, rbk, beth, katie-tulip, ccstar and wvw. If you're reading guys, please stop by and let us know how you're doing. Thinking of you all.

Okay then, cat pic.....hmmm, now what kind of mood am I in today?



Yep, that about sums it up.

Got drs appt today with head vet soon so I can't stay. I hope everyone is as well as they can be and I'll try and get back later.
Be kind to yourself guys.
Much love,
Tiff xxx

~*Plushroom*~

That cat looked drunk! :eek::rotfl:

Well I was going to post yesterday but as luck would have it my computer flipped out!

Finally got a call from my OH, and after some yelling and arguing he seems to get that the continual let-downs are not helping my present state of mind and will not lead to a long and happy relationship between us. I had to explain about 3 times though so clearly unless you beat it into some OH's it just goes in one ear and out the other :rolleyes:

Been taking some herbal stuff to help with the sleep problems - it still isn't perfect but I'm getting more sleep than I was which helps to make things less stressful. Also been very busy making the obsessive compulsive part of myself happy by completely ripping apart the bedroom to get rid of all the old junk that isn't needed. Was amazed to find a photo of me and me ex, and a list he once made of reasons I was apparently perfect. Made me laugh, a lot. Especially when it got to reason 21: You are just like me. No I'm bloody not :rotfl:

Going to start using the links that newlywed kindly posted up for a newbie to the thread, they look very interesting.

Hello to everyone new, I'm not exactly an old member of this having got here just a week or two ago but you will start to feel better now you're here. I know I was just relieved to hear people say I know how you feel. When you feel less alone in your feelings it does make a difference, and I hope to see you guys on here.

Tiff, course we want you for more than just cat pics - but I was trying to lure you out with hungry hungry lolcats. Plus that picture always makes me smile so this seemed a great place to put it

Have a good day everyone, I have to continue cleaning...I regret starting this cleaning jag if I'm honest.

Louise22

Hello everyone

Having a really bright day today where everything does not feel so bad. Sending everyone good vibes
xx

newlywed

Hi all, feeling a bit blue today. Not been sleeping well - keep waking up at 5 am and having weird dreams - about exploding toilets to mention just one!!

Got belly ache today too. Glad to have tomorrow booked off work and have an extra lay in.

Keep having minor panic attacks over silly little things - things that I've done loads before and things that really don't matter - like what to plant in our new flower bed when it's done

I'm ok other than that... probably go back to the homeopath soon for help with the stupid panics.


OH saw his doc who confirmed mild depression. Dr briefly mentioned meds - which OH didn't want, briefly mentioned counselling and then just said he wanted to see OH every 2 weeks or so. Not a huge encouragement then :rolleyes: But OH said he feels a little bit better having been and knowing what's up. I'm going to read up on every food and mood/depression book I can find in the library.

joblessummer12

i been having a couple of rough days and have slipped back into cutting again, life just feels too hard right now. im sorry for such a downer of a post.

hope everyone else is doing ok.

~*Plushroom*~

joblessummer12 wrote: »

i been having a couple of rough days and have slipped back into cutting again, life just feels too hard right now. im sorry for such a downer of a post.

hope everyone else is doing ok.

Don't apologise for the way you're feeling, you are perfectly entitled to feeel bad sometimes, we all are.

May I suggest www.selfharm.net for help and advice that might be different from what I could provide, which would be very basic.

Look after yourself hun, there are people in the world that care about you.

*hugs*

System

Thank you for the kind welcome Tiff (and everyone else)

Had a nightmare of a day yesterday Had a message to call some number back, which i duely did, only to find my ex employers are saying they overpaid me £591 and i have to pay it back (i wasn't even aware they've overpaid me and they've treated me like !!!! even when i worked there), and then after telling my bf the details of that he then broke the news to me that my nan had died My mum had tried to call me earlier but couldn't get through, so called him instead and they made the decision to wait till he was with me to tell me as they didn't think i could cope o0n my own (and that was before they new about the overpaid wages fiasco).

Really don't know how to feel about my nan. it was my nan on my biological dads side, who've i've had nothing to do with since i realised what an !!!!!!! he was. So i cut off contact, which meant cutting off contact with my grandparents, though it wasn't them directly they had some part to play. I don't feel i can go to the funeral as i know how much i hated my dad to turning up to my other nans (on mums side) funeral-i hated him for it. So i think they will feel the same about me turning up there, plus i'm really not well with my depression and bpd and being in a room with that side of the family and the subsequent argument that would happen with my dad would push me over the edge. but i feellike such an evil person. i should be more upset than i am though i was never close to them. i don't know what to do.

seeing my doctor tomorrow and im scared everything will just come rushing out and i wont be able to stop myself telling her stuff that may make her think i'd be better off in hospital.

sorry for the long winded post, just have a fair bit on my mind right now


{{{{hugs}}}} for everyone