Diary of a Poor Person aged 46 1/2

mrscmr

v good news... best of luck! fingers crossed!

mrscmr

yis - what a day. same old same old really. looking for job - thinking shop work at christmas. thinking aaagggrrr! autumn is really here though with the cold wind etc

how u's out there?

Happytogetdebtfree

im ok i think still hating the world and wondering why i dont enter for deal or no deal or maybe the cube lol win some cash ... ah to dream ahh to be df for a week just to see what it will feel like lol x

mrscmr

ha ha happytoget... you forget one very important thing... i am the most singularly unluckiest human being to walk this earth. therefore i would not be selected even if i entered a million times.

dream ... yes i do and often... i look at other people in and around my world and think... what did i do wrong to make my life sooo dreadful and what the heck did they do right to get their lives sooo right. and the answer is ???
x

Happytogetdebtfree

there just lucky bleeders lol im feeling like that hating the world cursing people lol i dont know whats up with me im like an emotional rollercoaster ahhh to just have a lump sum disappear x

kissjenn

Hello...glad you got the package. Je suis tres knackered and off to bed again soon. This quasi working mularky is playing havoc with my freetime and all for zero money and contract so far!

Still must keep the faith...uuuuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmm and other meditating like noises.

I'm back to normal tomorrow so big catch up then if you've some time?

mrscmr

right o.... thinking now of applying to mollymaid for a cleaning job.... it sounds ok - i like cleaning ... shall i? omg

Purpleroses

evening ebay queen et al!

i'd say go for the cleaning job. I've done it a few times and was usually really well paid.

off to catch up on the last few pages now.

POSITIVE_AND_FOCUSED

mrscmr wrote: »

ha ha happytoget... you forget one very important thing... i am the most singularly unluckiest human being to walk this earth. therefore i would not be selected even if i entered a million times.

dream ... yes i do and often... i look at other people in and around my world and think... what did i do wrong to make my life sooo dreadful and what the heck did they do right to get their lives sooo right. and the answer is ???
x

hi Mrs CMR

Just popping in , see how you are. Im so sorry you feel this way. I too have felt like Im on an emotional roller coaster for a variety of reasons. Feeling a mixture of sadness and desperation and then hope and positiveness, wanting to feel grateful for being alive and having debt when my dh isn't. I feel so guilty for feeling negatively when my dh is not even able to experience such thoughts anymore. But you know what, I just have to look at my dd and even me in the mirror and know that I am so so blessed to have a home which I will be keeping, to have known my dh for the time I did, to be so thankful to him for our dd. In my more together moments this is what keeps me going. I say to myself, I will be df, I am doing ok. I just want to urge you to start to think the same about you, and your life. Congratulate yourself for still hanging in there, for having such a lovely family, for getting to know the support network on this site. You will be ok, you are such an inspiration. Look forward to a brighter, better future and like me try to enjoy the challenge of becoming df. Accept the low times, and welcome the better times! Take care xx

mrscmr

oh my, thats a lovely posting Focusedandpositive - you are living up to ur name. please dont be sad, like you say we must think about the good and not dwell on the bad. one thing we all have in common is that we realise what has gone before and that we have the support of the forum around us - and there are so so many good people on here just willing us on. yes i look at others and wish i was them often - but are their lives so great? what is going on behind closed doors?? XXX to u.

purpleroses... [ebay queen - me ? never! - wish i was!] might apply to be a maid - wonder how it works?

kissjenn - yep catch up tomorrow cos im away the weekend. have fingers crossed about ur work.

off to iron now x