Debt free & tidy diary

Lurker1972

Got yesterdays errands done, yay me
today I'm pottering in & out, hoping to enjoy sunshine & maybe get some little bits done in house

there is also a vague plan forming in my head re job....


happy weekend everyone:beer:

Lurker1972

& its Monday again, the days sure whizz past in a flash without a job to occupy you!

OH started the day well by throwing very hot coffee all over his foot...and the bed, floor, walls......suppose its one way of cleaning the floor!

Have been for a swim which was VERY pleasant, then spent more time a traffic jam trying to get home than I did in the pool.

as its supposed to rain today, the task for the day is ironing, fun fun fun!

Lurker1972

Feeling a little flat today.
one of my friends who is also part of the redundancy club has got a job
I am SO pleased for her, but in my head ot was my turn to become a worthwhile part of society again but I'm getting nowhere fast.
Maybe I'm looking for the wrong jobs I just don't know.

and again I didnt get anything done in the house yesterday!!

seems my motivation has also made me redundant - anyone know where I can get some for free???

The_Golden_Goose

Hellooooooooooooooooo!

Don't worry. The pants days are also there to accompany the great days. Its normal, its called being human.

I had a dream last night that the job I didnt get, my friend got. Really odd. It seemed so real too.

Like you, I love reading the diaries. I find them inspirational and motivating. One of the reasons for doing my own diary was to try and keep myself motivated and upbeat when all my self induced debt was making me feel rubbish. Its hard to not feel rubbish when you only have yourself to blame for getting yourself into such a mess. As you imply, being anonymous on here really does have its benefits, such as being able to pour your heart and soul and PMT on to paper. There is no judgement, just support and encouragement, which is what I like about the DFW board. We are no longer in denial, we stand up to be counted for being carp with money and are making a change. Having people tell us how bad we are, or how silly we are, does not help our situation, which is why most of us keep the debt as a dirty little secret. Least that is how it feels to me.

Not to mention that its lovely when people post on the diaries, as they keep us going and let us know we are not alone.

Set yourself small daily goals and ones that are achievable. No point trying to do something you have no intention of doing (don't read my to do list then!! Typical that I give advice, yet cant take my own ! Ha Ha).

Motivation - keep reading the diaries, keep reading the new posts and cries for help and give yourself a big boot up the butt, think about what is good in your life and then have a cuppa and a nice biccie.

Sorted now?

Lurker1972

You are so wise GG!

& therefore I am now going to clean the bathroom & won't be back until its all shiny

Lurker1972

I lied! its not finished, is clean but now needs all carp replacing neatly - actually thats kind of the best bit however said carp is covering the landing - how the bleedin blimey do I get so much in the smallest room??!!!!

ok, that was the 5 minutes break, final slog to complete task & reward with cup of tea in garden (no biscuits in the house, can't eat them by the packet that way).......

move butt move butt movet....butt moved!!!

The_Golden_Goose

Way to go.

I do that too. Give myself a reward for doing tasks.

Eg:

not allowed back on MSE til put washing away
not allowed to go to loo til emptied dishwasher (extreme I know but it works)
not allowed cuppa til chucked all Mr GG's stuff that is loitering in the lounge onto his side of the bed as a SUBTLE reminder to SHIFT IT TO WHERE IT BELONGS....

Get the drift?

Lurker1972

I'm finished, I have a nice sparkly bathroom & have combined 3 baskets of STUFF into one, added an unused electric toothbrush to the car boot stock section and am completely knackered!

Possible the most remarkable thing about this is not that I actually did what i said I would (thanks to the Golden Goose for her advice) but that I've also put away the cleaning stuff I used! woop woop, miracles do happen

I promised myself a cup of tea.....& now am moving the goalpost slightly - while kettle is on the dishwasher must be emptied & refilled

if only there was chocolate in the house......

Lurker1972

Can't handle this.
Went to see outplacement chap again today & now I need to completely redo my CV despite me thinking it looked pretty good before.
he also said I'm not in any fit state to be interviewed at the moment - because Im down about not being invited for any - vicious circle there
OH says I need to get more applications in, cos the more sh*t you throw, the more chance of some sticking, but there haven't been many I could do, so thats not helpful
I guess people don't want to interview me cos I'm just not good enough, not special enough.
I wanted to leave my old job years ago, but never dared - was scared of rejection, of being the newbie, of being way outside comfort zone. Now all I want to do is hide under the duvet & not come out, Home is now the comfort zone that I don't want to leave.
I really need to get a grip or they(ex-employer) will have broken me, think I have enough pride left to not let that happen....

mooomin

Lurker1972 wrote: »

I guess people don't want to interview me cos I'm just not good enough, not special enough.

B*llocks.

You are awesome. We all think so.

You have been really positive up until now, this is just a wee hiccup. It will be fine.

I don't know if this helps, but if you wanted to ping me the text of your CV (Not the locations etc, nothing personal) I could try and help. I tarted up OHs CV a while ago and managed to get him a job (Rubbish work history and long gaps in employment times) - I'm good at that CV flannel. If you want a hand, PM me

Chin up petal, it will all be fine.

*hug*