Depression Support Thread

rugbymum

Jo_R wrote: »

Does anyone else have trouble sleeping?

I cannot remember the last time I slept the night through. I think it was at the beginning of September last year, not sure though.
Someone further back recommended some of those story tapes/CDs to fall asleep too.

Jo_R_2

I'm pretty sure it's 'just' pregnancy-related, not that knowing that makes me feel any better! I'm exhausted this morning, I dozed when I went to bed then woke up about 3am wide awake again, and was up for a while feeling poorly

Braved bed again rather than getting up, and managed to drift off after a while. This morning however my body feels like I have been up for days, my limbs are so heavy that it's hard to just move...

Thinking of asking my parents to help out with DD2 by having her for a few days, I'm really struggling and not sure how I'm going to manage if I feel like this for the rest of the week

Jo_R_2

Shaz, it's always nice to have someone with you when you're driving somewhere you don't know. I must admit OH usually does the driving, but I do feel that sometimes I could face up to the worries more by doing the driving myself with him sat there next to me (sounds like that's what you are doing?) just in case.

Went to the furniture project near town with our family visitor this morning. She's really nice, it's through her that I've found a lot of the stuff I've been doing recently such as playgroup with DD2. Bought a really cheap chest of drawers (poor OH's and baby's clothes are respectively in a laundry basket and box on our bedroom floor!) which will be great and it's being delivered tomorrow. Still need a single bed for DD2 so we can use the cot for baby when he outgrows the moses basket, so we're gonna go back sometime soon.

When I mentioned to her I'd been doing some 'nesting' with baby being imminent and was thinking of painting a couple of rooms, she told me about a recycling project in town where you can get pots of paint really cheap - and decent stuff as well apparently. So that would be great, going to check that out very soon!

shazrobo

jo_r, we tend to take it in turns driving, and having him there really helps me, as i panic when i am in a strange place. also after we had finished shopping at the trafford centre, i panicked a bit, cos i couldnt remember which car park we had parked in, its such a big place, but between us we found it.
i particularly hate driving in the dark, so ian drives us everywhere on nights out, like tonight we are going for a drive to a lovely country pub that we know for a meal out. love days like today, when we can spend the whole day together, dosent happen often, because of his shift work
hugs all
shaz xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!

I can't believe it's four weeks today since I lost my lovely Mum. Still can't believe it tbh, and I find myself flinching away from any thoughts of her because it's still so painful. I know that's not good really but, as I'm wont to say, it's a ''step by step and it will take time'' situation and hopefully time will due it's duty and take the edge of it away eventually. I guess it's natural to be struggling a bit.

I hope you won't mind guys, but I'd like to share the reading and the poem I wrote for Mum's funeral two weeks ago.

The first part of my tribute to Mum at her funeral, a reading...

FOR MY MUM...

Tuesday, 20th January, 2009.

Death is nothing at all.

I have only slipped away into the next room.

I am I and you are you: whatever we were to each other that we are still.

Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in the easy way which you always used.

Put no difference into your tone; wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.

Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.

Let it be spoken without effort, without the ghost of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was; there is absolutely unbroken continuity.

What is this death but a negligible accident?

Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?

I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near just round the corner.

All is well.

Nothing is past; nothing is lost.

One brief moment and all will be as it was before - only better, infinitely happier and forever.

~ by Canon Henry Scott-Holland.

And the second part was a poem I wrote at about 3a.m. on the morning of her funeral...

When I Think Of You . . .

When I think of you, it's with your beautiful, brave smile that always reached your eyes,

It's with memories of devotion, sacrifice, of silent courage, generosity and unending kindness.

When I think of you, I'm filled with hope borne of strength, faith, love and

The knowledge that, because of you, anything is possible. And also that heroes are quiet.

When I think of you, I never falter or struggle for words to describe you,

For there are so many and my heart will beat them out, one at a time, forever.

When I think of you, with you ever watchful, I feel safe and loved and complete,

Wholly and without hesitation and strong enough to try, to stand again.

When I think of you, I'm grateful and humbled by all that you are, all that you achieved,

Knowing how you touched so many lives unselfishly, leaving each one always for the better.

When I think of you, there's only a sincere love to be honoured and remembered,

A legacy strong enough to see me and mine through all our years to come, with you there still.

And though you've gone ahead and you've started a new journey without me,

We are always heart-bound, together. And I will feel forever truly loved and blessed...

Whenever I think of you.

Many thanks again guys for all of your messages and support.:A
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!
I hope we're all as well as we can be, peeps?

I thought I'd better post again after coming across this on the interwebs...

Now which one of you was trying to sell my cat basket on ebay?! Hey, wait a minute - where's miss sazzy?
That's okay - I got my own back!

Let's start things off with a sincere Tiffy to wmxlad, foreign correspondant(fc), got2change(got2), skint, single mum of 4(ssm4), grannyc(gc), mrs tine (mrst), uktigerlily (lily), swampmonster (swampy) and rugbymum (rm). You're all very welcome here as I'm sure you've already discovered. Lovely souls here with plenty of kindness and support available.
And it's nice to see some people returning again - huge Tiffy hugs to elona, blues, sf and beth, to name but a few and also sending Tiff love out to rbk, beks, shaz, gem, ettie b, ilgd, kl, cara, amber, rp, tpm, wvw and to anyone who's feeling that they're struggling at them moment.

Well, I've been a busy Tiffster with one thing and another, as well as trying to keep track of you all - you have been busy bunnies! Our lm has switched coasts , cb2 has been shanghai-ed , jo is about to have her baby (it'll be on Saturday hunnie!), ccstar's son turned 21, sf has landed a teaching post , s has done his first week in his new job , and katie tulip has been rioting in an Exeter pub!
You lot don't do anything by halves, do you?! I'm very happy for all of you - well done folks!

Talking of St.Valentine's Day on Saturday, my [STRIKE]stretch marks[/STRIKE], er I mean DS, will be 19 years old! Best Valentine's present I ever had - I even had to get that one myself! If you're really good, I might post a piccie of DS in the week - it'll serve you right too! He's actually going to be partying down in London with his student friends on his birthday and what's left of him after his hangover, will be coming home for half term on Sunday. First time I won't have seen him on his birthday! Never mind, I'm sure it'll work out cheaper for me.

Definite catnap moment coming on, so I'll love you and leave you for now, guys.
Be kind to yourself.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi lm!
Good to hear from you angel!
How are the ribs doing hun? I hope the move went well for you on Caturday and that the weather didn't hamper things too much - I was thinking of you.

Good luck to you both angel.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

I had a good day today at the pub,sang a few songs,then came home.Mum let me know that one of my Uncles has died yesterday in his sleep.I am fine about it as they had been unwell for quite some time.

relaxing tonight and then going to bed.

love and light,

Katie xxx

shazrobo

morning all, posting this, cos i really need to tell somebody, wont help josh, but had to get it out of my system, am so angry and upset.
my sons only friend, who travels in the taxi with him to school, has beaten josh up, josh is very badly shaken, as well as cuts and bruises, and all because josh gets a couple hours after school activities, and dosent come home tues after school, but instead, go to his brothers school, for a couple hours.
the police are involved and the other lad has been excluded for rest of week, why are some kids so nasty?

hugs all
shaz xxx

La-Cara

oh no shaz that's terrible! (((((hugs))))) for you and Josh, hope he gets better soon.
Glad to hear that action has already been taken against the boy, but it shouldn't have happened in the first place. Can't he keep his jealousy under control?!
xx