Depression Support Thread

beachbeth

Morning everyone! Im feeling ok but just dreading my tribunal for my Incapacity Benefit. Ive been told it will be around March time. Ive convinced myself that they won't reinstate it and said this to my OH yesterday. He said they probably wouldn't reinstate it and said it didn't matter because we can carry on as we are. Its awful being incapable of bringing money into the house though. I feel guilty if I buy myself clothes or go to the hairdressers. I was hoping though that OH would say "Of course they'll reinstate it, don't be silly" but it made me feel worse that he agreed with me!

I get stressed if I have to do the weekly shop (usually have it delivered), tearful and agitated if Ive got too much on my plate and sometimes my brain just feels as though its bursting full and can't take any more. I can't imagine how people cope with work and the thought of sitting at a desk again fills me with dread and panic. How can they say Im capable of going to work?

Sorry to go on this morning. I know Im not the only one with troubles on here. Well done on coping with your job, Sssssss!

rugbymum

I've read through the thread, but I'm still unsure about what I can write or ask!
I know I need to go back to my GP. I can't get as far as phoning for an appointment - for anything.
I can get the kids sorted. My house is just about acceptable. The rest of my life is a mess.
I can't tell my GP what I want/need. There is a small part of my head that is quite rational at the moment & is very clear on what I should be doing. I can't get through the fog to get there. If I have to go through the GP tick sheet again I think I will scream! I can't face having to take pills again that will take 2-3 weeks to work & will make me "feel better" to the extent that I don't ask for the proper help cos' "other people are worse than me". The GP will accept this and the cycle will start again.
My head is all over the place. I just want everything to stop.

Sssssss

beachbeth wrote: »

Morning everyone! Im feeling ok but just dreading my tribunal for my Incapacity Benefit. Ive been told it will be around March time.

Hi beachbeth try not to worry too much about the tribunal, it's not till march and I'm sure they will take all the facts into account. Just look forward to your next good thing be it this afternoon or tomorrow or next day plus you seem to have a very understanding OH.

Sssssss

rugbymum wrote: »

I've read through the thread, but I'm still unsure about what I can write or ask!
I know I need to go back to my GP. I can't get as far as phoning for an appointment - for anything.
I can get the kids sorted. My house is just about acceptable. The rest of my life is a mess.
I can't tell my GP what I want/need. There is a small part of my head that is quite rational at the moment & is very clear on what I should be doing. I can't get through the fog to get there. If I have to go through the GP tick sheet again I think I will scream! I can't face having to take pills again that will take 2-3 weeks to work & will make me "feel better" to the extent that I don't ask for the proper help cos' "other people are worse than me". The GP will accept this and the cycle will start again.
My head is all over the place. I just want everything to stop.

HI rugbymum, I'll probably get my post deleted for saying this, but don't worry too much about the 'rules' In all honesty having read the MSE forum manager post if it's got nothing to do with money saving then you can't post on here, which is complete nonsense! As long as we keep our posts friendly and nice we should be okay

Please do try and get to see your GP, don'worry about 'I can't tell my GP what I want/need' that's his job to be telling you what's best for you.

Fingers crossed you make that appointment.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,I am off to Mums soon for lunch and then off to a group at my church this afternoon from 2.30pm-5.30pm I have to take the chocolates today to Mums which I got for them yesterday and they are now nice and cold as they have been in my fridge


see you all later


love and light,

Katie xxx

Savvy_Sue

rugbymum, could someone else phone and make the appointment for you? Do you ever see your HV - years ago I told mine I thought I had PND and she helped me sort a few things out. Can you write something out for the GP? (including if I have to work through your ticksheet again I shall scream!)

rugbymum

Sssssss wrote: »

Please do try and get to see your GP, don'worry about 'I can't tell my GP what I want/need' that's his job to be telling you what's best for you.

Fingers crossed you make that appointment.

Last time I saw him he told me "good that you're not taking the tablets anymore". I got a pat on the back! Unfortunately he also didn't ask how I was :rolleyes: .

rugbymum, could someone else phone and make the appointment for you? Do you ever see your HV - years ago I told mine I thought I had PND and she helped me sort a few things out. Can you write something out for the GP? (including if I have to work through your ticksheet again I shall scream!)

I've been quite good at avoiding people recently. To the extent that I don't have anyone I would trust to talk to. I have no idea who our HV is, I miss our old terribly, she noticed my PND 12 years ago before I did!
I was near nervous breakdown 4 years ago & GP referred me on to CPN. Chap came & offered me a place at local hospital place but I was pregnant & scared they would take the baby away & give it to abusive ex! So said no. A descision I have regretted ever since. Other CPN said "theres nothing wrong with you really, you'll be fine", left & I have had no contact since.
I don't know how to ask for the help I think I may need.
I can write stuff down really easily, so I guess that's the best way forward!
Thanks.

LadyMorticia

Haii!

Hope everyone is well.

xx

granny_c

shazrobo wrote: »

hi granny c and welcome to the thread, i buy asda decaff tea bags and they are on offer at £2 for 2 boxes, and they taste just the same as the tetley decaff ones which i used to buy, only cheaper:j

Will definitely try them...great, thanks.x

Jo_R_2

I used to love the evenings after DDs were in bed, chance to relax and then go to bed whenever I felt like it!

Now I am a fantastic example of an insomniac... Ironic given I have always been one for sleeping really well, not necessarily loads of sleep but rarely having any trouble dropping off or staying asleep. Now I can manage a couple of hours at a go then that's it, awake for a good hour - or more if I don't get to sleep.

Last night I dropped off for a couple of hours on the sofa, woke up and went up to bed, must have dropped off for a bit as I remember having a dream, then woke up about 4am wide awake and completely unable to drop off. Eventually got up about 4.30/5am-ish (all a bit vague now!) came downstairs and pottered about for a bit, on computer, watched a bit of tv and eventually clambered onto sofa whereupon I immediately dropped off by the light of the fire and the tv, on but sound off, what's that all about?!?!? Seem to be able to sleep fine on the sofa but in bed...

I've been really tired but avoided having a nap in the hope that if I'm really tired, and stay awake right up until I go up to bed that I might be able to get a half-decent night's sleep in a comfy bed!

Does anyone else have trouble sleeping?