Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

LadyMorticia

*hugs* to everyone.

CPN appointment went okay. I was honest with him and I think he appreciated that. I like how he hasn't given up on me yet. We're on our third appointment and it's usually by the second that I'm deemed a "no hoper".lol.

Anyway, he's going to talk to the psychiatrist about maybe giving me some mood stabilisers to neutralise my mood a bit and I have to keep a mood and anxiety diary.

He said there's no point giving me anti-depressents as they have never worked before which was probably because I don't have a depressive illness, I have a personality disorder.

Overall I felt he listened to me.

My old CPN just used to sweep how I felt under the carpet. I'm glad this one is taking notice.

LameWolf

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Overall I felt he listened to me.

Yay!!:j:j:j That's the first step, and often the most difficult to achieve.

UnluckyT

hi everyone, hope you all okay and if youve had a rough ride i hope it picks up.
i not heard from the people who suppose to be getting in contact but will chase things up in ness.
mind you id a funny turn so to speak last week and kinda went 'hypo' so to speak. i was on edge, very tempremental to the point of biting peoples heads off over very little,then id found myself ott happy although i felt very nervy and kinda phycotic.
trouble was i found as i do that bieng in work didnt help plus having a colleage telling me off about it kinda topped it. that and bieng overtired?

crazy_girl

LadyMorticia wrote: »

*hugs* to everyone.

CPN appointment went okay. I was honest with him and I think he appreciated that. I like how he hasn't given up on me yet. We're on our third appointment and it's usually by the second that I'm deemed a "no hoper".lol.

Anyway, he's going to talk to the psychiatrist about maybe giving me some mood stabilisers to neutralise my mood a bit and I have to keep a mood and anxiety diary.

He said there's no point giving me anti-depressents as they have never worked before which was probably because I don't have a depressive illness, I have a personality disorder.

Overall I felt he listened to me.

My old CPN just used to sweep how I felt under the carpet. I'm glad this one is taking notice.

sounds promising, looks like youve got a good one there

crazy_girl

hubby isnt hope till 11pm i dunno what im gonna do till then

LameWolf

crazy_girl wrote: »

hubby isnt hope till 11pm i dunno what im gonna do till then

You hold on there, occupy your hands and your mind with something gentle, and remember that the Wolf's here for you.

11pm will come along sooner than you think. (((HUG)))

crazy_girl

im an idiot, im weak and stupid and horrible and i did it and i only stopped coz pup jumped on me and started trying to lick me better maybe i should go to the hospital im nutty enough

LameWolf

crazy_girl wrote: »

im an idiot, im weak and stupid and horrible and i did it and i only stopped coz pup jumped on me and started trying to lick me better maybe i should go to the hospital im nutty enough

CG, look, you had a moment of weakness, but you are NOT stupid, and you are NOT horrible.

I'm so glad Barky jumped on you and you stopped. Now, go get yourself the help you need - I don't know if hospital is it, but you can't just sit at home berating yourself.

crazy_girl

ive got a doctors appt friday morning, thats the quickest they could do i just want to die and i cant tell him that just incase and i have to go to psychotherapy tomorrow

LameWolf

crazy_girl wrote: »

ive got a doctors appt friday morning, thats the quickest they could do i just want to die and i cant tell him that just incase and i have to go to psychotherapy tomorrow

I wish to goodness there was something more I could do to help you.
Can you talk to your psych about this at all? It's so long since I had any sort of "talking" therapy, I feel I'm not a lot of help.

But you've gotta hang in there; if it helps at all, there's folks that care about you. Your husband, for starters. And little Barky. And me, for goodness sake!

Courage, my friend - you CAN get through this.