Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

black_paw

got blister on claw rifgt by nail and paw now ! redness gone down /least better now

crazy_girl

i think ive got a new obsession, i keep having to check back over what ive written on this forum- ah well!

today was ok to start with, i met my friend in town we got the flowers (my mum suggested fake so we could prepare them in advance so id be less stressed) and some ribbon to tie round them, the cupcakes and roses to go on top (MIL to be is gonna ice them the day before whilst oh watches i think!) and some keyrings for the groomsmen (the type you put pictures in- theyre gonna have a daft pic of me and oh on one side and their name and the date on the other)

i manged to get some cereal for brekkie and some fries for dinner.

we went to asda afterwards and i got really panicky and tearful, i started panicking that my mums mad at me and i was crying by the time i got to the checkout.

i havent had any tea suprisingly....

crazy_girl

black_paw wrote: »

got blister on claw rifgt by nail and paw now ! redness gone down /least better now

ouch! hope its gone soon

crazy_girl

LameWolf wrote: »

Crazy Girl I'm glad you've joined us here; everyone's welcome. You leave your legs alone, y'hear? I hope you hear back soon re psychotherapy, and that you get the help you need - meantime, please come here as often as you like. Oh, and btw congrats on the forthcoming marriage.:o

Actually, I'm 'orribly late getting online today; overdid things yesterday as I was trying to do a zillion jobs while Mr LW was working from home and therefore here if I got in a jam, and I've knocked the stuffing out of myself. I'll learn, one day..... (unlikely).

I'm finding night times difficult at the mo; always seem to be awake at 03:00 or thereabouts, and lie there wondering what in the sam hell Mr LW sees in me. Daft, eh?

If I don't get on again before Tuesday, have a happy and safe Bank Holiday weekend, people.

thanks im actually bricking it, big dress, going loo, people looking at me all day etc. etc. mental stuff on top of the normal pre-wedding jitters!

try not to overdo it, i know its easy to say and hard to do! something me and oh do is negotiate a list of reasonable stuff to do in a day, when im all stressy and manic he drives me nuts by only letting me do a bit of stuff when im in a 'cant get outta bed' day, he makes me get up and do stuff! haha! i never win!

i dont think its daft that you wonder about your oh, i get that too, i bet a lot of us do. i feel very guilty that hes become a carer as well as my oh

black_paw

i think i have a day in bed coming on ! feel real shaky and a bomb waiting to go off in head ..as b/f say ...go to bed now ! bye all

System

:mad: some people on MSE really really !!!! me off...i know i should just ignore them but thats like i'd be admitting they were right

crazy_girl

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

:mad: some people on MSE really really !!!! me off...i know i should just ignore them but thats like i'd be admitting they were right

whats up messed up?

System

crazy_girl wrote: »

whats up messed up?

ahh just someone on the benefits board who doesn't have a clue about depression!

*and breathe*

how are you? how are the wedding plans going? sounds exciting

crazy_girl

i had that yesterday too in 'real life' i wasnt up to using the ladies so i used my radar key and this gang of kids went off at me, drawing attention and tuts and bad looks etc. to me i get inside and i just cry

it doesnt help that people do put on mental illnesses to get benefits, it sorta tars us all with the same brush

i get worried that people dont believe me coz of such attitudes, i constantly grill my doctor about him believeing me!

im knackered after all the buying stuff yesterday! im still in bed

its only 11 sleepings now

System

Still in bed too lol

i'm forever paranoid that people look at me and think nothing is wrong, but then they don't know what goes on in the mind fo someone who's mentally ill.